Enter into the world of drama and God's miracle... Maddy's fairytale =)
ABOUT ME
Madeline Xiong (Maddy)
Kuma Miyuki
Tower of Strength
Born on 21/12/1988
Graduated from TP HTM
Currently working at Citadines Mt Sophia
LOVE GOD
LOVE DANCE
LOVE SINGING
LOVE L.A UNIT
Wishlist
Camera
Holiday
SAY THAT YOU LOVE ME
MY DREAM-
I want to be a awesome dancer.
A super annointed singer.
An airstewrdess.
A Missionary.
A woman mightily used by God.
today, i woke up like 7plus for C.E... felt super tired lah... but then God really strengthens me and gave me energy to stay awake... on my way to church, i met Hosea on the bus... then we saw Ying Chuan so we said HI and went to our different C.E class... C.E was interesting because we are suppose to prepare and share with the class so there was a lot of laughters and all ... fun! Praise and woship was GOOD!!! and the message was GOOD too... after service, my cell (bong, ziqi, peiting & me) went to KFC for lunch ... then pei ting and i went back to church... we then have dance prayer meeting and we prayed for one hour which i think was very very GOOD... then Jozzie, Joel.C, Mishuelle and me clean up BASC... then we went to studio to dance... it was fun... krumping and dancing...heehee... then Issac, Joel.Ooi(peachy), Regina, shenna and me went to Sempang to eat supper... hahah... we talk a lot... hahha... talking about relationship and all... haha... it was fun... then Shenna and i walk home from there... sleepy sleepy...snore snore... it's already 1:40am already.. gotta go now... sweet dreams everyone...
~princess madeline kiss you good night~
p.s: standing here alone in the silence, with tears in my eyes... although i saw your shadow but i realised that i was too scared to go up and talk to you... you are always surrounded by people, both guys and girls... perhaps you never ever thought that i existed because i'm so insignificant... pls don't ignore me and treat me like as if you didn't see me... i don't wanna be hurt by you...
XOXO
Saturday, July 29, 2006
today was a AWESOME day ... although i didn't really do much but it's quite good... i went to church at 11:30am to meet Michelle Guna to talk about the new project for Gift of Love then i slack all the way till YA... hahah ... went to the youth room to play cards with Peachy Ooi and Regina ... i lost like every game for 1 whole hour... goodness... i'm like bad with the game lah... then after a while, we went to TuaKong to get chicken rice for myself and issac... Elaine bought a chicken drumstick for $2.60... it's so expensive lah ... hahah... after eating the chicken rice, i started winning the card game... like finally!!! after losing for like so so long... hahah ... then i felt super sleepy then i slept for a while before going for prayer...Service was really good... i felt God so strongly during service... His supernatural presence is just saturating the whole hall... it's been quite some time since i last felt God so so close to me... maybe it's just my broken heart... the Bible says that God is close to the broken hearted and i totally believe in that... everyone in the world can fail us, only God will continue to love us and care for us...
it's just the emotions taking me over........ words of a broken heart....
~princess madeline wiping away her tears~
p.s: is it real or just my fantasy? pls tell me it's real and tell me that i'm not dreaming... because i can't get my eyes off you... and i love it when you smile at me and care for me ...
XOXO
today is such an eventful day... haha ... i went to schoool at about 1 plus because my lecture start at 2pm... i could not concentrate during lecture because i was thinking about my Excel project. i just realised that i need to do a cover page and a half page introduction... i was seriously panicking like mad... i didn't know what to do so i sms my primary school friend Chan Long... i don't know why i sms him but i just did... He never fails to comfort me and make me feel confident about myself... He always encourage me and willingly help me... Chan Long, if you're reading this, i just wanna say a big THANK YOU!!! So as i was saying, straight after lecture, i rush down to the lab to do the cover page and introduction then rush to the printing shop in the library to print it out... Sheena, monica, melissa and michelle were there at the printing shop. Then melissa went off while the rest of us continue printing... it took quite a while cause the shop was packed and we need to queue up and stuff... by the time we all finish printing it was already 5:05 like that... so we all went mad !!! we dash out of the shop and run like crazy... then we ran into the cargo lift and went up to the 6th level... then we ran through the long corridor and finally reached our tutor's room... we were like panting like mad... hahah ... it's so rush hour... hahah... after that i went to church to meet Coral and Regina before going to Orchard to meet Joseph, Mishuelle, Michelle Lam and Marcus Goh... and then we decided to go back to suntec to eat Kenny Rogers... hahah ... it was yummy... haha... then we met Issac and went to Esplanade... oh, they bought 3 bottles of 4.8% alcohol drink... hahah ... michelle lam and regina turned a little pink... hahah ... i didn't drink cause my stomach wasn't too well so i thought i better not drink anything wierd to make things worst... we went esplanade and Mishuelle and i got very very bad tummy ache... we wanted to poo... but could not ... hahha ... quite random and wierd... hahah... then we went to the memorial park area and played "truth or dare" then it became boring... so they thought of stripping Jozzie... hahah ... but we didn't suceed... hahah... then Jozzie got reallly angry... he turned EMO... hahah ... so we decided to go home... ok ok , this is the most exciting part of the whole day ... so must pay attention... at the bus stop there was this group of Minas and Mats... then the mats were like checking Mishuelle out lah ... then the bus came and we went up to the top deck... then this stupid mat sat beside Mishuelle can ... i got a shock of my life lah ... in my mind i was like "someone, save mish" ... then Mr Issac came to Mish's rescue... Issac just smiled at the mat and the mat thought that Mish is attached to Issac so he went back to join his friends at the back row... it's so so wierd lah... then the mat said "wah, cannot sit with you is it?" ... then dumb dumb Mishuelle shouted "NO!" ... hahah ... so Issac pretended to be Mish's boyfriend ... but then the stupid mat did not give up lah ... he came towards us again and this time, he sat behind Mish and Issac... then Issac turn around and gave him that smile... then the mat finally back off... so dumb lah ... then the bus reach Katong area so we decided to accompany Mish to the lower deck and guess what? the stupid "mat and mina" gang sang us a song ... the "bye bye" song ... like so so dumb... like seriously man .... hahha ... i reached home and my dad was watching OMEN ... it was halfway through the show already but i decided to sit down and watch lah ... it was ... ermmm ... wierd ... hahah ... now it's 2am ... gotta go to bed early cause i'm meeting michelle in church at 11am tmr ... so better have enough sleep ... sweet dreams ...
