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Madeline Xiong (Maddy)
Kuma Miyuki
Tower of Strength
Born on 21/12/1988
Graduated from TP HTM
Currently working at Citadines Mt Sophia
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Thursday, June 29, 2006

hey everyone ... hahah ... don't know why i just feel so bitchy ... hahah ... maybe because i had too much of school ... i'm like talking like a bimbo (with the accent) ... hahha ... like totally retarded ... hahaha ... that's me when i'm all crazy ! i'm like at home alone , it's only 6:41 pm ... early huh ??? hahah ... feel so hungry and sick ... i went to church for a while just now to like relax , chit chat and waste my life away ! hahha ... no lah ... just to chill out with the peeps ... love them to bits ... we were like reading my new bridal magazine and looking through the part about SEX ! it's like ewww !!!! SICK ! all the description and all , like yucks ! seriously , i can't imagine myself like in the future doing it ... yucks yucks yucks !!!
i'm like so tired ... need my dose of chocolate and love stories ... hahaha ... I WANT TO GET MARRIED !!! hahaha ... i think i'm crazy , but whatever ... i want i want i want ... hahahah ... when will it be my turn ? hahha ...

~princess madeline kiss you good bye at 6:52pm ~

p.s: i know eventually we'll be together ... one sweet day! Take my hand ,Take my whole life too...But I can't help falling in love with you ... i just wanna be with you !


XOXO


hello everyone , hahah ... i didn't go to school today ... was sick ... boo hoo or actually YEAH! ... can sleep in and relax a little ... went to see the doctor and took some medicine ... now feel so tired ... the doctor only gave me one day MC , so i have to go to school tmr ...sob sob ... hahah ...
i watched DVD in the afternoon after lunch ... AQUAMARINE ... a show about friendship and true love ... awwww ... hahaha ... it's not too bad ... kinda like a chick flick show ... i love chick flick movies ... hahahah ... oh , i also watched CARS ! quite cute ... hee hee ...
i'm bored !!! so i went to www.tickle.com to do some online quizes ... the results are kind predictble for me ... hahahah ...
wow , it's 1 am already ! hahaha ... time flies ... hahahah ... gotta go now ...sweet dreams to all ...

~princess madeline kiss you good night at 1 am~

p.s: i think i love you that's how it seems , cause i miss you when you're not around... I can't do anything except to think about you , if i look at how things are i will know ... I'm falling for you , i didn't realize it but now i need you , somehow deep in my heart it grew ... now all i want to do is to take care of you ..


XOXO

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

i'm so tired... just got home from Tampines after movie with the 2 Joels , Bel , Regina , Coral , Brendon ... we watched "just my luck" , it's a ok show lah ... the bassist from McFLY super cute lah ... the lead actor looks like James Marsdon ... and he's cute ... lol ...
the interview for the IMF thing was ok ... not too bad ... but if we're selected , we need to commit a lot and a lot of time ... so i might not be able to go church anymore ... so it's really up to God lah ...
oh , coral , regina , joel chew and me met for lunch and ate Yong Tau Foo ... so yummy ! love it ... then we wnet to church .. regina was helping joel do his CDS design project while Coral keeps on disturbing me ... lol
i hate my mum ... she's so mean to me ... like when i just reached home , she didn't even bother about like how's my day or how was the interview ... guess what's the thing she said to me ? "mark Marcus' assessment books !" ... what the hell ... lie only my brothers , matthew , marcus and malcolm are her children lor ... i am nothing but a slave ... so idiot lah !!!! UNFAIR TREATMENT !!! feel like sueing her lah ... argh !!!!! sons then good , daughter not good meh ? you not girl ar ? it's just not fair ... BIASED !!!!!!!!! hate it ! why must my life be so sad ??? why must my parents be like that ??? not fair .... *sob sob*
feeling super sad and tired now lah ... very EMO ... somemore after watching love movie ... hahah ... like the couple kiss and kiss ... i envy them ... i want a boyfriend soon ...

