Thursday, January 31, 2008
~Project LOVE~i finishing cutting and painting the cards for V'day... thanks to shenna who offered to help me paint the cards...
all i have to do now is to write messages and then make chocolates =) so exciting =)
Career fair in TP tomorrow, i'm gonna go take a look with Fiona... i'm not worried because i know that my future is already planned by God and He say that He will prosper me and not harm me...
kawaii maddy signing off~XOXO
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
i love this picture best...this reminds me of God's love for me
today i will blog about precept... it's super cool... for those who are inclined in SCIENCE and THEORIES, you will like this... if you're more of a arty person, you might just find this super amazing...
Many people have struggled with this: How old is earth actually? is it billions and billions of years old or just a young place like what the bible says?
So let me introduce to you the Fossil Record... it's a chart thingy that shows you the layers of fossils that will tell you the age of earth...
This is the chronological column which is made up of the Biostratigraphic Column (fossil record) plus the Radiometric dating (a method to infer age through elements like nitrogen gas and carbon).
From the original Fossil record we can understand that it records:
- billions death of organisms
- extinction of about 200,000 organisms
- thorns
- carnivores
- diseases
- suffering
However, the result of the Chronological column shows otherwise. It shows that earth is:
- more than 3.8 billion years old
- more than 1 billion billion dead organisms
- extinction of more than 5 billion organisms
- thorns
- carnivores
- diseases
- suffering
According to science, all these happen way before the appearance of man .
So lets refer to the Bible and see what the Bible says...
Genesis 1:
- everything is created in 6 days
- creation order is:
~first earth then the sun
~flying creatures are created before land creatures
~plants are created before animal
- all animals are herbivores
If the Chronological Column is right, then whatever that is said in Genesis 1 will be WRONG because it says earth is billions of years old, the order of creation is also wrong and the animals are carnivores.
Genesis 2:
- man are made to live forever if not for the fall
- 4 rivers flow from 1 source in Garden of Eden
- adam named the animals
If the Chronological Column is right, then whatever that is said in Genesis 2 will be WRONG because man cannot leave forever, and rivers flow to 1 NOT from 1 and Adam can't possibly name all the animals since he come after billions and billions of animals are dead.
Genesis 3:
- thorn and thistles followed man's sin
If the Chronological Column is right, then whatever that is said in Genesis 3 will be WRONG because thorn appeared before man.
Genesis 5:
- human can live till 900 years old (Adam)
If the Chronological Column is right, then whatever that is said in Genesis 5 will be WRONG because the longest man can live is only 120 years old.
I can go on and on about how the Chronological Column and God's word are different... now let us take a look at something else k?
So lets presume that what is said in the Chronological Column is right and the earth is really old this is what will happen to the bible...
20% of Genesis, 23 Psalms (15%), 18 Old Testiment books (45%), 7 New Testiment books (25%) MUST BE REJECTED! Which means, many many christian doctrines must be rejected... even the DOCTRINE OF GOD...
Isn't it scary? but at least i know that the God i trust in is good and merciful and what He say in His word is the truth... To be believe in what the world say (Chronological column is a INFERENCE) means that you're rejecting everything that God is saying...
sometimes all you need is that little faith to believe~
XOXO
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
my parents are being bitchy with me...
whassup losers?
just because i got a warning letter from TP saying that i have 2 absent for accounting... my bitchy daddy was like throwing a fit about it... i mean like "since when are you so concern huh?"... he made it sound like as if i did like a crime or had someone complaint about me or something like that...
then he was like "when is the class? monday is it?"... he was all ready to point his M16 at church and start bombing me and church non-stop... but sadly, the stupid lesson is on thursday... so i explain to him that the lesson is at 9 and i overslept for both times... it's not on purpose or what so just CHILL YALL...
and he was all bitchy and like shouting at me...
then my idiotic mom have to come into the chaotic picture... she was like "when is the class?" and so i explain to her... then she scolded me for being rude... wth... and she said "wahhh, recently getting more and more rude hor?"... i was like... i didn't even fight with her... she always pick a fight with me when i did nothing wrong and it's damn sickening to lose just because "you're the daughter and she's the mother"...
then my dad said this "next time, if there is any letter for you, ask them not to send it to here..."... bitchy sia... my dad can still say man don't have menopause...