~princess madeline walk down the corridor with her prince charming~
p.s: i can't wait to see you again because i miss you so much... the love of my life...
XOXO
Thursday, July 27, 2006
hello everyone ... wow, it's been 2 days since i last blogged... have been so so busy recently... with all the projects thrown at me, it's like so hard to breathe ... ok , i will blog about the last 2 days...
25/7/06 i went Sentosa for field trip... we ate at Sakae Sushi and tested the waiter there on the quality of service... poor thing, he's like so scared... and he did so many mistakes in the order... my spastic friend Sheena pretended that we are from Malaysia... so retarded lah... like goodness... hahha ... oh and we took some pictures... haha... it was quite fun afterall ... it was my first time playing the Luge and taking the skyride in sentosa... it was so so fun ... heehee... all of us had so much fun playing and laughing...
26/7/06 BCS sucks!!! hahah.... i could not do BCS lah ... i'm so so bad at it... argh.... but then the fun began after sch... i went to meet the Circle of Trust (C.O.T) to celebrate Michelle Lam's birthday ... we went town and walk around Taka ... as usual, Bimbo is the late one ... haha ... we didn't eat at Balcony because there was some private function there so we went Fish & Co. .... we had fun ... then Sarah Lin came to join us... after dinner , we walk around Borders, look through some chick flick books which is for Young Adults... haha.. then went to CoffeeBean for cheese cake drinks ... according to C.O.T the food and drinks sucks ... hahah ... May complained that her cheese cake was too wet and soggy... then Coral's chocolate cake was too hard like cookie ... haha ... Michelle Lam's drink taste like barbie doll's hair(according to Mishuelle) ... haha ... then Mishuelle complained that the drinks are not that nice but very expensive ... all of them decided that Starbucks is still the BEST!!! hahah ... then after the drinks , we went home ... We saw a KFC delivery man's bike slided near the traffic light ... goodness ... but he was ok... then we saw bus 14 and we RAN!!! in our heels ... goodness ... hahahah ... thank God we got onto the bus in time ... hahah... i went home and it was already 11pm ... felt super tired so i went to bed at about 1 plus..
TODAY!!! i was so so sleepy ... yawn yawn... went for econs tutorial and almost died... ate cup noodles for lunch cause i had to go to the libraray to look for newspaper articles for Econs with Sheena...then we went to RHT lecture late but the dumb dumb Hock Kee didn't even know ... hahah then went for BCS lecture ... snore snore ... i slept on the bus on my way to church... then i woke up and notice that there's this baby, i think only about 1 months old looking at me "intensely" ... hahah ... i think it's a HE ... hahah ... he was just looking at me and for quite long then he look to his left which is my right... then less than 5 seconds later he look back at me ... i tried to smile at him without anyone noticing me ... hahah ... like a bit retarded ... then the baby is so cute ... he tried to open his mouth a bit wider, maybe trying to smile back at me ... so cute ... heeheehee... make me feel like getting married and have kids ... heehee... then when i got off the bus, i saw the baby's eyes following me as i walk past him.. haha... ok , enough about the baby... i went church to meet Michelle Guna to discuss about the plans of Gift of Love ... then Vanessa , Alvin , Bertrand , Coral , Jozzie , Peachy and Nelson were in church ... we look through the pictures from the Karen Mission Trip ... i think it's really amazing ... i can't wait for my turn... hahah .. oh i've decided to work in my mum's company Shiseido during my 6 weeks holiday from Sep till Oct to earn enough money for YA camp and for future Mission Trip ... now i'm gonna work on my Excel project which due TOMORROW !!! sighs ... i hate it ... but whatever lah ... just get over and done with it first ... i hope i will pass my BCS so that i don't have to redo it next sem ... i hate it man ... argh ... bye bye you guys ... will blog again soon ...
~princess madeline smile at you ... yes , YOU!~
p.s: I'm going to make you mine, it's not impossible. Got to let you know I'm irresistable. Baby can't you see you're the one for me . i don't wanna hurt nobody but my heart just can't hold back. I't the way that you make me feel , spinning my world around. So tell me how can i walk away, i don't carewhat they say I'm loving you anyway. It's the way you make me feel...