~princess madeline kiss you good night at 11:42 pm~

p.s: i love you .... <3


XOXO


wow ! it's already 1:56AM !!! hahaha ... i just finish doing the site map for my BCS Dreamweaver project ... i really hate BCS man ... it sucks lah ... thank God i don't have to take it the next sem ... today we have make-up lesson for APEL so we went to school at 10 am ... my lectures end at 6 pm thus if you do a lil' math , you can find out that i have 8 hours of lesson ... super tiring lah ... i fell alseep during APEL ...*snore snore* i hate school lah .. i don't want to study ... but as usual , Hosea will have his "from stress to stress" logic ... lol ... i help hosea got a few books that he kinda interested in reading from TP library ...
then i went to TM to meet my mum after her meeting at Shiseido HQ ... i waited for more than 1 hour for her .... spend 30 mins walking around to kill time and 30 mins standing at the place where we are suppose to meet ... then i saw this lil' boy around 3 yrs old with his dad , waiting for the mummy to come; then the lil' boy is so so so adorable , he said to his dad "mummy is so naughty , why she take so long to come ?" ... then the boy's dad smiled at him ... the lil' boy is so so cute ... oh , i met Aunty Susan on bus 69 on my way to TM ... so yes , i waited for 1 hours and my mum came ... so we started our shopping ... along the way , my mum can't help but shop for her own stuff as well ... lol
we ended shopping at 10pm ... and daddy came to pick us up ... i only ate dinner at 10:30pm ... so so hungry ... hahah ... i hope that today's IMF briefing will end early cause i want to watch movie with coral , regina and the rest ...
will blog again soon ... love ya all ...

~princess madeline kiss you good night at 2:10am~

p.s: love the sound of your voice , love the smile on your face ...


XOXO

Sunday, June 25, 2006

school is starting AGAIN ! sadly ... i didn't even have enough rest during this holiday ... it's only 2 weeks ... sighs ... i hate school ... ever since i went into Poly , i just simply hate to go to school ... it's just so tiring , stress and all ...
today during Parents' day performance me , vaness and regina forgotten one set of 8 ... it's like we all started stoning at the same time ... then i quickly reacted by asking them to do the following set , thus ending up we did 2 sets of sea walk ... lol ...
i went home after service today cause my relatives came over for lunch and dinner cause one of my mum's cousin will be going to USA so my granny decided to cook some of her famous dishes like curry chicken , some pork and chicken soup and pork belly bun ... it's really yummy ! my aunties are just so wierd ... like they ask me how old i am , then i said 18yrs old this yr ... then ALL of them will reply the same thing "wow , can get married already" ... actually i don't mind getting married young perhaps 20 ? as long as the person is God sent ... today i saw like so many couples lah ... whenever i see that , i just feel so sad ... like "when will it be my turn?" ...
gotta go now ... got school tmr ... bye bye

~princess madeline kiss you good night at 11:30pm~

p.s: "are you are my prince charming ?" , i miss talking to you alone ...


XOXO


Just got home from church ... so tired ... wow , now it's already 3 am (sunday) ...today was good and bad !
good because Serenade is kinda SUCCESSFUL and the dance was GREAT ...
bad because loads of bad things kept happening ... 1st , it started from last night when i was so hungry and there's no food ... i cried a little ... not because there's no food but because things are just going wrong before Serenade ... 2nd , i took my brother's $10 by accident and he scolded me and shouted at me ; using vulgarities and all ... like relax lah , not like i won't pay right ? 3rd , all the friends almost 20 of them did not turn up for Serenade ! last min, they sms me and stuff and say that they are not coming ... i'm like so sad and disappointed lah ... 4th , got scolding from my mum , over the phone ... (stupid *toot*) 5th , scolding from my dad , in the car ....(shut up) they are seriously the torn in my flesh ... feel like killing them or move out of my house ... hate them to the core !!! so much for Parents' Day(my church is celebrating it) ... such *toots*
nevermind , i should stop talking about them cause everytime i think of them , it makes my blood boils ...argh !

not in a good mood to blog ... and i need to be in church at 8:30 am for dance prac , i'll also be dancing for Parents' Day later at 10 am... so i need to sleep ... so yup , i'll stop here ... bye

~princess madeline kissing you good night at 3:11 am~

p.s: i love your smiles ...


