Wednesday, August 27, 2008
^ more smiles ^it's down to one last exam paper... i really thank God for this last few moments in my poly life... even though there's so much pressure, so much stress, and being sick is not the best "add-on" to have... but i thank God for bring me through...
it's GAMING EXAM tomorrow and i'm feeling super lost... sigh... it's not my best subject... and i totally have no clue and no idea how it's gonna be like... i pray that it will be easy... i need to do well this semester...
you got no idea how much stress i have to undergo,
you stupid insensitive moron...
stupid idiot...
only care for those who/whom you love...
the rest are trash/slaves that means nothing...
do you dare to say that you ever cared for someone else besides _______...
omg.... i would have given you a damn tight slap if i'm not a christian...
XOXO
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
distracted by many things... i wanna dance and i wanna sing... all except what i'm suppose to do... STUDY...
hur hur...
well... i'm half way through already... half way there, maddy...
ganbatte ne...
God, i wish that i could just leave and get out from where i am now... stupid idiots... baka otosan, baka okasan, baka otouto...
mejime da ne, watashi...
atama ni kita...
yamero yo...
dekeiki...
kanashii ne...
honto kanashii...
XOXO
Monday, August 25, 2008
when there's no boundaries for love...it's 1 down and 4 more to go... *take a deep breath*
i really wonder how am i gonna even survive taking a degree when a diploma could possibly kill me... sigh...
pray, pray, pray
p.s: i could have fallen for a sweetheart like you
(don't bother guessing)
XOXO
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Mercies that rise with the new morn
Set me apart as a new born
Each moment I live, by faith I believe
With You I'm never alone
Darkness may come, trials seem so long
You are the light I depend on
Through the valleys and storms, Your word keeps me strong
My shelter, refuge and song
I trust in You
Everyday I live
I know You are my God
I lift my face and look to You, my God
Even when the mountains tremble
And a thousand fall
I will stand with You
My Jesus
Take my all
我必能一路永跟随我的主
Set me apart as a new born
Each moment I live, by faith I believe
With You I'm never alone
Darkness may come, trials seem so long
You are the light I depend on
Through the valleys and storms, Your word keeps me strong
My shelter, refuge and song
I trust in You
Everyday I live
I know You are my God
I lift my face and look to You, my God
Even when the mountains tremble
And a thousand fall
I will stand with You
My Jesus
Take my all
我必能一路永跟随我的主
XOXO
i always wish that it could go away at a snap of my fingers...but i was wrong...
it was meant to be a process...
a long process to be exact...
i always wish that someone could walk with me...
but i was wrong...
i was meant to walk alone...
a long and silent journey...
i guess i just have to get used to the silence...
even if i can't hear anything or anyone,
even if i can't see the end,
even if...
i will still trust You, and i will walk...
You're the only one who understands,
the only one who knows what i feel...
God, You know exactly what i want and what i long for... You know the every desire of my heart, and i trust that You will grant the desires of my heart... the dream to see Japan saved, the dream to reach out to a generation that is lost through music and dance, through the media... my dream to impact people in the pop culture...
Lord, it's my dream to see the pagan world coming back to You... Jesus, i am will to give up anything and everything in exchange for that dream... That is my cry...
XOXO
Thursday, August 21, 2008
he's the prince who loves to eat, Wu Zuni can't help but think that my tiny little bimbo-tic brain cannot contain such huge amount of information... sigh... God please help me...
i really cannot take studying again... my brain really feels like it's gonna explode... only sane worship songs and pictures of gorgeous people keeps me going...
so much for JOY... hahaha... but no matter what, i will still trust God and lean on Him... because He is the only one in the entire world who knows me BEST and love me the MOST! no man in this world can be compared to Him...
only when i magnify Him, all else will seem small and insignificant...
XOXO
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Just like a child...there's so many "WANTS" in my life...
it's always "i want...., i want..., i want...."
haha... oh well... now, i will just focus on studying for exams...
after my exams (next thursday), WOOOOHOOOOO!!! shiok-ness to the max... i wanna go buy books... C.S Lewis, Joyce Meyer and many more and then bring them to China with me...
