Thursday, August 13, 2009
you will never know the weight of the mountain until it's all on your shoulders...
you will not realize how deep the cut until it's revealed to you...
i cried...
because i was helpless...
because i wish i could do something to make sure everything is okay...
i just wish that my parents would know how i feel about everything...
it's time for my brothers to grow up and learn to carry the family on their shoulders too...
i'm tired because i have to be the chosen one...
not that i don't love my family... i do in fact love them a lot...
that's why i feel that it's time for my brothers to learn and look beyond their little selves...
i don't understand a lot, and i don't know a lot...
and i question myself...
sometimes i wonder the meaning behind my name, the tower of strength, is it a blessing or a curse?
you will not realize how deep the cut until it's revealed to you...
i cried...
because i was helpless...
because i wish i could do something to make sure everything is okay...
i just wish that my parents would know how i feel about everything...
it's time for my brothers to grow up and learn to carry the family on their shoulders too...
i'm tired because i have to be the chosen one...
not that i don't love my family... i do in fact love them a lot...
that's why i feel that it's time for my brothers to learn and look beyond their little selves...
i don't understand a lot, and i don't know a lot...
and i question myself...
sometimes i wonder the meaning behind my name, the tower of strength, is it a blessing or a curse?
XOXO
Thursday, August 06, 2009
i need to do what's right,
but my heart does otherwise.
reality and fantasy is at constant conflict in me,
will you understand?
there are things that need to be said,
there are things that need to be made right...
To person 1) I have no intention of stealing your precious, so rest assure that he will stay by your side. i will promise not to touch him because i'm simply not interested.
To person 2) You don't know me but i just wanna tell you that i won't lose to you. Given my competitive nature, i will not allow myself to simply lose to you. Standard is too low.
To person 3) You can do what you want but you better leave the people i love alone. if i find out that you are out to hurt them, i will make sure you get it all back in double.
i've always worked hard... since young, cinderella was my role model... she was not rich, not pretty, doesn't have much "talents" but she still shone in the end... i believed since young that you don't have to have a good family background, don't have to be pretty or slim to be noticed by the prince...
one day, he will realize that you are so capable so what others are unable to do or cope with; simply anything and everything... he will realize that you still look pretty in rags and dust... because of your kind and loving nature, he would think that skills could be cultivated...
so i worked hard...
i would dare to say, i really try very hard...
my life mission was to please others... i'm serious...
anything to make someone happy,
everything to make someone smile...
to let them know that i care,
to let them know that i will be there....
i'm reminding myself again, that i will not shortchange myself... i will not settle for the second when i know that i can achieve the best...
XOXO
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
7 sentences that people say...What does it mean to you?
It is just words?
Person 1) If we are both still single when you are 25, we will be together okay?
Person 2) Remember the codes and let's hold on to the ''7'' promise alright?
Me to Person 3) I will be there for you when you need me; to run errands or to run the ministry when you're away...
Person 4) You are my untold secret... someone who can never be made known to the people in my world...
Person 5) You know me too well... like as if you see through me...
Person 6) We will plan to make a plan... but in the end, none of it happen...
Person 7) You will tell me bedtime stories and make time for me despite your busy schedule... you make me feel that i can trust you because you know so much... sometimes you make me wanna hold on to you for life...
Person No. 7, do you know that the no.7 in the bible means perfection... Out of the 7 people in my 7 quotes, do you know that you are the one closest to perfection? Perhaps you will never know who you are to me... but i just wanna say that you're a real special character in my life...
XOXO
Saturday, August 01, 2009
Just wanted to write some stuff before I head to bed.,.
For the past few days, I just want to thank God for His faithfulness... Always there to catch me when I fall, there to love me even when I have so much sin... His grace and mercies are new everyday, His love never fails...
Whenever I lift my hands, He is there reaching out...
When I'm down, He pick me up...
When I'm dirty with sin, He cleanse me with His priceless blood and clothe me with His robe of love...
Because of Him, I can stand to say, I will not give up...
I will sing out loud, praises that was never heard before,
because He deserve it and it's His plan for us to live victorious and full of His joy...
I'll live out that life that God drew on the blueprint of my life...
For the past few days, I just want to thank God for His faithfulness... Always there to catch me when I fall, there to love me even when I have so much sin... His grace and mercies are new everyday, His love never fails...
Whenever I lift my hands, He is there reaching out...
When I'm down, He pick me up...
When I'm dirty with sin, He cleanse me with His priceless blood and clothe me with His robe of love...
Because of Him, I can stand to say, I will not give up...
I will sing out loud, praises that was never heard before,
because He deserve it and it's His plan for us to live victorious and full of His joy...
I'll live out that life that God drew on the blueprint of my life...
XOXO