XOXO
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Cause you had a bad day You're taking one down You sing a sad song just to turn it around You say you don't know You tell me don't lie You work at a smile and you go for a ride You had a bad day The camera don't lie You're coming back down and you really don't mind You had a bad day
XOXO
Monday, July 24, 2006
hello everyone, i just finish eating dinner... now watching the encore of Miss Universe... muahaha ... i think last year's winner Miss Canada is so gorgeous ... her face, her body and all... drop dead gorgeous... hahah ... Singapore don't even stand a chance lah ... hahaha ... at least Japan got into top 5... hahaha ... i'm actually not looking forward to tomorrow's Sentosa outing... sighs... still have to do ask questions and do report... sighs ... so many things in school i don't even understand... don't get what the teachers are trying to say... so most of the stuff i won't be able to understand... i just pray that everything will go well... that's all i'm asking for... sighs
gotta go and watch Miss Universe now ... some of the girls look................*yucks* ..... some are "hmmm , not bad!" ..... some are "wow, *sizzle sizzle* HOT !!!" love ya peeps~ esp the Circle of Trust !
~princess madeline walk down the runway with her white tube gown~ *wave & smile*
p.s: Do you like cheese ? Will you be the one escorting me to a Ball ?
XOXO
today i went to school to do OB project ... then i rush down for dance... but instead of dance, we actually went separate ways... mei mei went to study in the study room, Joel just slack and attempt to fall asleep, Rayvin continue krumping and i went to watch "she's the man" with the rest of the youths in one of the classroom... it's so nice ... my second time watching it but the feeling is still the same ... so sweet and fairytale ... now it's 12:33 am.... feeling very very tired ... have to meet my group for rehersal for OB presentation at 9:30 ... sighs ... so so tired ... this coming week will be a real tiring one ... cause we'll have the sentosa fieldtrip and all ... really need God's strength to pull me through the week... the Karen mission team will be coming back soon ... on tuesday night... i believe there will be amazing praise report... so exciting ... heehee... gotta go now ... *hugs to all*
~princess madeline kiss good night at 12:40~
p.s: Imagine me and you, I do; I think about you day and night, it's only right. To think about the boy you love and hold him tight, so happy together... If I should call you up, invest a dime; and you say you belong to me and ease my mind, imagine how the world could be, so very fine, so happy together... I can't see me lovin' nobody but you, for all my life... When you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue; For all my life... Me and you and you and me, no matter how they toss the dice, it has to be the only one for me is you, and you for me so happy together....
XOXO
Sunday, July 23, 2006
hi guys .... this morning got a really really bizzare and wierd dream... and it's super long, like never ending... but i woke up when i really needed the toilet... hahah ... woke up at 12 in the afternoon ... bathe and decided to go down to Tampines to meet Bel and Livia... oh , my brother got discharged from the hospital already ... haha... then after that we went back to church and decorated Hall 3B ... then went for pre-service prayer ... only 9 people turn up for prayer.... lol... then service ! not many came today cause of YM cell outing ... but yea , Roland and Rach preach and share on the topic "identity- who am i" ... then after service, we all went to Beer Garden to eat dinner... had a great time... then went home... lol ... actually i feel very very sad cause i can't go for service and dance tomorrow because of PROJECT ... goodness ... i'm like ....*sob sob* ... for the whole week, i've been looking forward to my sunday YET school is taking over .... i hate it ... hate school ... argh .... my sunday is GONE... GONE... GONE...
~princess madeline kiss you good night at 1:25am~
p.s: i'll let God decide if we're meant to be... in the meanwhile, i will be waiting for God to speak to you...
XOXO
Friday, July 21, 2006
today is kinda like the worst day of my family... i felt so PRESSURED... because of school, projects, family and all... so sad... but God really comforted me... i felt very sad when my OB group mates decided to meet on sunday... i was very....ermmm how to say ... aiya , very sad ... cause they know that i have to go church on sunday and they know that i have dance after lunch ... yet they were so insensative to my feelings ... they even told me not to go church because one of them doesn't go to church frequently... i'm like .............. nevermind... oh, just now when i was very sad and was like crying in my room alone, God ask me to read my Purpose Driven Life book... then i came to chapter 25 of the book and it says" Transformed by TROUBLES" ... and there was a quote from Mdm Guyon that goes "it's the fire of suffering that brings forth the gold of godliness" ... and the book also says that God uses circumstances to develop our character ... psalm34:18 ... i believe that there is a purpose behind every problem... hey peeps , if you guys have a chance , go grab a copy of the book ... it's really AWESOME ... because it's really a book that speaks so much hope and future into people's life ... see ya peeps ... love love love you all <3
~princess madeline kiss you on your cheek~
p.s: i will be strong because i promise you to hold on... i wanna be your inspiration and your pillar of support... i will be waiting for you, hoping that someday you will come with my glass slipper and gown so that i can change out of my rags
XOXO
hello everyone, im like in school now... doing my OB project ... lol... i think i screwed the presentation cause i suddenly blank out a few times... argh, so angry with myself... hmmm... i don't think i will do well in poly cause my results have been bad and all ... sighs... just wonder why God put me in HTM... it's not as great as what people thought it is... but what to do.... my dad called me and ask me to lend matthew my laptop ... i'm like WTH ......... no way man ... wah lao ... stay in hospital then BIG DEAL ah ? stupid idiot ... rottig people don't use laptop one lor ... argh ... why must i always give in to my brothers huh ? why why why ? it's not fair ... i always have to sacrifice for my brothers while they feel that it's just right for me to do that ... like WTH lah ......... argh !!!!!!!!! it's his fault that he got hospitalised cause he's disgusting and rotting ... so why must i lend him my laptop ???? besides, i need it to do my work ... so back off you loser !!!!!!! argh ....... when other members in the family is sick , everyone is so so concern... like shower with love and care etc etc ... me ??? when i'm sick instead of caring about me , they scold me and treat me like *toot* ... just not fair ... when matthew is sick , my parents will have to drive him to the clinic or my granny will accompany him to the clinic ... but me ? when i'm sick , i got to the clinic myself!!! on my own when i feel like fainting and all ... see how bias can my family get ! doesn't mean that i'm the only daughter you can abuse me k ? idiots .... argh .... make me feel so bitchy and angry now ......... whatever lah ......... no one except God and the lovely peeps in church loves me .... all those aliens at home hates me ... they hates me big time ....
