Wednesday, October 31, 2007
thanks to watching Hana Kimi (japanese version) on Crunchyroll, i didn't really rest... i know many of you out there will want to murder me but drama series are so so addictive... in total i watched 8 episodes in a row last night... ahahah
i have 4 more episodes to go, but i will leave that for friday...
cell is cool and i can't wait for Saturday when we have our Kbox outing... it will be fun... singing and doing crazy things... hahahah
oh oh, i saw Ah Boon with his group of friends at simpang just now... it was quite wierd lah... the whole table literally turned and look at us / me and started talking... then not long later we decided to leave, so as i walk pass Ah Boon's table i felt wierd lah... hahah
i told coral while walking home that i used to have a tiny winy crush on Ah Boon... tall, dark, tonned, super sweet and thoughtful... but one thing that put a stop to it all, HE'S NOT CHRISTIAN... and so i stopped liking him... hahaha
coral asked me why not date/like someone from church... well, i would wish/hope/pray that my future boyfriend who will be my future husband is from Emmanuel CFC... serving in the same ministry and stuff... BUT!
WHO WILL FANCY ME???
(i'm not materialistic lah... just give me a godly man, passionate for God and His kingdom, someone who is sweet and thoughtful, someone who cares for others more than himself...)
although i would love to have a super goodlooking husband but i still want someone who is godly... the God Factor cannot be absent... aiya, all i have to do is to go Korea and attend Dr Choi Yonggi's church... there are thousands of cute korean boys who are christians there...
come on maddy, go to korea
hahaha... oh well... hahahah... i'm so looking forward to weekends... another week pass so quickly... but i guess things are slowly picking up pace... especially school...
7 more weeks to YA Camp =D
somehow i wish i could have that someone special now
although i know now is not the time *pout lips*
XOXO
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
OPPA, SARANG HEYOHELLO WORLD!!! well, thank God it's today... it's just crazy to see how God is moving in my life... and i thank God for everything... this morning when i went for my lecture at the ever-so-sunny Sentosa, my lecturer showed us a ppt slide show with Corrianne May's song...
95% of the people in the lecture room just continue to chat with one another, while some decided to snooze before the lecture start... all i did was to sit there and watch the slide show... and God decided to speak... through the slide show, i learnt wisdom... wisdom from God in fact...
so easily as humans we switch off to things that seem boring or useless but sadly those were the times we learn the most... and i thank God i watched it...
it made my day better and everything seems awesome after that... i finally got to meet my full class, well they are all clique-ish but i still choose to be very friendly lah =)
i guess it's good when you put God first...
TRIBUTE:
thank God for awesome friend like Grace Sng who totally made me burst into laughters with her auntiness... ahahha...
i still love korean guys...
planning to go Korea next year, not on a tour but i wish to travel like free & easy so that i can meet more korean people =)
who wanna come with me???
Isaac: i'm still going for Mission Trip no matter what =)
XOXO
Monday, October 29, 2007
love me teddy today is such a boring day... stayed at home and watched Lisense to Wed... ok lah... wanted to go online but my idiotic brothers refuse to let me use the cable... argh... hate them to the core... idiotic boys... i hope that malcolm won't turn to be like the 2 ungrateful bums...
my life is like "so exciting" huh... i need more life lah... i hate the emptiness God... there must be more than this all... something is just missing
anyways, i watched TV and there was Hey Gorgeous on Channel U and Rayvin (aka Rayman, Sheila) was in it... hahahha... how to do your hair in 10 seconds... what a talent RAYVIN!
i finally got the 2 pictures from A380 from my friend... so here it is =)
TP HTM Service Ambassedors: Leon, Me and Ben
the group picture... i'm proud to say that i belong to TP HTM i will keep the distance so that i won't grow to rely on you...
i will stay away so that i won't be a burden to you...
my poor heart that is so broken can no longer that the test...
XOXO
Sunday, October 28, 2007
it's been a few days, how are you guys doing???
well, i wasn't in my best state for the past few days but i thank God for everything... somehow i had to deal with my own emotions and my own brain... but no matter what, i'm still hanging there...
maddy is strong
school is like tmr... monday... well, i learn something my bertilicious... don't hate/dread school... hahhaha... it's cool... i believe that no matter what, God still have His hand on my life and so i won't worry so much =)
ok, below are some pictures to summarise the past few days...
