Monday, June 30, 2008
i'm tired.......this is the first day of my Esther Fast... it's really crazy... hungry................. and it's only the first day... but i guess it's gonna be worth it for missions... hungry...
school is madness... sigh... i really wish that i don't have to go school... sigh... stupid projects and assignments... sigh
now i feel so tired after battling the whole day... just leave me alone satan...
schoool tomorrow... more work... can't go for meeting, thanks to school... i can't wait for friday...
*will someone come and hug me?*
XOXO
Thursday, June 26, 2008
MADDY'S INTERNSHIP:
GLORIA HOTEL, SANYA
THIS IS IT!!!!
i thank God for all these =)
XOXO
this video cheer me up when i was down...
super funny =D
p.s: i love you, aiba-chan... honto kawaii
XOXO
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
"shhhh... just keep quiet", said the peace loving little voice.
I don't want to see the lightning nor hear the thunder... I don't even want to see the dark sky and pouring rain...
"it's flooding" says the little girl to her stuffed animal, hoping for some sort of a reply... she tried to stay calm, tried not to panic, she did her best... she really did...
filled with fear, her heart beat with the thunder that was still roaring in the background...
i really tried my best to be the best in your eyes...
but i CANNOT meet all your demands...
stop being so irritating and demanding...
XOXO
IT'S MADELINE, IT'S MADELINEhello everyone, it's already mid-week... woot woot
*trying to rejoice a little*
school have been crazily busy for me... still got lots of work to do, very little sleep... sigh... but i thank God for keeping me healthy even in these stressful and horrible period....
a bad news... i won't be going to Legendale Beijing Hotel for OSIP anymore due to some VISA issues... however, i re-applied for Gloria Hotel Sanya... well, now i'm just gonna pray and leave everything to God already...
when He closes the door, no man can open...
when He opens the door, no man can close it...
that's all for now...
XOXO
Monday, June 23, 2008
CFC INDIA MISSION TEAM!
having fun at Pretty Pix @ Whitesands after the jabs
we are a crazy bunch of people who are mad for Godi'm so excited for the mission trip because i know that God is gonna move and there will be signs and wonders happening... God's presence will come like POW and people will be set free from bondages and healing and so much more...
just thinking about it makes my spirit man so excited...
anyways, i had so much fun just hanging out with the peeps yesterday at Big Splash... at first i thought of heading home to do my work or find somewhere to do my work but i guess i need to relax and chill a bit too...
this whole week(last week) is just madness... i had so much projects to do, meeting to go for, assignments to complete, ministry stuff, cell stuff etc etc... so sometimes it can be very tiring and draining... but the bible says those who wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength...
spend time with shenna and i feel that it's good... we talk and of course there were the boys... we had our own America Next Top Model at East Coast Park... totally retarded and attention-seeking... we found ourselves a BBQ pit and turn it to a fashion runway...
we are so retarded and poor sean lee have to be the one getting eliminated... hahah... then we had a short Ellen Show with Mariah Carey spoof... so so funny... after a long while, we decided to head home... Gauis, Sean Lee, Shenna and me walked from Big Splash to Marine Cove and sat down at macs... hahaha... then we eat, drink and bum around until Sean had to leave...
then shenna, gauis and me decided to cam whore... and we realise that there was this guy who sits behind us looks very much like colin... super funny... haha
anyways, i really had fun yesterday... shenna said something which really keep me thinking... "if you wanna marry a super good-looking guy, you can't have such low self-esteem..."
well, i guess that is pretty much true... the fact that i get intimidated so easily... but through Rach, God spoke to me on saturday about it already... that my security is in Him, His opinion about me is the most important...
His love will fuel me through everything
but i can't wait to meet my "other-half"... hahah
XOXO
Thursday, June 19, 2008
if only i could marry Yamashita Tomohisa (Yamapi)...
and have a gorgeous son like Yamada Ryosuke (Yama-chan)...
and have a gorgeous son like Yamada Ryosuke (Yama-chan)...
life would be perfect.... hur hur...
but for now i want to thank God for something...