~princess madeline stomping away in anger at 3:40pm~
p.s: Its been such a long time and i really do miss your smiles... i'll still be waiting for you to come...
XOXO
hello everyone .... it's a long and tiring day for me... woke up at 7 and went to the hospital with my parents to visit my bro, Matthew... he was feeling much better... the swelling went down and the x-ray shows that the toxin didn't reach the bones so PRAISE GOD... and his blood test is normal so yup everything should be okay.. hope that he can come home soon... that poor boy is like sweating in his ward... muahaha .... after that i went to school for Econs then i went back to the hospital to visit my brother... i pushed him down to the lobby where there's aircon then regina came ... we chat for a while then i left with regina to go to the airport to meet Coral and send the mission team off... oh , we ate Popeyes.. i love the biscuit , the fries and the mash potato... yummy... then Mishuelle came along... we met the Mission team and went to BK with them to grab a bite... then they went in... then the girls took bus 36 back to church... we went into youth room and fell asleep there... muahahah ... then May reached church and we went to visit my brother... lots of people visited him... Roland, Bel, Sarah Lin, Joel Chew, Joseph, Coral, May, Mishuelle and me ... we wheeled him down to the canteen where we chat and Bel bought a cup of fruit juice ... lol... Bel and sarah got him a sunflower and they asked Joel to pass it to him ... so wierd ... hahah ... very brokeback ... heehee... we stayed till about 8:30 then we left... all 8 of us went into Roland's mini car ... so cool lah ... hahah... we went TM for dinner... sat there and chit chat... till about 10 then we split up and went home ... took bus 38 with Joel and then we talked on the way ... talk about school and stuff ... i tried to find a common topic ... haha ... so yea... then i reached home, bathe and did my Intro HT presentation script ... cool ! it's 01:23 am now ... HAHA ... i think i better go to bed soon ... sweet dreams to you peeps ... love ya~
shout out to Michelle Guna: just wanna say thank you! *hugs* shout out to Addy: maddy loves addy!!! loads and loads ... shout out to the Mission Team: JIA YOU and shine for God ... shout out to the KC Circle of Trust: love you girls a lot, a lot.... shout out to my dearest Bel: i just simply love you .... flying kisses
~princess madeline kiss you good night at 1:35am~
p.s i will waiting for you ... no matter how long you will take, my heart is still yours and will always be... i wanna be the one loving you ............
XOXO
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
on fire!!! as in literally... came home from school at about 6pm and found out that i'm having a high fever... i didn't really bother about it cause i was too attracted by the DVD my dad bought... it's "she's the man"... then i went to watch it... it's so so nice ... muahahah... i love the storyline cause it's based on Twelfth Night by William Shakespeare the lit book that i studied for 4 yrs... muahaha ... love it love it ... Duke is so so cute ... muahaha ... so many eye candies in the show ... muahahaha .... oh , matthew got admitted to hospital ... cause he got some very very bad infection on his knee so the doctor at the clinic asked him to go to Changi Hospital ... the doctor in the clinic said that the toxin already is in his blodd stream that's why his leg is so swollen ... so yup , he's in hospital... he did x-ray to make sure the toxin didn't reach his bones and did a blood test also... so pls pray for this stupid brother of mine... now i'm watching the channel 8 drama series "love at 0 degrees" ... the guy is like flithy rich lah ... the house is so huge... like a palace... if only i'm from a rich family, like the usual rich, famous and popular girls from KC... that day, i saw this really nice black tube dress from Zara... then i thought to myself, it would be nice if i wear that dress to the HTM's D&D at Amara Hotel... but because i'm poor, i won't be going for the D&D because it cost $55... it's so expensive... and besides, even if i can afford the $55, i won't be able to afford a dress... the girls from my class were like"let's go and get our hair done... oh and manicure too ... we must not forget about the make-up and the mask... and wear a lil' black dress"... i'm like ...................... it's so sad .... boohoohoo... nevermind lah ... what to do, i'm poor what ... so i will work hard so that next time, so that my children don't feel the way i feel... like feeling inferior simply because i'm poor or like i can't afford this and this... gotta go and bathe and sleep early ... love ya peeps
~princess madeline hug you good night~
p.s: i'll be waiting here; so if you come, you'll find me........ i promise... i will never leave you; i'll always be right beside you... supporting you always.... whether you love me or not
XOXO
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
didn't go to school today... woke up at 7 am and got a bad headache... so i went back to sleep till about 11am then i bathe and went to church to study... i did econs and OB... and also mark my brother's assessment books... then i went home and tutor my brother... hmmm... nothing much happened today... oh, i studied with coral in church... we chit chat a little and study... hahaha... then we decided to meet each other on thursday for Yong Tau Foo lunch at siglap... heeheehee... then we'll go down to the airport to send the Mission Team off... it's only tuesday ... but it feels like ... forever!!! it means i got 3 more school days to weekend... i hate tmr's lesson ... got BCS!!! i don't like it ... hate it ... hate excel ! argh ... tmr's lesson is from 9 to 5 ... so freaking long lah ... sighs .... but after tmr, school will feel much better i think ... haha... i don't know what am i talking about also... the medicine is making me sleepy... i think i will sleep soon ... nights everyone ...