XOXO

Saturday, June 24, 2006

OMG !!! it's less than 24 hours to Serenade ... i'm so scared and so nervous ... i'm kinda freaking out ... LoL ... i pray that Serenade will be a HUGE success ... hee hee ... the no. of people coming will be like overwhelming and so so so many of them are going to be saved by the Lord ... i believe that the harvest is really here ...
it's only 30mins more to the Korea and Switzerland match ... ah ! i wanna watch ... but i can't , have to have enough rest and all ... i pray that korea will win ... pray hard ,pray hard ...
the dance costume have changed again ... Rach is like so angry during the rehersals lah ... she's like shouting and shouting ... and i kinda felt the attitude thing from her ... i pray that God will calm her heart down and give her love ...

rest well everyone ! sweet dreams ...

~princess madeline kiss you good night at 2.31am~

p.s: i love smiling back at you


XOXO

Friday, June 23, 2006

time pass so fast today ... today is madness ... hahah ... learnt the new girl's finale part ... now i'm like so confused with all the steps and stuff ... hahah ... but i'm manage to do it properly ... still trying my very best ... finally , we kinda got the costume done ... haha ... still unsure about the make-up cause Bel did not come to church today , so we could not really discuss ...
it's Friday already ! hahah ... just realised it's already 1:05 am !!! hahah ... hmmmm ... today we're gonna do rehersals ... it's gonna be really tiring but we can pull through ... oh , and i have project meeting at 10 am in school ... i pray that when i wake up , i will feel okay and will be able to make it to school ... hahaha ...
i'm like so prone to injuries and all ... hahah ... according to shenna ... haha... always having blisters and aches and pain ... hahah ... got like 3 or 4 blisters recently while dancing ... super painful lah ... haha ... but i believe God will heal me ...
I really wish to watch the Korea and Switzerland match .... but sighs ... if only the match is earlier ... but it's at 3 am ... sighs ...
Gosh , Serenade is like tmr ! it's already friday !!!!!!!! hahah ... i think i better go and rest early ...

~princess madeline kiss you good night at 1:20am~

p.s: i feel so happy around you ... sometimes i will secretly smile to myself because i just simply feel so happy around you ... no matter how bad times can get , you're always there to put a smile onto my face ... i'm just so blessed by you and i wish that the times never end ...


XOXO

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

hello everybody !
Just wanna shout out to :
*all the Serenade'06 dancers -well done people ! you guys worked hard ... continue to improve ya ? we're progressing fast ! Cool !
*all the Serenade'06 helpers - great job guys ! you all are simply awesome ...

it was such a tiring day ... but kinda fulfilling ... i kinda love and hate today ... love because the dance was good ; hate because of the "matthew & joash" issue and because i kept forgetting the steps ... the "matthew & joash" issue is a long long story ... something that my brother did and i'm TOTALLY not proud of ... at that point in time , i could not lift up my head ... i feel so ashamed ... so ashamed of my own brother ...

although there's aches and pain all over my body but i will not give up ... i will continue to dance and will continue to improve even more ... worship the Lord with my dance !

~princess madeline kissing you good night at 12:04am~

p.s: i enjoy the time i spend with you , i like it when you do your thing will i sit beside you ... i like it when you turn around to tell me things that you've learnt and always randomly wanna shake my hands ... i love the way you sing to me , love the way you smile as you sing ... i just simply love you , even though you might not know it ... i just wanna say i love the way you are ...


XOXO


today's dance started out quite bad ... but the second half was POWER ! it was awesome awesome awesome ! well done people ! i'm so proud of you guys for all the effort , sweat and tears ! good job ... we all have to work harder k ... must continue to JIA YOU , JIA YOU , JIA YOU ! hee hee ...

so sad that i won't be able to watch Korea fight with swtzerland on saturday 3 am ... cause Hosea says that we must store up our energy for Serenade ... but i pray hard that Korea wins ! hee hee ... Go KOREA Go !
K . O . R . E . A !

gotta go now ... rest well and sweet dreams ... love ya all !

~princess madeline kiss you good night at 12:57pm~

p.s : i love the way our eyes connect , i love the way you smile at me , i love the way you walk beside me . i love the way you run , love the way you joke and yet look so serious ! you're one of the rare people on earth who can make me smile in tough times , who encourages me when i feel down and always make me feel so loved ... if you love me the way i love you , we'll be a matchmake in Heaven ... love you <3


XOXO

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

dance was .... hmmm ... how should i put it ? not too good , i feel ... Hosea sounded quite disappointed ... he wanted to remove the RnB segment lah ... no Hosea pls don't ! i guess we really have to work SUPER hard ... Jia You , Jia You , Jia You ! we can do it ! pls don't give up everyone !

gotta go now rest now ... will put in my 100% for dance later !!! nights ...