^money trouble^
i seriously wish that someone can tell me "hey, you've won $____!!!"
XOXO
Monday, August 18, 2008
dance cinderella, dance...my departure date and flight have been confirmed...
14th Sept 2008, Sunday
1100 hrs @ T1
Transfer at Hongkong
i will be returning on...
23rd Jan 2009, Friday
2340hrs @ T1
it's so fast... this week is study break, then following week is exams, then 2 weeks of nothing to do but pack, and i will be gone for a good 5 months!!!
countdown timer: 27 days left
i'm looking forward to it i guess... haha... so fast... *panic panic* i can enjoy 4 more weeks of love from my awesome friends who always laugh at me but help me in the end, 4 more weeks of hanging out till we become crazily madly tired... just 4 more weeks of that...
anyways, gotta go study now... goodbye world!
XOXO
Thursday, August 14, 2008
what's my dream? still wondering where i'm going...
XOXO
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
as the rain starts pouring...i have to start revision real soon... actually like TOMORROW!!!! there's a lot to study for... a total of 5 exam papers is NO JOKE! and i really have to do well this sem...
i have only 33 more days in Singapore... can't wait to start packing... i am now preparing mentally and spiritually for the next 5 months of what i call "mission"...
next week, i will spend my week in church mugging my butt off... then the following week, in school scribbling all that i've learnt... then 2 more weeks of intensive crash course with Bel and meeting up with people... then off i go to Sanya, China...
alrighty, i'm going off already... bye~
not hoping much because i don't wanna be hurt...
guarding my heart... (maybe turning cold)
XOXO
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
it's still summer, why is it raining?lots of thoughts in my head... for the past few days, i've spent loads and loads of time thinking... many times i find myself with tears streaming down... many times i find myself wanting to just run away...
but i know that it's not the way out!
still smiling is my policy... still believing is what i'm doing... how many people actually know what i'm going through... i know "to each its own" but i really feel like escaping... what can i do...
i'm still gonna hang on... i must...
i love this picture of ryo-chan and yamapi...
introducing THE HELLO KITTY HOTEL IN TAIWAN
A super awesome Japanese gymnastic guy... Hiroyuki Tomita...
XOXO
Friday, August 08, 2008
dream dream dreamwoke up after a totally weird dream... hahha... if i tell it to someone besides meredith, people will definately think that i'm fangirl-ing...
but it's a nice weird dream... haha
was reading the prophesy thingy that Teck Choon sent to the YA mail... and at the last part, many Asian countries were mention... China, Korea, Japan, Singapore etc... i tell you, Japan MUST be saved!!! China and Korea are experiencing their revival, next will be Singapore and Japan...
God, You must really show your love to those who are blind... do not turn Your face away okay?
i believe that my merciful daddy God will pour out more and more of Himself in these last days... and Japan and Asia and the world will be saved...
(so much for being a singaporean... talking about Japan and only Japan before Singapore's national day...)
still love the smile and warmth
XOXO
Thursday, August 07, 2008
flowers anybody?i spent my whole day sort of slacking... suppose to meet up with someone to collect something but didn't do that in the end... i can't wait... i'm gonna get it tomorrow... hee
school tomorrow... thank God it ends early... it's gonna be ultra busy and tiring... a marathon i would say... for me...
friday overnight to saturday morning... and then cell on saturday afternoon, then rush to marine cove to setup and then all the way till 10pm when the thing end...
GOD GIVE ME STRENGTH!
oh, and i need to lose weight FAST! i'm feeling more and more fat and my weighing machine is like showing me digits that i HATE... haha... need to lose fats.... run run run
exams are coming soon... i'm quite (in fact very) scared... but i will do my best and leave God to do the rest... i will learn to trust Him with my life... my everything...
i thank God for big dreams... dreams that many mock but i believe that if i do my best and if it's God's will for me, it can be DONE!