well daddy, YOU ARE HAVING YOUR FREAKING MENOPAUSE NOW DUMB!
they are major control freaks who need to stick their whole self into someone's life... and since they can't control my brothers, they have decided to control the one and only person who don't retaliate... and that's me...
can't they freaking appreciate me huh? damn it... i'm so pissed off with them...
just when i wanted to post something Godly and something really cool that i learn from precept bible study just now...
satan, you're such a bitch...
whassup losers?
just because i got a warning letter from TP saying that i have 2 absent for accounting... my bitchy daddy was like throwing a fit about it... i mean like "since when are you so concern huh?"... he made it sound like as if i did like a crime or had someone complaint about me or something like that...
then he was like "when is the class? monday is it?"... he was all ready to point his M16 at church and start bombing me and church non-stop... but sadly, the stupid lesson is on thursday... so i explain to him that the lesson is at 9 and i overslept for both times... it's not on purpose or what so just CHILL YALL...
and he was all bitchy and like shouting at me...
then my idiotic mom have to come into the chaotic picture... she was like "when is the class?" and so i explain to her... then she scolded me for being rude... wth... and she said "wahhh, recently getting more and more rude hor?"... i was like... i didn't even fight with her... she always pick a fight with me when i did nothing wrong and it's damn sickening to lose just because "you're the daughter and she's the mother"...
then my dad said this "next time, if there is any letter for you, ask them not to send it to here..."... bitchy sia... my dad can still say man don't have menopause...
well daddy, YOU ARE HAVING YOUR FREAKING MENOPAUSE NOW DUMB!
they are major control freaks who need to stick their whole self into someone's life... and since they can't control my brothers, they have decided to control the one and only person who don't retaliate... and that's me...
can't they freaking appreciate me huh? damn it... i'm so pissed off with them...
just when i wanted to post something Godly and something really cool that i learn from precept bible study just now...
satan, you're such a bitch...
XOXO
Monday, January 28, 2008
the cutest, most gorgeous, hotest bod...Yamashita Tomohisa - my Yamapi, Pi chan
no point dwelling in my emo-ness... i picked myself up... decided to do some self-improvement... continue to work out and tone my body (remove fats), continue to learn about God's word, learn a new language (Japanese) on a D.I.Y basis...
i thank God for Meredith... Meredith chan was so so nice... she just gave me a online Jap lesson over MSN... how cool is that?
i will work hard... not only look pretty and stuff, but to put all the talents that God have blessed me with to good use...
was looking through my god-sis's profile... oh, she's not actually my god sis, she's my mum's god daugther, so she's like my god sis.. yes, back to my god sis... she's like a part-time model who goes for a lot of pagent and stuff... like cleo covergirl and stuff...
and she's from a modeling company called iGlamour and it's like quite big with pagents and stuff... and like some of the contestants are like model material and also very talented...
so it really inspired me to work hard, not just improving my looks but my inner shine... not to be all materialistic and bimbo club-ish... but to be a woman of substance...
i WILL reach my goal of going back to the 45-50kg mark by the end of this year...
XOXO
i've been selfish and stupid...i'm sorry if anyone is affected by the previous post (already deleted) that i blogged... i know there was so much emotions, so much anger and frustration in it...
so so sorry
i promise to return back to my normal state by tomorrow morning...
XOXO
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Love is in the air as Valentines Day draws near...(seriously, i'm not depressed at all)
the desire to find love is and will be satisfied by God...
because His love is the best love EVER~
i'm just so amazed at what God is doing... today many many "old timers" came back to church... Dan, Eileen Chan, Kesther and last but not least MY BROTHER, Matthew... i know that God is still running after them and still loving them and wooing them back to Him...
i'm so glad =)
anyways as usual, i will leave you with some pictures...
note to pi-chan: i know that you're wearing a D&G boxers... hahha... pull up your jeans sexy...
this is super cute (kawaiiiiiiiii)
this is Ryo chan and Pi chan when they were younger... so cute right??? ryo is just PURE cuteness, Pi is so gorgeous...
XOXO
Friday, January 25, 2008
which cookie are you today?i don't even know how i feel,
i don't even know what i wanna say...