~princess madeline kiss you good night at 1:22 am~

p.s: hugs and kisses to my prince charming ! <3


XOXO

Monday, June 19, 2006

hey guys , i just came home from vanessa's place after an exciting and happening night of World Cup matches ... i love KOREA ! it's now 5:42am ... hahah ... got project meeting later at 10 am in school library ... will try to grab as much sleep as possible ... just now when korea play against france , me and hosea were like crazily cheering and all ... jumpin' and shouting ! hahha ... and it was a tie ! 1-1 ... but because Korea is so awesome it's ranked the first in it's group ... yippy ! korea will play against switzerland on thurday/friday ... so i pray that Korea will win ... hee hee ... when the match ended me and hosea started going crazy ... feelin' so happy and all ... cause michelle guna , alvin tay , addy , vanessa and issac wanted france to win ... but in the end , KOREA is the winner !!! hee hee ... it's one of the happiest day of my life ...

p.s: i just wanna be so close to you ... it's not fate that brought us together ... but God have His own purpose ...


XOXO

Sunday, June 18, 2006

it's Father's Day ! Happy Fathers' Day to all daddys ! i love my daddy ... although i didn't say it out but deep inside i love my piggy daddy ... i'm my daddy's princess ... love you daddy ! muacks
<3

hahaha ... have to prepare for later's prayer at mandarin service ... my mandarin is not even good ... hahah ... really have to depend on the Holy Spirit now ... gotta go sleepy heads ... nights !

~princess madeline signing off ~

p.s: hide me now , under your wings ... cover me , within your mighty hands ... when the oceans rise and thunders roars , i will soar with you above the storm ... Father You are king over the flood , i will be still and know You are God ... find rest my soul , in Christ alone , know His power in quietness and trust ...



XOXO

Friday, June 16, 2006

feeling super sick ... feel like puking , dizzy and super super sick ... my whole body is like aching and all ... well , nobody cares , so whatever ... since yesterday actually , the whole headache and dizzy thingy ... how can someone feel lonely when there's people all around you ? well , i do ... suddenly i feel like as if i'm thrown into the wild after living in the nursery for ages ... no one to talk to about my life ... hmmm , perhaps someone but it will end up more like me listening to their problems ... i want to help them but how can i help them without helping myself ?

who bothers about me ? nobody cares ! i'm just a nobody !

p.s: someone please come and save me ... i'm feeling terrible ...


XOXO


recently i've been feeling very bored ... like very lost ... don't know what going on around me , about school ,my family and everything ... because i'm so bored , i started looking through many many blogs ... then i started reflecting ... no matter how much i try , someone will feel left out , someone will be affected by any decision that i make ... i'm not perfect and i'll never be ... i've made many mistakes in life , many things that i can't undo now ... just wanna say a big SORRY !

i've thought about so many things while reading all the blogs ... things such as relationship problems , family problems ... it's so common yet the main events in our life that either hurt us or help us ... i tried to be nice to everyone , but it's impossible to please everyone ... i guess i just have to let things be this way ... it's impossible that everyone on planet earth will like the way i am , the true madeline ...

i'm lost in the midst of crowds ... fear engulfed me , darkness filled my heart ... i need you to pull me out of darkness and into your heaven ... when i think of you , you make my grey sky blue ...

p.s: i need my dose of love story because in reality i lived in solitude and never know what is it like to be loved by someone ...


XOXO


hello everyone , hahah ... i feel so tired to blog today ... hahah ... my arms are aching due to dance yesterday ... the house is so quiet except my mum snoring on the sofa ... lol ... haha ... today i went to church to get money from pastor mark for the dance girls' costume ... then i went to town on my own to meet mishuelle , vaness , shenna , janice ... livia was there too because she was having her break ... haha ... went shopping ... then we went to pennisular to get suspanders for our serenade dance costume ... then regina and i took bus no. 2 to simpang to meet gaius , joel ooi , ben choo , rachael, rayvin , ben leung and aiken ... joel ooi is so nonsensical ... hahah ... but sometimes he can be quite sweet ... lol ... people will usually say "sweet dreams" , he will be that special one who says "candy dreams" ... hahah ... so cute right ? ... hahhaa ... omg ! what am i thinking ? lol ... hhahha ... i must stay faithful to my prince charming ... hahaha ...

gotta go now ... hee hee ... CANDY DREAMS !

p.s : every princess have a knight ... and i want you to be mine ... i want to spend the rest of my life with you , i want to watch the sunrise with you . i don't wanna let go of your hand ... hold me tight in your arms i pray ...