26/10 (FRI) @ Changi Airport
char and aiken with their tourist-y pose... hahaha (sorry for the blurness)
aiken's maid photoshoot... i love it... (sorry for the blurness)
again.... char and her tourist-y pose...
aikey and Mr Ronald Macdonald
isaac fooled us into making funny faces... tsk... now i look like wierdo
28/10 (SUN) @ Emmanuel AOG
well, i wasn't in my best state for the past few days but i thank God for everything... somehow i had to deal with my own emotions and my own brain... but no matter what, i'm still hanging there...
maddy is strong
school is like tmr... monday... well, i learn something my bertilicious... don't hate/dread school... hahhaha... it's cool... i believe that no matter what, God still have His hand on my life and so i won't worry so much =)
ok, below are some pictures to summarise the past few days...
26/10 (FRI) @ Changi Airport
char and aiken with their tourist-y pose... hahaha (sorry for the blurness)
aiken's maid photoshoot... i love it... (sorry for the blurness) 
again.... char and her tourist-y pose...
i miss the A380 event... it's still my dream to be a Singapore Girl =)
sitting around and talking =)
thank you, jossie for the Happy Meal toy =)
aikey and Mr Ronald Macdonald
laughing and going crazy at Polar Puffs and Cakes
27/10 (SAT) @ East Coast Beach
Roland and Chellie... so happy =)
me and my dearest mentor, Roland...
after the YM party...
isaac fooled us into making funny faces... tsk... now i look like wierdo28/10 (SUN) @ Emmanuel AOG
Emmanuel and his cool hairstyle
poor aiken... after doing maths...
char the cool kids (and her signature tourist-y pose)
this is what we call "studying at EXPO"... ahhaha... just joking =)
XOXO
Friday, October 26, 2007
i finally finish watching Goong Swell, the ending is like ok... i kinda really like the show... maybe because it was the only korean lovey dovey drama when i need it...
i just needed to escape into a world of fantasy for a while... although it's like stupid, but i really needed it... reality hurts and cuts and always leave you wounded... then i really needed the drama
then i fell in love with the "prince"... i mean, ya lah it's like a show and the actors will act to be nice and sweet and romantic but in real life, they are not like that... i know in reality guys are not like that... and would never be...
i don't even know what to say and what to do and how i feel now...
the emptiness comes from the lack of love
come and fill me Lord
XOXO
Thursday, October 25, 2007
AWESOME EXCITEMENT!!!
only having 1 hour nap, i thank God that i can actually be there... from the start God have already started to bless me with so so much...
i gain favor with Adeline, a chef from SATS and thus she assign me to stand beside the buffet table and all i need to do is to greet the guest and replenish the utensils... so good right? i get the easy and glamorous job while the rest carried plates and clear tables... muahahha
and the best part, i stood opposite the stewardesses and they are like super professional looking lah... then one chef, Chef Eric Wong caught me staring then we started talking... then i got to know that he used to be a cabin crew trainer... and i told him about my dream of becoming a air stewardess and he was so happy and he ask me to go for it...
i also made friend with Chef Simon who knows Chef Sam Leong, the Celebrity Chef... then we kinda like chat and he kept smiling at me.... wahahahhahaha...
i got to serve like BIG SHOTS of major companies, guests from around the world and even the media people... got interviewed by press and all... it's really fun...
i believe that one day, i will be the one walking into the cabin and be part of the elite cabin crew of SIA... that's where i need to start losing my fats and tone my body... goodness, the stewardess are so skinny or at least tonned... i'm just a fat blop
i will post more pictures once my friends send it to me =)
XOXO
walking alone
we celebrated Joel Ooi's 19th birthday and it was crazy lah... but half of the time in my head i was wanting to take a walk alone... we were all sitting in Hongkong Cafe when i suddenly feel like leaving and take a walk to Macs and get ice cream or something...
but i told myself no......
i force myself to sit down and be there with the rest and not be emo or whatever... we walk out of Hongkong cafe at about 10 plus and then the peeps just stood there and talk... that was when i decided to go home...
i know it's like super anti-social and all but...
i can't help it =(
suddenly, i feel so alone
XOXO
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
there's so many things i hope and wish for...