The HR Manager/director of Legendale Beijing called me a while ago and chat with me... it was a nice chat and just like talking and she told me some background info and like talk about China and stuff... she also tested my chinese skills... hur hur... then i shared with her a little about my mission trip experience...
and the coolest thing? here it is...
HR manager/director: "in your resume you said that you were from CHIJ Katong..."
Maddy: yup
HR manager/director: "ok, i was from CHIJ Katong as well..."
Maddy: COOOOOOOOOOL!!!!
HAHA... what are the chances of you talking to someone who is in China, a singaporean who worked there for 14 years, and someone who also studied in CHIJ Katong... POWWW!!!
God, You serious rock...
and the HR manager/director is just so nice and stuff... and she ended by saying "i will get back to you shortly and you will hear from me soon..."
even if i don't get the OSIP, i will be more than happy because i saw God's hand upon my life and my every step =)
XOXO
伝えたくて 伝わらなくて
時には素直になれずに
泣いた季節を超えた僕らは
今とても輝いてるよ
それぞれ描く幸せの形は重なり
今大きな愛になる
ずっと二人で生きてゆこう
百年先も 愛を誓うよ
君は僕の全てさ
信じている ただ信じている
同じ時を刻む人へ
どんな君も どんな僕でも
一つ一つが愛しい
君がいれば何もいらない
きっと幸せにするから
雨の中で君を待ってた
優しさの意味さえ知らず
すれ違いに傷ついた夜
それでもここまで来たんだ
かけがえのない 出会いは
奇跡を繋いでいく
思い出 重なり合う
始まりの歌 鳴り響いて
どんな時も 支えてくれた
笑い泣いた仲間へ
心込めて ただ一つだけ
送る言葉は「ありがとう
百年先も 愛を誓うよ
君は僕の全てさ
愛している ただ愛している
同じ明日約束しよう
世界中にただ一人だけ
僕は君を選んだ
君といれば どんな未来も
ずっと輝いてるから
XOXO
OHAYO!!!so sleepy and sick... but i'm claiming healing for myself... didn't go for project meeting cause i was too ill... but i stay at home and help malcolm with his jelly making maths homework...
haha
anyways, i did my spiritual giftings questionaire already... hee
1. Miracles
2. Healing
3. Compassion
4. Serving
5. Faith
Shepherding/Pastoral
i don't really have time to blog recently but i will try to update as and when i have the time... various meetings, school stuff, assignments etc etc...
=)
XOXO
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
CORAL'S 20TH BIRTHDAY!!!
this is just the start to the rich & famous high life~
but before that, there are still things i need to do... and school work is one of them...
but i really had fun at the vocal workshop at Engage when Babes Conde was the teacher... it was short but it taught me a lot... i thank God for blessing me with a good voice... i will be a good steward of this talent...
if God calls me to the media industry one day, i promise to be the brightest shiny christian... but now, i'm just called to serve Him in church so i will be faithful...
alrighty, i've gotta go now...
XOXO
Saturday, June 14, 2008
the girl is no longer sitting by the side of the cinder...she is no longer in rags and covered by dirt...
her prince, Lord Jesus have come and rescued her...
from rags to dress,
with power and authority...
i am now the Lord's little Cinderella...
i have so much to thank God for...
1) for providing me with the opportunity to go church camp
2) my granny gave me RM20 (covered 2 meals) and i survived only with RM20!!!
3) for speaking to me, for encouraging me
4) for sending awesome friends who love me
5) for giving me the powerful spiritual gifts
now i'm just praying that i can go for missions to India in July... i know that somehow God will make a way for me...
XOXO
Monday, June 09, 2008
Psalm 40
1 I waited patiently(intently) for the LORD; And He inclined to me and heard my cry.
2 He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay, And He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm.
3 He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God; Many will see and fear And will trust in the LORD.
4 How blessed is the man who has made the LORD his trust, And has not turned to the proud, nor to those who lapse into falsehood.
5 Many, O LORD my God, are the wonders which You have done, And Your thoughts towards us; There is none to compare with You If I would declare and speak of them, They would be too numerous to count.
6 Sacrifice and meal offering You have not desired; My ears You have opened; Burnt offering and sin offering You have not required.