XOXO

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

MY MUM IS SUCH A MONSTER ! she's so demanding lah .... argh !!! i was just eating my lunch in the living room and she asked me to go up her room and help her tie her hair ... like what crap , "don't you have your own hands" ... then if i comb her curls away , she will scold me ... if i tie too tight , she scold ... too loose , she scold ... i'm so irritated by her lah ... if she's so goo at it , why even ask me ... and where got daughter help her mother tie her hair one ... since young , she never help me tie my hair before ... so dumb right ?

a few nights ago , she even asked me to help her sms her friends with her hp... because her instruction was not clear , i made a small mistake in the sms and she scolded me lah ... what the hell lah ... then she made me send the second sms to her friend ... and because i forget how to spell voucher , she scolded me lah ... i'm really really irritated by her ... feel like killing her , you know ?

she's always asking me to do this and do that ... like as if i'm her slave ... this is what she'll usually say : " madeline , go teach marcus !" , "madeline, go bathe for malcolm !" , "madeline, help me sms !" , "madeline, go wash the plates !" .... always "madeline!madeline!madeline!" ...
SO IRRITATING LAH !!! she such a lazy bum ... always sit in front of the tv and ask me to do this and do that... wah lao ! i also want to rest and watch tv right ? such an idiot !!!

i think i better stop thinking about her otherwise i will have high blood pressure ! hahaha ... now i'm waiting to go down to church for meeting ... will continue to blog after i come back !

BACK !!! it's almost 2 am now ... just finish bathing and all ... hahah ... dance was so awesome yet crazy .. we're improving !!! well done girls !!! you guys are awesome ! we must continue to work hard ya ? jia you , jia you , jia you ! haha ... just so tired now ... in about 6-7 hours time , i have to be in school to meet my group members to discuss about our project ! so tired but must JIA YOU ! hahah

feeling kinda sleepy now ... knock out in 3 , 2 , 1 ....*snore*

p.s: i like it when you're near me ... i like it when you smile at me ... i like it when you encourage me ... i like it when you talk to me ... i like you but i hope you like me too ... if we are truely meant to be , i'll be the most fortunate girl on earth to have you by my side ... i don't understand what your eyes are trying to say , i don't understand how you feel about me ... let me know if you love me so , because i just wanna tell you , "i love you , my prince , my one and only" ...


XOXO


hello everybody ! hahah ... today is such a lazy day ! i woke up at about 12 noon ... haha ... slept at around 3 am last night ! i slack around at home ... went online and then went to church for dance practice ... we dance till about 10 pm then we went to the office to look at some dance video by dance groups from City Harvest and from USA ... they are like really really good ... oh , we also finalise our song for the girls hip-hop ... it's quite cool ... hahah ...

now it's 12:48 am in the morning , and i realise that the timing on my blog is very different ... lol ... it always shows a morning time when it's actually like 1 am in the morning ... hahah ... wierd ! oh , i think thursday is a shopping day cause we need to get our costume for Serenade in time for our full dress rehersal on sunday ... i need money to buy clothes ... and my parents are kinda tight on cash ... i don't want to ask money from them ... but if i don't ask , where am i suppose to get the money from ??? i hate the feeling of being poor ... totally hate it ... i also don't wanna ask from my granny ... i feel quite bad ... sighs ... I NEED MONEY !!! it's like so hard to save money , unless i don't eat lah ... but it's quite imposible cause i'm usually hungry in the afternoon ... sighs ... as usual , i will start to compare myself with others ... like why am i so poor and they are like so filthy rich and stuff ... i just hate the feeling ...

i pray that God will provide ... like the way He provided for my Bangkok trip with Coral , Mishuelle and Michelle Lam... He even bless me with a i-pod video ... so i pray that this time round , He will continue to provide ...

gotta go now ,have some admin stuff to do for dance ...bye bye


*when all else fades my soul will dance with You , where the love last FOREVER !