~princess madeline hug you good night at 11:25pm~
p.s: Whenever sang my songs, on the stage, on my own. Whenever said my words, wishing they would be heard. I saw you smiling at me, was it real, or just my fantasy? You'd always be there in the corner, of this tiny little bar. I kind of liked it your way, how you shyly placed your eyes on me. Oh, did you ever know, that I had mine on you? Darling, so there you are, with that look on your face. As if you're never hurt, as if you're never down. Shall i be the one for you, who pinches you softly but sure, If frown is shown, then I will know that you are no dreamer. So let me come to you, close as I want to be. Close enough for me, to feel your heart beating fast. And stay there as I whisper, how I loved your peaceful eyes on me. Did you ever know, that I had mine on you?
XOXO
hello everyone ... it's a tiring day ... but i love it when i meet coral, mishuelle, michelle lam and may after school ... it's like a release day for a prisoner ... hahaha ... i was seriously stoning during RHT tutorial ... cause i didn't understand what the tutor is trying to say ... but then Kenneth was really nice to explain to me and teach me how to do the questions ... but as usual , sheena will disturb me and kenneth ... thinking that we got something on ... doesn't mean that i'm from KC and he's from St. pats means that we're together or something ... besides , i don't go for younger guys ... i had fun during dinner at Kenny Rogers ... it's so yummy ... we sat there and talk and talk ... it's so fun to chit chat and catch up with one another ... it's so so fun ... laughing and talking about our future ... hahaha... then May went home and the rest of us went to Esplande to continue to chit chat ... ahahhaa ... then we went home at about 11pm ... took bus 10 ... on the bus , we continue talking ... hahahha... like so much to talk about huh ... tomorrow is gonna be a long day ... got lessons from 9 to 11 ... then project work till don't know what time ... then when i get home , i need to mark marcus' assignments and tutor him ... so sad right ... feel so tired ... but God will grant me the Supernatural strength ... yea ... gotta go now ... feelin' sleepy ... love ya people!
~princess madeline kiss you good night at 1:18am~
p.s: Heaven knows i'm falling for you , my charming prince ...
XOXO
Monday, July 17, 2006
wow , it's 12:15am already... hmmm ... was chatting with Bel and my long last friend, Chan Long... he claims to be the boy who bullies me in primary 1 & 2... i can't remember much from P1 and 2 now ... i miss primary school... all the teachers and classmates ... all the fun and laughter... i'm kinda feeling tired after dance ... although we didn't do much during studio session but it's just tiring cause the past few days i haven't been sleeping enough... we practise the whole dance for project National Day... and joel taught us the up-rock routine for the boys ... cool huh ? girls learning up-rock ... so B-boyish ... hahaha ... talking about project National Day , only 7 confirm dancers... so sad cause those taking N/O/A levels didn't join ... they have to study ... lots of things happen today ... quite a few people have emotional downs ... but i believe that God will pull us all through ... always remember to be grateful and giving Him thanks... even in times of troubles or trials , continue to praise Him and He will come true for those who believe... i feelin' sleepy ... yawn yawn... hahah... i will be going out with Coral and the rest of the KC girls for a monthly 17th fellowship ... will be meeting them for dinner ... hmmm ... i hope that the weekdays will fly pass like super fast ... can't wait for weekends to come ... i think i better stop already ... i'm like taking forever to finish blogging this entry ... sweet dreams everyone...
~princess madeline kiss you good night at 12:40am~
p.s: i miss you, my knight ... i need you in my life, i need you by my side... i don't wanna let you go, i just wanna let you know that ............ i love you <3
XOXO
Saturday, July 15, 2006
hello everyone ... just came back from supper after FUSION at Elim Church... feeling super tired now... it's a long day... oh , the performance at EXPO was great ... lots of people were there... then i accidentally sprain/injure my leg after the performance while coming off the stage... i missed the step and landed on my heel so i kinda twist it a lil' ... then because it was quite bad, so i couldn't dance for FUSION... i was so sad ... i cried in silence (actually not so silently)... i was very very disappointed... i kinda blamed myself and stuff... you know, it's like for any dancer, the performance is the most important thing and the worst thing that can happen is that you injure yourself and all... i cried during praise and worship... i just could not control my emotions ... it's like "all my fault" kinda thing ... my tears started rolling down my cheeks NON-STOP ... haha ... thank God that my make-up didn't smudge... hahah... and now my ankle is healed ! Praise God shout out to all dancers: love you sweethearts ... you guys did GREAT... shout out to shenna: babe, have confidence in yourself! you can do it!!! i'll always be behind you... shout out to coral: i love you diva ... you will always be my sexy mama!!! shout out to my cell group: i love all you peeps ... my crazy cell leader, my lame friend, my dearest mummy and my "cat" friend...<3 shout out to Bel, May and Nicole: thank you for helping the dancers with our make-up and hair...