7 Then I said, "Behold, I come; In the scroll of the book it is written of me.
8 I delight to do Your will, O my God; Your Law is within my heart."
9 I have proclaimed glad tidings of righteousness in the great congregation; Behold, I will not restrain my lips, O LORD, You know.
10 I have not hidden Your righteousness within my heart; I have spoken of Your faithfulness and Your salvation; I have not concealed Your lovingkindness and Your truth from the great congregation.
11 You, O LORD, will not withhold Your compassion from me; Your lovingkindness and Your truth will continually preserve me.
12 For evils beyond number have surrounded me; My iniquities have overtaken me, so that I am not able to see; They are more numerous than the hairs of my head, And my heart has failed me.
13 Be pleased, O LORD, to deliver me; Make haste, O LORD, to help me.
14 Let those be ashamed and humiliated together Who seek my life to destroy it; Let those be turned back and dishonored Who delight in my hurt.
15 Let those be appalled because of their shame Who say to me, "Aha, aha!"
16 Let all who seek You rejoice and be glad in You; Let those who love Your salvation say continually, "The LORD be magnified!"
17 Since I am afflicted and needy, Let the Lord be mindful of me. You are my help and my delivere; Do not delay, O my God.
I thank God for helping me through my OSIP interview and i manage to pass the school round and my resume have been sent to Beijing for them to select and decide... Revelation 3:7 is imprinted in my heart and mind and i have faith and trust in God...
Church camp is TOMORROW and i'm so so excited... despite the fact that i have to do work during camp, i am still looking forward to spending quality time withn God and learning so much more about Him and His word...
even though there is a lack in my life, a physical and material need, i know that God will always provide a way like how He shows Himself as Jehovah Jireh (the provider) to me many times... Lord, i praise You and thank You for every single thing in my life...
i'm so blessed...
because the Lord is my strength, my shelter, my help and my LOVER...
XOXO
Friday, June 06, 2008
today, i'm gonna spam my blog with my fav. jap guys... BRACE YOURSELVES!!!
The HOTEST - Yamapi
The SEXIEST GUITARIST - Ryo
The CUTEST, MOST KAWAII - Tegoshi
The FUNNIEST - JIN
The MOST BEAUTIFUL - Kame
The YOUNGEST - Yamada
The CUTEST ANIMAL LOVER - Aiba
The HOTEST - Yamapi
The SEXIEST GUITARIST - Ryo
The CUTEST, MOST KAWAII - Tegoshi
The FUNNIEST - JIN
The MOST BEAUTIFUL - Kame
The YOUNGEST - YamadaThe CUTEST ANIMAL LOVER - AibaThe MOST GENTLE - Nino
The JR that i love a lot - Toma
The best DOMOUJI (dao ming si) - Matsumoto Jun
i totally love love love PRETTY BOYS!
haha... anyways, here's Kristie's quiz thingy =)
RULES TO THE QUIZ:
-People who have been tagged must write their answer on their blog & replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves :D
-Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.
1. If your lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?
I will pray a prayer of blessing over him and hope that he will find his true one, while i wait for God to send me the right one...
2. If you have a dream to come true, what would it be?
to be a missionary sent by God to touch lives... i love to travel and serve God =)
3. Which 2 people's butt do you wanna kick?
no one
4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
i will pay off the church building loan, pay off my parents' debts, pamper my granny and my parents, support my brothers in their dreams, give some to missions, buy myself a 3-room flat, have my own fashion and dance studio.
5. What is your ideal lover like?
God-fearing, people-loving, understanding, reliable, responsible, caring and compassionate... plus point if he's goodlooking... plus plus point if he's jap... hahaha
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved my someone?
loving someone... it's better to give than to receive
7. How long do you intend to wait for the person you really love?
I would wait until the day God bring him into my life...
8. If the person you secretly like is attached, what would you do?
I would step back and wish him the best...
9. Is there something that has made you extremely sad?
hmmm... the situation at home? buy i know that God will make a way...
10. What is the one thing I am grateful for?
For being a child of God :D
11. What would you do if you have only one more day to live?
i will preach the gospel, pray for the sick and sing praise songs wherever i go...
12. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
working in a hotel, happily married to a godly man, perhaps with 1 or 2 kids... becoming a powerful woman of God...
13. Who is currently to most IMPORTANT people to you?
God, Jesus, Holy Spirit, Loved ones, CFC.
14. What type of person do you think who tagged you is?
She is a cute darling... love God, love to serve Him, love dance... have a lot of potential that have yet to be unleashed...
15. Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
it's not up to me to say if i want to be single or married, rich or poor... but i definitely know that God don't intend for us to be alone and He have plans to prosper us and make us the head and not tail =)
16. What is the first thing you do when you wake up?
Look at my handphone.
17. Would you give all in a relationship?
i will follow God's order... to love him, to respect him, submit to him...
18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
I'll seek God for the answer and the answer would be clear...
19. What people do you hate?
I'm learning to be like Jesus, so no hating :D
i won't tag cause i know no one will do it... so yup =)
XOXO
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
i'm so tired... just shut uppeople can be so blind towards everything; even things that are so obvious... someone should just pass me a knife for me to gorge out my eyes; i'd rather not see...
victim mentality surfacing and drowning the surrounding people... someone should really pass me a float...
before i become the next hitler, someone should pull me out of the living room that i'm in now... i tried to be the best that i can be... but the best now is for me to pull out gun and pull its trigger...
do not comment on my life and my actions if you're not here with me... don't you even dare to give me the disagreeing face and stare...
i'm tired already... i'm gonna stop here... but i will end with this... i will not give up until God tells me it's done...
XOXO
Monday, June 02, 2008
what a tiring and draining day...
i barely slept thanks to someone and i talked on the phone with him... (*note: i don't usually talk on the phone)... so i went to bed when it was like super late and i woke up at around 8am to go to school for project meeting at 10am...
we had meeting from 10am to about 3:30pm... it was like 5 hours plus plus... goodness... i almost died... went to the library with Adler to look for some books... then went back home...
so here am i... blogging and listening to Aiba's solo song called Friendship... it's super nice... i can hear it over and over again and still feel very happy and cheerful... it's such a jumpy and refreshing song...
and i was also looking at some cute little boys from Hey! Say! Jump!... gorgeousness... meredith officially turned me into a crazy-little-boy-lover...
there's still a lot of work to be done before church camp which is next week... must jia you... anyways, here's the pictures from Pulau Ubin
=)
ESCAPE TO PULAU UBIN~
me and monica dear
mon dear, grace dear, me and adler
with my dearies, grace and mon, waiting for the van to bring us to Chek Jawa
me and adler at the rubber tree area, entrance of Chek Jawa
grace, adler, me and mon...
how can we stop taking pictures? while we were walking to the Chek Jawa broadwalk
we're up on the tower... the view is beautiful...
we took a picture with Miss Chia
this is near Pulau Sekudu (the island behind)
me and sheila at the first quarry...
this is us at the Kertam Quarry... we sneak in... hur hur... the whole place is so so beautiful...
on our way back... me and sheila... XOXO
Sunday, June 01, 2008
i heart pretty/cute jap boys!!!
(i've decided not to post the pictures before people start commenting)
lots of things happen, good and bad but i believe that it's all gonna be good... i can't wait for church camp...
anyways, i LOVE japanese boys... hur hur... had a JAP DAY with meredith and joel ooi and it was fun... the boys are GORGEOUS! singaporean boys, please step aside... hahah...
it's now my "holiday" but i still have lots of work to do... and a lot of project meeting... even in the midst of all these busyness, i pray that i will still be like Mary who sits at Jesus' feet instead of being like Martha being busy with every other thing and totally missed the point...
oh yes... i'm still on my 10kg weight lost... I MUST LOSE 10KG!!! it's a personal goal and it must be done... ok, at times i feel fat and i get affected when people say stuff about me but i really try not to be affected...
but, the reason why i want to lose weight now is not about esteem issues but it's for my future career, my health and also I WANT TO LOOK BETTER... like seriously how good can a pig look? ahahah...
anyways, yes... i will work hard... i'm going off already... bye bye
XOXO