1. i want to go to Korea for holiday
(Jeju teddy bear museum)
2. i want to be slim again...
(where's the 45kg girl?)
3. i want my parents to just show some support in the things i do
(A380 is a big thing, why can't you understand?)
i thank God that somehow i finally got a clear status in L.A Unit... for months i really wondered who am i... so now, it's cool... no longer the head since Ying Chuan is back and Shaunster is slowly coming back too... i'm trying not to feel all emo about it...
guess what? i'm admin, finance, HR, PR and every other thing... wow, how glamorous... i don't wanna quit it... i don't know... but... i can proudly say that the only reason why i'm serving in ministry is because of God... not friends or anything at all...
i'm forcing myself to change to the maddy who is not me... i don't know if it's good or bad... because the maddy scares boys away... aiya, i know you can say "those boys are useless..." but seriously, it's not my fault that i'm so strong right? i can't change it now, can i?
i'm also eating veggie... wow, now the sun is rising from the west... although not a lot, but still some lah...
walking away
XOXO
Monday, October 22, 2007
first day at Sentosa
well, i have to say it's really interesting to study at sentosa... met Grace and Mon mon dear at Harbour Front to go for lecture in the morning... we spend some time exploring TAS... food at sentosa is quite expensive, so from today onwards, i have to watch my spendings already...
lecture was quite boring... both Events Management & Managerial Accounting... the voice of the lecturers makes me wanna sleep... muahahahaha
so, after lectures, i went to VIVO with Mon mon dear... we walk around and then i saw a pushcart that sells all the stuff that i love.... there's like Hanbok (the traditional korean costume), the Goong teddy bears, the accessories from korean dramas...
i was like half drooling at the things lah.... wahahhahaha... i love love love love it!
it's gonna be a busy week for me but i'm thanking God for everything =)
well, i have to say it's really interesting to study at sentosa... met Grace and Mon mon dear at Harbour Front to go for lecture in the morning... we spend some time exploring TAS... food at sentosa is quite expensive, so from today onwards, i have to watch my spendings already...
lecture was quite boring... both Events Management & Managerial Accounting... the voice of the lecturers makes me wanna sleep... muahahahaha
so, after lectures, i went to VIVO with Mon mon dear... we walk around and then i saw a pushcart that sells all the stuff that i love.... there's like Hanbok (the traditional korean costume), the Goong teddy bears, the accessories from korean dramas...
i was like half drooling at the things lah.... wahahhahaha... i love love love love it!
it's gonna be a busy week for me but i'm thanking God for everything =)
XOXO
Saturday, October 20, 2007
feels like KFC in a BK outlet
not trying to be a drama queen, but hoping to be more like Queen Esther and the many godly women from the bible... instead of being emo and like get sucked into a quicksand, i should stand firm on God and let His strong arms protect me...
no matter what, i'm still giving praise
XOXO
Thursday, October 18, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CHUANIE the peanut
Chuanie with his blindfold and headphones on
Grace bought the cake! super yummy
the birthday boy cuts the cake
the rest standing around while i cut the cake into slices
vaness and jarrold
our lovely gaius
the spastic isaac
gaius and jarrold
char, the cool one
vaness, my dearest watermelon
Chuanie with his blindfold and headphones on
Grace bought the cake! super yummy
the birthday boy cuts the cake
the rest standing around while i cut the cake into slices
vaness and jarrold
our lovely gaius
the spastic isaac
gaius and jarrold
char, the cool one
vaness, my dearest watermelonXOXO
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
sometimes i wish that i could have a lil' of fairypuff and sparkle dust...
i'm not asking for a rich royalty life,
i'm not asking for happily ever after,
all i want is just so simple...
i just so tired of all your rubbish,
you people are adding on to my load...
don't be a bum
you spoilt brats,
grow out of your childish ways please...
don't be a idiots
i don't understand why am i so nice to others and in exchange i get hurt... especially by the very people i love... seriously, i don't need that... my life is full of drama that can last till Jesus' return...
i don't know why things are like that...
i'm in pain,
can anyone help me?