i'm feelin' very tired now ... gotta go and sleep now ... Love you all <3
~princess madeline dance the night away~
p.s: i just wanna call to say i love you... just wanna say i miss you... cause i can't help falling in love with you ~
XOXO
Friday, July 14, 2006
it's already 12:16am ... just finish bathing and all... Vicky's concert was not bad, the ballet was GOOD!!! can see that the girls put in a lot of hardwork and a lot of discipline... it's friday already ... counting down to Fusion and Asian Idol... scary scary!!! we're gonna meet at 7:45pm later to discuss about project NDP and Fusion stuff... *burning with passion* there was a "riot" & "cold war" at home, as usual it's my mum and dad... it's not "verbal or physical" war YET, but i hope for the best... i don't wanna be bombed AGAIN...WAR WAR WAR... forever fighting and fighting ... i'll never have peace man ... and all thanks to those "stupid" divorced aunties at my mum's work place and their idiotic suggestions and advices ... like get a life... buzz off and leave my family alone... actually hor, it's not totally the friends fault... it's MY MUM ! stupid *toot* ... school school school ... sighs, if only we don't need to go to school... it's just so tiring... i miss the time after the PAE thing while waiting for Poly to start... that period of time is the best! Every morning i'll go down to BASC to help out at the playgroup then go for lunch with Coral and the rest... then slack and slack in the youth room... it's like RELAX and CHILL OUT time... now it's like ... argh ... weekday, home-school-home... weekend, home-church-home... the weekend are fine ... i love saturday and sunday ... but not monday to friday... so sad ...boo hoo hoo... haha... i think i better go to sleep soon ... argh, hate my mum... like some *toot* bitching about other people with all the vulgarities ... i'm like "shut up!" ... stop gossiping! you think you very cool arh ? cool kid arh ? argh ... nevermind...
~princess madeline kiss you good night at 12:36am~
p.s: baby you're my sugar rush, you're the sweetest thing i've ever tasted... i hope that you're the knight that God have placed in my life...
XOXO
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
yesterday i went TM with Sheena, Emily and Kenneth... we went to shop for Kenneth's shirt for our Comm Skills presentation... then i met Jack at Metro at the male department looking at World Cup boxers...opps ...hahhahaha ... then after that i went to East Point to meet coral and regina ... i arrived there super early so i decided to work on my comm skills presentation... the KFC outlet's aircon is freaking cold lah ... frozen! then they came and we went around East Point to shop ... there's nothing much at East Point... coral and regina made fun of me because i was wearing a purple top with black pants and the Watsons' uniform is also the same colour so they joke about me working at Watsons... lol... then we sat down at Starbucks to talk ... again , we talk about relationship ... lol... i think because now we're like all 18 and ageing so like a bit desperate ...hahahaha we also met Joel Chew after his work ... then we all walk to the bus 12 bus stop and went home ...
today school was good at first ... econs lecture was okay but very hungry... then during the 5mins break Kenneth went to BizPark to get currypuff for me and the rest... Comm Skills presentation is not too bad ... haha ... i think i spoke too fast... hahah ... oh, then until BCS lessons ... goodness! i've never felt so depressed and stupid at the same time... i hate Excel! sucks man ... worst still, no one offered to help me with it... i'm like so frustrated with myself and felt so so sad ... i almost cried in the lab... i just feel so so dumb, you know... the rest of them are like pros but me ? i'm like lagging behind lah ... at that point in time, i wanted to run to the toilet and cry my heart out but i just kept encouraging myself... wow, it's wednesday already ! hahah ... 2 more days to weekend... oh my, FUSION and ASIAN IDOL is only 3 days away ... *heart beating SUPER fast* haha.. Victoria's dance concert is tomorrow... YEA!!! then friday have dance meeting ... so i guess time will pass quite fast... hahaha... i think i will stop here... will blog again soon ...love ya~
~princess madeline send you flying kisses~
p.s: i'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else. i'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself. i'd rather have hard times together than to have it easy apart, i'd rather have the one who holds my heart...
XOXO
Monday, July 10, 2006
hi guys! it's monday... but there's no monday blues... heeheehee... although it's tiring because i dance from 2:30opm till about 9 yesterday... whole body is aching now... haha... we had so much fun at studio... i went home immediately after studio session ... surprisingly my mum was very very nice to me... she started talking to me like normal... as if there wasn't a war before that ... praise God for world peace... hahaha... but still i don't get to go for mission... nevermind lah ... just have to tell myself that there will be other chances ... shoutout to Sarah Seow: although you might not see this but i just wanna thank you for everything... all the advice, encouragement and prayer... today i had fun in OB class... i found out that my OB tutor is actually a christian too... heehee... because we started talking about ghostly encounters in TP and in Business School... then she kinda shared about her testimony... about her family and how God delivered her daughter from spiritual attacks... cool huh ? then i shared a little with my friends... some of them were curious about speaking in tongues etc... so i shared with them and explain to them... i'm so happy that ITALY won ... muahahaha ... 5-3 ... FRANCE should just go and eat french fries ... lol ... shoutout to issac: i told you that italy will win... don't believe me? hahah ... no matter what you say about KOREA , i will still support them ... the KOREA spirit still lives ...muahahaha... oh... i watched "bend it like Beckham" on channel 5 just now ... it's so nice ... heehee... the coach Joe looks quite hunky ... like the sporty type of guy ... hmmm ... i like ... muahahaha .... i'm crazy ... hahaha ... must be the lack of sleep ... i think i should sleep soon ... haha... gotta go now ...love <3
~princess madeline kiss you good night at 10:10pm~
p.s: i wanna be with you, but it just seem so impossible...