~under the umbrella of love
XOXO
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
this will be it!
hey all, i'm back from my God sister's 21st birthday... (simple explaination: she is my mum's god daughter, so technically my god sister...)
anyways, thank God that there isn't many friends from her modelling company... i'm quite ermmm... like not really... ermmm... sociable towards people who are super.... you know.... media-fied...
well, there were 2 of them whom i think were very normal... but the party is like ok cause it's very family-like... and it's quite sweet to see my god sis's boyfriend around and super involved with everything and like super nice to all the family members...
was like talking to daddy and daddy commented that next year it would be my turn... daddy wants it to be at some function room or hall, with a DJ cum sound system and like buffet and stuff... just like what i wanted...
a birthday ball for a princess...
i want my birthday cake to say "PRINCESS"... hahaha... daddy will definately invite a million people, given the wide connection that my parents have excluding my family... and daddy also mention about me inviting my church buddies which is like more than 50...
and i was like thinking, by then... CFC will be at less like 300? hahhaha... and i will have school friends, work friends... BOYFRIEND???
hhahaa... something that i don't wanna talk about... i mean... i really find it so romantic when boyfriends are nice and super sweet to like take time to plan and organise birthdays... oh well... if it's God's will...
can someone get me to Japan, my future husband awaits...
XOXO
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
waiting for something,praise God for everything...
XOXO
Sunday, August 03, 2008
SHOPPING SPREE AT THE FLEA MARKET!!!it was really fun even though it's still tiring... i bought so much stuff... seriously A LOT! i'm like contributing to the Flea Market like mad... hahahah
i'm going off already!!!
(can't wait to start packing for China)
XOXO
Friday, August 01, 2008
i could so kill my tutor!
there wasn't any news about NO LESSONS until i was in the cab on my way to school... GOD!!!!! i was like struggling to get my dead corpse to the bathroom then to school...
so now i'm bumming in the school library AGAIN, thinking of going to the EXPO to take a look at the NATAS Travel Fair and the Watson Sale... my precious time is wasted just like that... Thanks, DR ___.
I'm like really looking forward to tonight... ok, pentacost friday... then Meredith's house for our Jappy Fan Girl stayover... then cell group, saturday service, and preparation for sunday's flea market... then sunday, FLEA MARKET...
it's quite exciting, don't you think???
ok, this post really sound like me talking to myself... hahah... monologue... hahahhaha... anyways, i'm really excited for my OSIP... hahah... like 5 months away from home??? hahaha... 45 more days!!!!!! fast eh???
hahaha... anyways yeah... i've been like checking out university in Australia that provide Hospitality or Tourism degree... well, future plans... while i search, i will trust God to lead the way
^ ^
there wasn't any news about NO LESSONS until i was in the cab on my way to school... GOD!!!!! i was like struggling to get my dead corpse to the bathroom then to school...
so now i'm bumming in the school library AGAIN, thinking of going to the EXPO to take a look at the NATAS Travel Fair and the Watson Sale... my precious time is wasted just like that... Thanks, DR ___.
I'm like really looking forward to tonight... ok, pentacost friday... then Meredith's house for our Jappy Fan Girl stayover... then cell group, saturday service, and preparation for sunday's flea market... then sunday, FLEA MARKET...
it's quite exciting, don't you think???
ok, this post really sound like me talking to myself... hahah... monologue... hahahhaha... anyways, i'm really excited for my OSIP... hahah... like 5 months away from home??? hahaha... 45 more days!!!!!! fast eh???
hahaha... anyways yeah... i've been like checking out university in Australia that provide Hospitality or Tourism degree... well, future plans... while i search, i will trust God to lead the way
^ ^
XOXO
THIS IS A SUMMERTIME!!!Essentials: nice clothes, yummy watermelons, milk and cute guys!
it's 1:49am, FRIDAY MORNING!!! and i'm still awake... hahha... just finish editting my F&B CRASE report...
XOXO