XOXO
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
stressed up,
pressured from the different direction...
i just want to sleep...
something ridiculous,
a demand from the queen...
i just want to sleep...
so fake,
don't lie to me for i know far more...
i just want to sleep...
i don't care,
you can carry on your way...
i just want to sleep...
i know i'm stronger than this all
but i'm falling sick
XOXO
Monday, October 15, 2007
just felt inspired to write some nonsense =D
~~~~~~~
as i pen down the story of our love,
the sweet memories still lingers and it feels like as though you're still around...
because of you,
suddenly my life doesn't seem like a waste...
the songs you sing,
the promises you made,
the very words that locked my heart to yours i could never forget...
i remembered the day you took me from paris to london in your arms,
flying around like no one could stop us now,
the love so free, so real and almost so magical...
it was happiness till the day you walked from earth...
a deadly illness you never whisper,
a pain you never cried,
a love that could never live till the end of time...
not a single sound of the trumpet,
not a word,
not a clue,
not a song,
no more where we belong...
as i prepare to smile for the curtain call,
i knew that the man who will stand in the front row was no more...
it was a show for you,
a story about truth, about beauty, about freedom, about love...
~~~~~~~
as i pen down the story of our love,
the sweet memories still lingers and it feels like as though you're still around...
because of you,
suddenly my life doesn't seem like a waste...
the songs you sing,
the promises you made,
the very words that locked my heart to yours i could never forget...
i remembered the day you took me from paris to london in your arms,
flying around like no one could stop us now,
the love so free, so real and almost so magical...
it was happiness till the day you walked from earth...
a deadly illness you never whisper,
a pain you never cried,
a love that could never live till the end of time...
not a single sound of the trumpet,
not a word,
not a clue,
not a song,
no more where we belong...
as i prepare to smile for the curtain call,
i knew that the man who will stand in the front row was no more...
it was a show for you,
a story about truth, about beauty, about freedom, about love...
The greatest thing you ever learn is to love and be loved.
love,
christian
XOXO
GOOD MORNING WORLD!i'm all bright and cheery... no more that emo girl... ahah... well, it's just one of those low self esteem days... but it's cool thanks to Isaac, Aikey and Aunty Ayelan...
yesterday was a very bizzare day...
- i sat beside my future co-worker in SIA, Mr Lucas Ang for service
- sunday service ended super early
- went to Macs and had lunch there
- played with grace's bizzare Happy Meal toy
- went back to church and listen to gaius sing
- got bored and decided to watch Moulin Rouge
- almost cried while watching the movie =(
- played with colin's powder balloon...
- slack around for a bit more
- went to coral's place with ade dear
- went to shenna's place
- had fun watching taxi and eating food from 85
- while waiting for the gang to come back, me and shenna made clothes for her teddy and piglet
- i KOed while aiken and isaac went crazy with typing nonsense
- ben talks to Vaness and Gaius on the phone (for hours)
- shenna just listens to her music
- then isaac send me home and i slept from 4 to 11am
so here i am, while the rest are sleeping... bored and not entertained by Mediacorp's shows... i think i will go watch my korean drama and then go down to church to do some stuff...
XOXO
Sunday, October 14, 2007
XOXO
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Ms Teen USA 2007
even though they are bimbos, i think some of them are hot... pretty
daddy makes a comment: "eh, i think they bluff about their age... where got 16, 17, 18? should be 20 plus lor..."
i just sit there and laugh
i should just go for lipo and then lock myself up for half a year to do nothing but workout abd tone myself...
even though they are bimbos, i think some of them are hot... pretty
daddy makes a comment: "eh, i think they bluff about their age... where got 16, 17, 18? should be 20 plus lor..."
i just sit there and laugh
i should just go for lipo and then lock myself up for half a year to do nothing but workout abd tone myself...
XOXO
sometimes i wish that my self esteem could increase just a lil' more...
so that i won't shy away from people who i think are better than me...
the fear, just so intimidating...
all i need is to show my passion...
for dance, for music..
for the things i love...
for the things i'm crazy about...
i think i can do it...
my life have been quite interesting... i promise i won't complain... i totally love what that "someone so so special" said to me...