XOXO
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Festival & Events Project Group~
feeling very drained now... ho ho but i'm ok =)
no matter what, even when i feel weak and down, i know that God is there to support me and hold me... it's really nice to just depend on God =)
hold me in Your arms, never let me go, i wanna spend eternity with
I give You praise for You deserve it
I give You praise for what You've done
I give You praise for You are able
I give You praise 'til I overcome
I give You praise when the sun is shining
I give You praise in the dark of night
I give You praise when the battle rages
I give You praise 'til it works out right
The shout of the King is among us
God lives here in our praises
The shout of the King is among us
Praise Him praise Him
Praise Him in everything
Heaven opens as we sing Your praise
Angels join us as we praise Your name
Formal
A group picture at SBG
feeling very drained now... ho ho but i'm ok =)
no matter what, even when i feel weak and down, i know that God is there to support me and hold me... it's really nice to just depend on God =)
hold me in Your arms, never let me go, i wanna spend eternity with
I give You praise for You deserve it
I give You praise for what You've done
I give You praise for You are able
I give You praise 'til I overcome
I give You praise when the sun is shining
I give You praise in the dark of night
I give You praise when the battle rages
I give You praise 'til it works out right
The shout of the King is among us
God lives here in our praises
The shout of the King is among us
Praise Him praise Him
Praise Him in everything
Heaven opens as we sing Your praise
Angels join us as we praise Your name
XOXO
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
i know that in this world, there's someone who really love me...the true one who love me for me...
the one who love me more than His life,
My God... My Jesus Christ...
at times i feel like as if no one love me and i mean nothing to anyone... but i often forgot how much i mean to God...
i'm glad i don't have to rely on human love when i can have the best love ever...
i guess pretty much all these feelings come because of the high level of stress and pressure and plus a whole lot of sickness etc... the desire to be loved and feel cared for... can't get it from family, can't get it from friends...
what am i even thinking? there's always God
now i know and i will never forget...
God will be my one and only...
no one can replace Him...
not even my japanese hot boys can replace...
anyways, i have so much plans in mind... but i really need MONEY and TIME... oh well, i don't have both so those plans will have to put on hold for the time being...
1) i wanna improve my japanese...
go for jap classes in Cambridge Language School
(2months/10 lessons)
2) i wanna improve my dancing skills...
go for O school classes
sigh... all these plans will be placed on hold... until i have the time and money...
alright, i will go off soon cause have to wake up early tmr...
let me leave you with a picture of my husband: Yamapi
*drool*XOXO
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
i thank God for answering prayer...
cause a while ago, some of you might know that my dad actually ran away from home and work... then after that incident, my daddy told me that he quit working at his company...
i was so so shock and almost wanted to murder him for quitting... because the boss is like really nice to him, the pay is not bad etc etc...
but then i believe that somehow there will be a good reason for him to leave... so i prayed a short prayer for my dad to get a good job...
for the past few days, my dad have been going for interview and finally today he told me that he found a job...
PRAISE GOD!!!
i thank God for always providing for me and my family in times of need...
cause a while ago, some of you might know that my dad actually ran away from home and work... then after that incident, my daddy told me that he quit working at his company...
i was so so shock and almost wanted to murder him for quitting... because the boss is like really nice to him, the pay is not bad etc etc...
but then i believe that somehow there will be a good reason for him to leave... so i prayed a short prayer for my dad to get a good job...
for the past few days, my dad have been going for interview and finally today he told me that he found a job...
PRAISE GOD!!!
i thank God for always providing for me and my family in times of need...
XOXO
CUTE RIGHT???
hee~
i love ryo chan, pipi chan and tegoshi chan... kawaii ne~
anyways, i feel super happy when i woke up today... perhaps because of last night's QT and last night i listen to NEWS's song, Rainbow... it's such a happy song...
today is a rather slow day... lecture was less than 1 hour so Eddie, Fiona and myself went to Vivo to eat and walk around... we had so much fun...
then we return back to TAS for tutorial and it was pure "crapness" cause we are suppose to come up with a detox plan for tourist and i used all my general knowledge to crap my way through...
one thing that really touched me is when my group asked me to go up and present, Eddie said that it will be good cause we are sending our trump card... and deep inside i was like awww... and of course i didn't disappoint them...