XOXO

Monday, June 12, 2006

hahah ... i've got virus in my laptop yesterday night ! hahah ... but thank God for Marcus Goh , he offered to help me remove the stupid virus from my laptop ... Despite feeling tired after school , he still came to church and help me ...
*shout out to Marcus Goh : thank you so so much*

yesterday was major crazy ! hahah ... the L.A Unit meeting is madness ... loads of mis-communication ... worst till after our meeting , we haven't even eaten our lunch and we all are super hungry and we got work to do after that ... so we got no time to eat and stuff , everyone is so so grumpy ... then we had dance ! then we went to studio ... the worst worst event of sunday came after we had dance in studio ... as we were at the bus stop outside church waiting for the bus to come , we witness a taxi and motorcycle accident ! but this time round i was calm and composed ... unlike the first time , i was in shock ... hahah ... i went up to look at the lady who flew out from the motorcycle , over the taxi and unto the floor ... the lady injured her leg as she landed on her ankle and toes ... she's also in shock but i could not raise her leg to stop her shock because her leg is injured ... her boyfriend , who is the cyclist was seriously injured ... he injured his back and legs ... not sure about the neck but he's in great pain ... the police soon came to the scene and the ambulance too ... actually bertrand and me went up to the lady to ask if we could pray for her but because she's in shock and she's worried about her boyfriend , she just stare blankly at us ... but deep in all our hearts , we were praying for the 2 of them ...

after that , bertrand , regina and me went to Sempang for supper ... Hosea could not join us as he had to lock up the church after rach and the rest finish recording ... after supper , i went home with berty by cab ... it was about midnight already ...then i went online then i got the virus ... hahah ... so unlucky ... sunday was such a bad day huh ?

but maybe not that bad after all ... because my laptop is down ... God sent marcus to help me and God also gave me 2 really powerful revelations ... one for L.A Unit and one for my YA cell group ... when God gave me the revelation , i wasn't even praying or doing my QT ... i was just thinking then suddenly God implanted the revelations into my head ... and it's so so awesome ! i'm so excited and i can't wait to share it with the rest ! i believe that God will give us more visions , more dreams , more spiritual giftings as well ... but we all have to work hard for it ...

i'm just so so excited for God to move so mightily !!! i also decided to fast from fizzy drinks like coke and pepsi ... because i believe what Shaun said " when the precious move , God moves" ... fizzy drinks are my fav. and my MUST HAVE , but God's work is more important ... i'm willing to give up drinking fizzy drinks for God to move ... i'm also fasting a meal daily for dance and serenade ! continue to stay prayerful and stay in-tune with God and the Holy Spirit ...*hugs*

~lost in You alone , is where i wanna be to hear Your voice... softly in my ears , You whisper words to me that i am Yours...can't live a day without your presence , closer to You i wanna be !


XOXO

Sunday, June 11, 2006

hello everybody ! today is such an AWESOME day ! YA service was AMAZING ! all the sharing for Serenade and stuff ... i'm so excited ! everyone have to be geared up for a revolution ! i also had a vision for Serenade ... it's so cool ! LOL ... we had pizza for dinner ! yummy! oh , Hosea also told me that he changed the dance steps for the RnB routine ... gosh ! *stress* ... and next week , got lots of things to do for admin cause need to take note what segment all of them are performing ... haha ... i will work hard ! JIA YOU !!! *smiles*

oh ... tomorrow also have L.A Unit Board meeting ... lol ... i didn't even know when did i enter the comm ... lol ... hahah ... but i'll also JIA YOU ! i'm happy to serve the Lord in all my ministries ... hee hee ... Yay ! there's C.E Class tomorrow also ... coolness !!!

i'll blog again soon ! see ya ... *hugs*


XOXO

Friday, June 09, 2006

hahah ... yippy ! my test are like finally over ! hahah ... came home super early ... hahah ... i soent so much time online watching music videos and doing personality test ... hahah ... and there's this funny thing , it was that i'm "hopelessly romantic" ... hahha ... and it also says that my personality is very attractive therefore i should be attached already ... lol ... like what "atrractive" ? no one is attracted to me lah ... no comments ... but it's fun doing all these tests ... hahah ....