You're not a drama queen... You're a queen going through some drama in your life...
somehow it's so timely but i won't have false hope...
God, once again i pray that if it's in Your divine plan,
leave that door open...
Father, teach me how to love You more...
XOXO
Thursday, October 11, 2007
let's be happy and watch some really funny videos... enjoy
XOXO
i'm sorry my dear blog readers for exploding at your face... it's due to a long term problem of sucking things up and have no where to vomit... ok ok, the problem is me... but sometimes i wish that people will truely pay attention to me... i know it's very selfish but who doesn't want to be loved... as a child, a friend and a human being...
anyways, i'm fine already... fever came back and i didn't go to work... had my granny scream at me at 6am... i told her that i'm sick and she don't believe me... well, my family thinks that i'm a robot... and something really ridiculous... she ask me to help her count coins this morning at 1am... when i finished my QT and all ready to sleep... so i help her and by the time i finish it was really really late...
i don't know what else to say...
maddy the idiot signing off
XOXO
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
when i said enough, i means ENOUGH...
it's been such a long time since i snap but i guess it's good... i thank God for Bel and Shenna... for the donut and special gift package (my fav.)...
i can't stand it when things are treated in an unfair manner... hate it when people use their stupid whiney voice and pathetic looking face to "charm" others... like please huh, use your brain if you have one... or else, develop some sort of talent?
you can't get far with that stupid face and body because you know what? you can't get to heaven with that (for non-christians)... and you can't be Jesus' true disciple if you hook up boys with your God-given looks (for christians)...
only shallow stupid boys and idiotic superiors will fall into your pathetic shit hole...
~~~~~~~~~~
so boys, if you read and then you hate me... this shows that you are dumb and stupid... all you need is a good looking girl who will stay in your silly glass showcase... maddy is not a girl who will be all whiney and innocent looking at you with ultra big eyes and ask you to get ice cream or candies... i won't boast your stupid ego and make you feel like a king when you don't deserve it...
go ahead and look for young stupid girls... those who can't see through your huge ass ego... maybe they will like you... oh, what am i saying... THEY LOVE YOU... (what a joke)
~~~~~~~~~~
i won't pretend to be who i am not because i still believe that some people out there are not blinded by superficial stuff...
love me for me
XOXO
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
she's way better than stupid Vanessa Ann Hudgens... Go Go ASHLEY!
XOXO
i hate those "auto wake up" moments... i woke up at 4am and wondered how come it's so dark and my alarm didn't ring... then i realised it's only 4am... i tried so so hard to get back to sleep cause i had 2 more hours...
then i fell asleep... then i start having wierd dreams... too bizzare... i don't want to mention it...
i woke up at 6 plus and went to work...
work was bad... my manager's PA is actually the asistant manager... LOL... i only realise when i happen to look at her namecard... anyways, she's so argh... she was nice when my manager is still around... now the manager is gone, the assistant is like wierd now...
you know i have like so much things to do... like from the minute i step into office till sometimes 6pm... and guess what? now she's asking karen to do some powerpoint template and i will have to do it for all my customer accounts...
like hello, where am i suppose to find time to do that? i'm so not gonna bring those work home lah... i never wanted to give that "i don't want to do it because i'm only a temp" excuse... to be excellent, there should not be any excuse at all... i do everything to my best and i know many people do appreciate it...
but some will take advantage of it... oh well
i can't wait for work to end...
7 more days...
fever's back
XOXO
Monday, October 08, 2007
thank you, Lord for everything...
because You said that you're YHWH (Yahweh), the almighty, the greatest "I AM", i start to have greater faith to believe that there's nothing in this world too big for You...
Lord, You're just so amazing and Your time is always perfect...
