revive my heart, Lord
i don't want my head to rule over my heart...
my heart that love God, love people...
is this the result of me using my head to rule for that short while,
forcing myself to forget stuff,
forcing myself to smile, to be normal...
now... i can't feel anything... and i hate it...
there's no love... no care...
but i'm still doing the right thing...
the only time i felt love from someone,
was last night in a dream...
when i woke up, i wish that it could somehow continue...
i could not smile from my heart anymore...
when bel told me to smile,
it suddenly feel like an impossible task for me...
i no longer feel crazy about my japanese boys,
no longer jump and dance to my sailormoon songs...
no longer do all that...
what happen to me? can anyone tell me the answer?
i wish that the person from my dream would be real...