after tutorial, we had festival group meeting in the library and i was in-charge of doing the design of the slides etc etc... somewhat like the designer... ho ho ho... doing what i love~
then i went to meet Gabsy and Alvin at Raffles Place for dinner at Lau Par Sat before Precept... Precept was awesome... i didn't even feel sleepy at all when i step into the classroom... it's so amazing... hahaha
then took the mrt with our dearest Brother Chuan... talk about ministry and people and future leadership plans... haha... things seems vague but it's all good =)
still feeling kinda tired and sick... also have difficulty breathing... oh well, i just really need rest...
i kinda wish to go on a holiday~
i kinda wish to go on a holiday~
understanding the creator by looking at His creations...
some pictures:
fiona drinking some wierd green soup from the healthy food stall...
playing at daiso... eddie requested for his face to be covered... lol
XOXO
Monday, January 21, 2008
a spend a whole night to complete this 3D model alone...
view- top/down
view- top/down
view- bird's eye view
my seaside resort villas
the leisure and recreation centre
Golf course and marina
although it's very simple, but it's my hardwork
due to the lack of sleep for weeks, my body finally waved the WHITE FLAG... of course, i'm not a robot and i do fall sick...
today is really a very interesting monday... this morning while i was making my way to sentosa to hand in my report, i was told at Tanah Merah that there's no train coming to and fro Tanah Merah and Pasir Ris...
imagine you standing there with a huge 3D model with a whole crowd of working people, lost and stuck at the mrt station... then finally there was a train at the middle platform (the expo/changi airport one) and took us towards Boon Lay...
i was so scared that i will be late... then i handed in and head back home cause i was already like sick... when i reach home, granny was about to bring Malcolm to school and she told me to go rest cause i looked very pale... i crank a lame joke so that she won't be so worried...
haha... acting tough when you're sick is really difficult... so i ate lunch and went to take a nap... so now i'm awake and i have to send my project parts to my groupmates...
i feel happy when i listen to japanese songs
XOXO
Sunday, January 20, 2008
pictures!!!!
vaness & me (pretend studio shot)
bel and gaius (gorgeous-ness)
Booby man- shaunster
Meredith and me~
kawaii moment
vaness & me (pretend studio shot)
me and meimei dearest
o'that and ian (my boys)
me and gracie
me and danellia
bel and gaius (gorgeous-ness)
vicky, nel chi chi, danellia
shenna babe & vaness
the cutest besties- Grace and Vaness
Ray-man
Booby man- shaunster
the cutest couple- Rayvin and Livia
the cute jap high school boy- princess joel =p
our dearest hero- Ying Spidey Chuan
my ever-so-glamorous friend, coral
WELCOME TO THE LAND OF THE JAPANESE!!!
Meredith and me~
kawaii moment
kawaii part 2
ryo chan~~~ love
aiba chan~~~ looking good in purple
the last 2 pictures are from meredith...
XOXO
Friday, January 18, 2008
thanks everyone for the prayer and encouragement
i'm fine =)
i guess after all these, i will be way stronger than before... even though i'm still quite like a japanese bimbo but i know that God had already made me stronger...
i know there will be more waves coming but i also know that God is also there to catch me...
i'm smiling =)
i'm fine =)
i guess after all these, i will be way stronger than before... even though i'm still quite like a japanese bimbo but i know that God had already made me stronger...
i know there will be more waves coming but i also know that God is also there to catch me...
i'm smiling =)
XOXO
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
i don't understand why you can take it so lightly?
you can just run away from home and come back after 24 hours and pretend that nothing happen?
are you dumb or what?
how old are you already?
you're already 43 going 44 years old leh?
why so childish?
i'm so tired supporting you and mummy in your childish games...
grow up for God sake...
i should be the one running away from home, not you
damn it, you self-centred idiot
you guys are seriously saddist... out to make my life so so miserable right? huh?
i think so highly of the both of you. even though none of you graduated with a O level cert, none of you are in high position earning big bucks... i never look down on you and never ask why can't i have bigger house and more money...
i'm always the one who understands and the one who pretends nothing is wrong and help everyone move on... i'm the one who take care of your sons, i'm the one encouraging my granny, i'm the one who is there and who bothers to listen to the both of you...
yet this is what you can give to me huh?