XOXO
Sunday, July 09, 2006
wow , it's 8:23am ! heehee... i just got home from church after last night's attemp of staying up to watch soccer ... but whatever... Germany won! 3-1 ... Portugal should just go home and eat their egg tarts... muahahah ... now i'm still feeling kinda wake... good good ... i need that energy ... there will be dance later... so must put in my 101%... like what Hosea shared during pre-service prayer yesterday, it takes 90% of enthusiasm and 10% of techniques... so let's be passionate!~ hahahah we spend some time planning project Fusion & Asian Idol... the formation and transition stuff ... after midnight we all got a bit crazy... i started with the lame jokes that Adeline Bong told me... then everyone at the "dance meeting" burst out into laughter... we watched the Serenade video and the dance part was not bad...but we need to work harder! one more news, we got the music out too ... yippy! looks like we're kinda on the right track ... all we need to do is blocking and practice ...heeheehee... Saturday was AWESOME... Pastor Luke Reid is just so power! simply amazing... War started at home & guess what ? i got bombed ! totally blown apart... i could not take it anymore at that point of time so i went to church... coral comforted me and talk to me... i feel so so much better after that... although i can't go for the mission trip now, i believe in the near future i will get a chance... Let's talk about friday... hmmm... i went to school and felt quite energetic... didn't die while doing project... after school i went to Siglap Starbucks to meet Coral and Sarah Lin... we sat down and talk... and talk a lot... hahah...then we went back to church and sarah & i fell asleep in the youth room... we woke up when it's time for Pentacost and went up to pray... oh , that's when Bertrand ask me if i want to go for the mission trip... feeling excited but i left everything to God... i give the full control to God... after prayer, we went to Sempang to eat supper... sat there and talk and talk... we also discussed about dance and stuff... then vanessa, coral and me walk home from there ... we thought that it would rain cause the sky was very red... but it's didn't... haha... then i slept... gotta go now ... got a service to attend... i will blog again very soon...
~princess madeline waved good bye~
p.s: Blessed be the name of the Lord !
XOXO
Thursday, July 06, 2006
hallucinating ... hahaha ... the weather is so bad ... it rained the whole day ... i slept for hours on the sofa ... haha ... oh , i also finish watching "it started with a kiss" ... i love that show ... gosh ... so NICE ...hee! so romantic .. if you guys get a chance , go watch it ... i love it ! love it , love it ! i don't know what to blog now ... suddenly brain dead... haha ... the images of the show is still stuck in my head ... awwwww ... it's such a sweet show ... so romantic and stuff ... heeheehee... ok , i think i better go rest early ... gotta meet my group members for Intro HT proj tmr ... bye bye
~princess madeline send you a flying kiss at 9pm~
p.s: i wanna be your pillar when you're weak , a compass when you're lost , a lighthouse where you can seek refuge ... i just wanna be there for you when you need me ... let me be your guardian angel ...
XOXO
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
hello everyone ... school was tiring ... got BCS and all ... TIRED !!! everyone is failing sick ... sheena was very very sick so she went to the doctor after lecture ... then she came back for BCS ... see , we students put in our heart and soul for school and this is how the school and tutors are treating us ... so sad lah ... i've got comm skills presentation next tuesday ... so many things to do for school ... school is killer !!! argh ... grace introduce a Taiwanese drama called "it started with a kiss" ... it originated from a japanese comics then to a japanese drama ... now it's taiwanese ... haha ... i watched the japanese one long time ago ... i love the story ... the taiwanese one is not bad too ... i love the storyline ... so touching ... i almost cried ... boo hoo hoo ... it's so fairytale ... how i wish that reality can be as beautiful as fantasy ... that really everyone will live happily ever after ... that one day , my prince will coming looking for me , running in the rain , searching for my face in the crowd ... then he found me , he hold me in his arms ... say the 3 words to me , and tell me that he'll never let me go ... then he sealed what he said with a kiss... awwwww ... what an awesome love story ? hahaha ... if it comes true .... people always tell me that i'm such a princessy dreamer ... they told me to face reality and stop day-dreaming ... such things only happen in movies , MTV and drama series ... never in reality ... i think my sickness is getting worst ... not only gastritis ; i have cough and flu and soon fever ... sometimes when i'm sick , i won't be able to think straight ... i'll start hallucinating and dream ... let's imagine ... how nice will it be if you're sick in bed and your sweetheart stays by your bed side ... he holds your hand and look at you ... give you that sweet sweet smile that warms your heart... awww ... then he put his hand on your forehead to see if your fever is still there ... he let his fingers run through your messy hair ... then he stayed there the whole night ... right beside you ... so sweet right ? hahah ... i think i'm starting to hallucinate already ... now i'm down with flu ... dying of running nose ... hahahah ... i'm so excited and worried for FUSION! Hosea says that we're only having ONE practice and it's this sunday ... gosh ... so so worried ... we will all work hard !!! JIA YOU ! hee hee ... you make me wanna dance , make me clap my hands oh~ heeheehee ... ilovesuperman!!!EYE CANDIES!!! heeheehee...GORGEOUS !
~princess madeline kiss you good bye at 10pm~
p.s: i love you
XOXO
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
today i still didn't feel too good ... still kinda sick ... but i went to school and did my group project ... then i went to TM to meet Regina , joel chew and berty ... we watched SUPERMAN ! hahah ... at first i thought the show won't be really good ... but i guess i was wrong ... it's not bad ... like it ... it's like action and a little bit of romance ... hee hee ... the little boy(superman's son) is really cute !!! love him lah ... hee hee... superman is also not bad looking ... James Marsdon is also acting in it ...gosh ... he's like so gorgeous ... hee hee ... after the movie i went home cause i have like 2 assignments to complete ... i'm like so tired! i can't wait to watch "the lake house" ... hee hee ... i love romance ... hahah ... hmmm, nothing much happened today ... haha ... i guess i will blog again tmr after school ... bye !
~princess madeline wave goodbye at 8:25pm~
p.s: i'm thinking of you , it's all i can do... when i look into your eyes, will you say that you'll be mine ?