Hello world,
i didn't go to school today cause i got a headache... but it's all good lah...
i had a great time hanging out with that crazy bunch of people yesterday...
you guys rock!
as for my career, well, all i can say that every step that i take is following God's plan... from the time i finish Olevels, He already started to give me instruction on what to do, where to go etc etc... and i'm learning to see from a bigger and higher perspective...
every time people ask me how come i didn't get into JC or even Design school, i just say that being in HTM is really God's plan... L1R5=16 points and R4=12... not too bad but somehow according to God's plan, JC and Design is not me...
getting into HTM with 12 points and don't need interview or whatnots, it seems like God already prepared a place for me... then i interviewed for Service Ambassedors and God helped me find favour in the eyes of man... and because of SA, i manage to get exposed to so so much more...
i'm so glad that the King of kings and the Lord of lords is watching over me...
anyways, my granny becoming really wierd... i told her that when i get my pay, i will give her a certain amount of money... but somehow my dad haven't get his pay, so i gave my dad the money first... now my granny is angry with me... it's so what the... in the end, i will still give you the freaking money right?
i work so hard hor, i only take 50%... that include money for YA camp and some shopping money... how spastic lor... i'm like argh... you ask me to work, i work... you ask for money, i give... what else you want?
my stupid pocket money is only $50/week... it includes all meals... eat bread everyday huh? and holiday i don't even get pocket money... so idiotic lah... then still ask me to give you all money... like hello...
argh... angry =(
Fang xian, you're so cute lah... it's from www.blogthings.com ahaha... it will be in Singapore even if my husband is ang moh.... this is where all my love ones (CFC included) are at... and you guys are all invited... muahhaha... all my crazy bunch of friends =) Aunty Fang, you will be first few on the list lah...
XOXO
Saturday, October 06, 2007
| You are a No Drama Mama! |
 No need for drama, you just chill out and don't let things bother you You've got a peaceful, zen-like attitude... even when things get crazy You're a pleasure to be around, and you have lots of friends to show for it You don't need to be the center of attention, you're happy enough as is! |
always take a chill pill, no need for drama
| You Are 36% Scary |
 You scare men off ocassionaly, but only very weak men. You're a normal woman. You're not perfect, but you're pretty darn close. |
opps... haha... i knew it!
| You Belong in Milan |
 Stylish and sophisticated, you want to enjoy a truly European life - away from tourists! Milan fits you perfectly. Great shopping, high quality food, lots of culture... with very little hype. |
lovely... i totally love love Milan
| Your Celebrity Sisters Are Jessica and Ashlee |
 Beautiful, feminine, and stylish. Who care's if you're a bit of a daddy's girl? |
like bimbo =p
| You Are 80% Perfectionist |
 You are a true perfectionist. You are both demanding of yourself and others. While it's great to have goals and standards, they don't need to be sky high! |
haha... kinda knew it too... like that who can "tahan"...
| You Should Honeymoon in Europe! |
 You are a traditional romantic at heart... With a taste for fine wine, museums and beautiful walks. You and your sweetie should get romantic in a cafe in Paris Or get a Eurail pass - and see as many cities as possible! Suggested destinations: Paris, Venice, London, Greece |
i told you i love europe... whee~
| You Make a Great First Impression |
 You can handle almost any social situation with grace, even the tricky ones. Strangers often find you charming and interesting. You are often remembered fondly. Even if you're not naturally outgoing, you can make conversation with anyone if you need to. Whether you were born this way or had to work to get here, you are definitely charismatic. You're popular and well liked. People definitely look forward to being around you. Your social connections bring you a full and rich life. You understand how important it is to make a lasting impression. |
really??? awwww
| You Should Wear Bright Red Lipstick |
 In Your Face Sexy and Flirty Your look: Flawless Beauty Your signature lip gloss flavor: Cherry |
ohhh... sexy
| You Are Uptown |
 You are classy, cultured, and well educated. You are an expert on the finer things in live. Your city girl persona loves all of the opportunities a city offers. But only in the best neighborhoods. |
i love wearing my suit...
| You Are 19% Bitchy |
 You are practically an angel - both on the inside and outside. You try to give everyone the benefit of the doubt, and you're even tolerant of bitchiness in others! |
i'm an angel =)
| Your Ideal Marriage Proposal Is |
 A Christmas proposal, with lots of snow and city lights. |
hee... then it will not be in Singapore (i don't like snow city)... LOL
XOXO