by making me all worried for your freaking safety...
i was so scared that you might be in a car accident because it have been raining like mad for days... i was so scared that you might be killed or robbed when you go into Malaysia so often... all these horrible thoughts haunted me throughout the day...
what if you just leave the family like this? can mummy support me in my school? must i start working to support the family? how are we suppose to clear all your debts?
all these scary questions kept coming to me...
i was so determined that no matter what happens, i will be the one who will run and support this family... i'm willing to stop studying and start working to support the family... i'm so willing to take up the role as a mentor to coach my brothers...
this is so so ridiculous... you guys got no idea how much damage you have done to me... while worrying for you, i have to explain things to my granny, have to talk heart-to-heart with marcus, have to teach malcolm, have to tolerate matthew and have to finish my FREAKING REPORT...
and now to think that it's all a FREAKING JOKE, a stupid "oh, i ran away from home" thing...
do you know how much stress i have to go through???
do you know how heavy the world seem to me?
do you know how scared i was?
all you think about is yourself...
you can just run away from home and come back after 24 hours and pretend that nothing happen?
are you dumb or what?
how old are you already?
you're already 43 going 44 years old leh?
why so childish?
i'm so tired supporting you and mummy in your childish games...
grow up for God sake...
i should be the one running away from home, not you
damn it, you self-centred idiot
you guys are seriously saddist... out to make my life so so miserable right? huh?
i think so highly of the both of you. even though none of you graduated with a O level cert, none of you are in high position earning big bucks... i never look down on you and never ask why can't i have bigger house and more money...
i'm always the one who understands and the one who pretends nothing is wrong and help everyone move on... i'm the one who take care of your sons, i'm the one encouraging my granny, i'm the one who is there and who bothers to listen to the both of you...
yet this is what you can give to me huh?
by making me all worried for your freaking safety...
i was so scared that you might be in a car accident because it have been raining like mad for days... i was so scared that you might be killed or robbed when you go into Malaysia so often... all these horrible thoughts haunted me throughout the day...
what if you just leave the family like this? can mummy support me in my school? must i start working to support the family? how are we suppose to clear all your debts?
all these scary questions kept coming to me...
i was so determined that no matter what happens, i will be the one who will run and support this family... i'm willing to stop studying and start working to support the family... i'm so willing to take up the role as a mentor to coach my brothers...
this is so so ridiculous... you guys got no idea how much damage you have done to me... while worrying for you, i have to explain things to my granny, have to talk heart-to-heart with marcus, have to teach malcolm, have to tolerate matthew and have to finish my FREAKING REPORT...
and now to think that it's all a FREAKING JOKE, a stupid "oh, i ran away from home" thing...
do you know how much stress i have to go through???
do you know how heavy the world seem to me?
do you know how scared i was?
all you think about is yourself...
XOXO
Monday, January 14, 2008
i don't wanna do my work~~~
*pout lips & act cute*
i'm just so sick and tired... i need to rest, sleep and chill... not work, work and work...
i just came home from Heart Of God Church... dance practise was good but very tiring cause i got a bad headache... i think it's due to the lack of sleep...
i wanna sleep~~~
i wanna sing and dance because You love me
XOXO
Friday, January 11, 2008
click on picture to read
XOXO
XOXO
Thursday, January 10, 2008
i'm so tired~
no one knows the real me, the one behind the mask
the one that bleeds, the one that cries,
that's shackled by the past
the one that's empty, full of pain, the child that yearns for love
the soul that's drowning in the rain, that just can't rise above
but i'll hide it all with painted smiles, i'll sing, i'll laugh, i'll dance
i'll live a lie, suppress each cry, i'll gladly wear my mask
i'll live each day, the same old way, fill my life with endless tasks
because i know to love me just for me, would be too much to ask.
i don't need money, i don't need fancy dresses, grand houses, big cars...
all i need is God, sleep and love...
will you sing to me until i fall asleep?
will you let me hold you until i enter dreamland?
will you?
botanic gardens... i will not be mean and bitchy but if it rains... i will seriously be DAMN pissed and don't blame me for walking off from there...
try to stay happy with these pictures...
My cell during YA Camp
Gorgeous babes
PAID'07- Dance
PAID'07- Our character, our style
XOXO