XOXO
Monday, July 03, 2006
hello everyone ... woke up at 9 plus to go to the doctor today ... the doctor said that i have Gastritis ... so i one day MC ... have to go to school tomorrow ... hahah ... felt very tired for the whole day ... after lunch , i wanted to watch the Da Vinci Code dvd ... but i fell asleep while watching it ...i slept until about 5pm when Hosea called me on my hp... i can't wait for FUSION at Elim House ... at the same time , we're so short of time ... we really need to practise real hard ... it's only 12 days more ... and we can only start practising on sunday which is already the 9th ... that means we only have like 6 more days ... scary !!! hahhaa ... but we have to JIA YOU! JIA YOU! JIA YOU! hee hee ... hmmmm ... i'm still thinking what should i do tmr after lesson ... i end school at 11am ... should i go down to church to study ? hmmm ...i think i should ... exams are coming soon ...argh ... i hate school , man ... i heard that some of the youth leaders will be going to Karen again ... i really want to go ... but school ... i think they will go around Aug ... and that's quite near my exams ... so Pastor Mark won't allow ... i wanna go ... i really wanted to ... early this year they went and i wanted to go but i didn't ... i pray that God will open doors of opportunities ... i hate poly ... hate it lah ... i've never hated studying ... ever since i start poly , i hate poly and hate studying ... i will blog again soon...bye bye
~princess madeline wave good bye at 8:52pm~
p.s: i don't wanna hate you , because i still love you .. i can't force myself to forget you because you've already started a beautiful chapter in my life ... you're the super hero with that HUGE smile... the happiness that you've brought into my life make me wanna stay by your side ...i don't wanna let you go ...
XOXO
Sunday, July 02, 2006
we had a guest speaker from South America to speak in my church today ... the message was really AWESOME and really really good ... then altar call , i went up ... cry and cry ... crying out to God ... then Coral came to comfort me ... Shout out to CORAL : thank you so so so so so so much ! then i had dance comm meeting ... now i'm in the dance "board" ... hahahah ... together with Hosea and Rayvin ... the 2 BOSSES !!! i'm just the P.A ... hahaha ... but i'm glad to be running along side you guys ... oh , Aunty Ayelan came to sit in the meeting as well ... she shared with us and taught us a lot of stuff ... and i feel that it's really really useful ... then i went studio ... didn't do much ... i forgotten to bring my dance gear and i'm also feelin' quite sick ... *faint* we stayed till about 9:30 pm then we started packing up ... Joel is so dum dum lah ... make me fold his shirts for him ... treat me like maid ah ... he's so funny lah ... then we listen to a song in his handphone on the bus , on the way home ... feeelllll so so sick !!!! GOD HEAL ME !!! i don't feel like going to school tomorrow feeling sick and all ... later i faint in school ah ... the doctor and was told that i got intestinal virus ... then he gave me so medication that cause gastric cause it's meant to be taken before meals ... the made things worst ... so i tried to go a few days without medication ... but cannot ... the pain is unbearable ! i think i should rest early ... chocolate dreams !
~princess madeline kissing you good night at 11:44pm~
p.s: i want to be God's messenger of HOPE , someone who impacts lives and touchs hearts ...
XOXO
FIRE CONFERENCE IS REALLY REALLY AMAZING !!! God is just so so real ... the annointing is very very strong ... it's just mind-blowing ...
i feel so drained ... very tired and sick ... i wonder will i make it for tomorrow's C.E class , service and Dance Comm meeting ... i really feel so sick ... physically and emotionally ... spiritually fine !
God is all i need ... He's all that i want , He's all that i need , He's all that i live for in this world ...
~princess madeline walk away at 12:24am~
p.s: the love slowly dies off ... because it's just me and myself ... you didn't know that you were included ... you didn't know that i even like you ... i should never place so much hope in anyone else again ... i don't want to feel abandoned ... i don't wanna be hurt ... the joke is that , it's me who decides to be in this ... how stupid can i get ? i'm just a fool ...
XOXO
Saturday, July 01, 2006
FIRE CONFERENCE was awesome ! it's really powerful lah ... i can't wait for tmr's session ... hee hee ... it's already 1:23 am ... better go and sleep soon ... cause i will be meeting vanessa and the rest at katong at 7:50 am ... lol ... i suddenly feel like eating Macdonald's Big Breakfast with Ice Milo ... hahah ... i sound like some pregnant woman lah ... sudden mignight cravings ... hahah ... Channel 8 was showing some spastic chinese/hong kong amusement park horror movie ... it's quite retarded ... LoL ... like whatever ! hahahah ... my mum just have to be so irritating and bias and argh .... cause i doing some t-shirt message thingy for my classmate for her birthday , it's a gift from the whole class ... and my mum being the retarded stupid and *toot* person , she scolded me ... she started scolding me about my church and doing things for church and don't do anything at home ... like what ? in the first place , the t-shirt is not for church ... so i answered her lah ... then she shut up for less than 5 second then she argued saying about me not at home on weekend ... like pls lah ... i'm not her slave lor ... maids also have off-days right ? even if they don't have off-days , they are at least paid lor ... i'm worst than a maid lor ... abused , not paid , innocently accused by my *toot* mum ... hate her lah ... she's really the torn in my flesh ... i don't know what she wants me to do man ... like "her majesty" ... yucks ... sick ... ok , i should stop talking about her already before i die of high blood ... i miss my prince ... hahaha ... very random ... hahahha ... he's the only one who can make me feel so happy ... hee hee ... i hope i dream about him ... miss him , miss him like crazy ... muahahaha ...
~princess madeline kiss you good night at 1:47am~
p.s: have i told you lately that i love you ? will i get a chance to say that 3 words to you ... will you be the one standing next to me at the altar ? will you be the one holding my hands as we walk along the beach ? i pray that you'll say "YES!"