i've decided not to pick the church camp peeps ... cause they will be too tired to entertain me ... and even if i go down to church , it will be quite retarded cause i will just go down to say "hi" and come home ... i decided to stay home ... that's only part of why i decided not to go , there's a part2 to it ... but i won't say it ...

my mum is such a slave driver lah ... she made me mark my brother , Marcus' assessment books lah ... i wanted to relax and watch tv but she forced me to do the marking lah .. what the hell ... she can relax herself , others can't ... so selfish lah ... idiot ! i don't understand why people like to irritate me today ... don't know why ... argh !

hahaha ... my only motivation = "my rewards will be in Heaven"
~signing off~


p.s: i'm so sick of love songs... reality never seem to be as beautiful as my fantasy...
i'm just the girl who smiles at you , a girl who seem so strong on the outside but weak on the inside , a girl who is lonely , a girl who is broken , a girl who need a shoulder to cry on , a girl who is abandoned , a girl who lives alone in this crazy world ... come and save me please ...


XOXO


i was so angry yesterday cause i could not sign in to my blog ... lol ... yesterday i went o Joseph's place with regina ... we thought that joel ooi and friends would go over to Joseph's place like at 10 plus ... end up at 12 midnight , they are still not there so regina and me left and went home ... hahah ... i just realise that i've been going to TM for the whole of this week ... lol ... TM is like now so boring and not appealing to me lah ...

i need to go shopping lah ... i also have to get a suit for my presentation ... but my stupid mother ... she's so selfish lah ... only go shopping for her own clothes and buy accessories ... stupid idiot ! spend all the money on herself ... she's such a *toot* lah ... argh ... so irritating !!! if only i'm rich lah ... oh , my dad says that he's gonna change the car into a smaller car and we're gonna move house into a 4 room flat ... like what the hell ... 7 people in a 4 room flat ! that's like so small lah ... and everyone is growing up , we need our own room lah ... like what the hack ! i'm so so angry now ... the car also have to change ... imagine 7 people in a small car lah ... like what the hack right ? my pocket money is like so little , no extra allowance apart from the basic $50 every week ... and for God sake , there's no way of saving money in poly lah ... everything is like so expensive ... the food are not as cheap as secondary school lah ...

oh , i really hate my life ... if we're that "poor" , why have so many kids ? and have like trouble raising them all ? it's like dumb , you know ... i don't think my parents can afford to let me go Uni in the future lah .. i have3 younger brothers who are like schooling and spending a lot of money ... what the crap ... if my parents are as rich as Jia Yi's parents , i'll be in Australia by now lah ... don't have to suffer ... even if i study in s'pore , i won't face such problems like no money to eat dinner ... i hate it ! argh ... this motivates me to be a good mum , so that my children won't have to suffer what i gone through ... if i can't afford to have like 4 kids , i just stick with like 1 or 2 lah ... show off ah ? have like 4 ??? what the hell man ... and the oldest have to sacrifice ! so stupid lah ... like totally hate my mum now lah ... she change from BAD to WORST ! such a *toot* ...

today the dance team went for a "short" jog ... i'm so tired lah ... hahah ... oh and i made friend with regina's school mate , he's name is taufiq ... he's such a funny boy ... lol ... by the way , i'm like so dead for RHT test lah ... i don't even understand the freaking subject ... it only makes me feel like sleeping ... lol ... oh , the church camp people are coming back tomorrow evening ... i wonder should i go and welcome them back ... lol ...

hahah ... better go sleep early otherwise i'll get brain-block again ...


p.s: i love the way you smile when your teeth sparkles and your eyes shines ... it warms my heart and put a smile on my face ... i like you , but will you like me too ? although i'm not pretty , not smart , not cute , not gorgeous , not slim , not good enough ... but one thing for a fact is that i love you ~


XOXO

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

today is really fun ... hahah ... besides the studying Organizational Behaviour part ! hahah ... a group of the "left behind" people from church campwent to Marina South for dinner ! it's so fun ! hahah ... about 11 of us was there ! Michael was there too ! i was so shock to see him ... he look so different ... the whole emo hairstyle thing ... haha ... the best part , he still remembers me .. like oh my gosh ! hahah ... regina told me that michael is quite a good catch cause he's really sweet , good looking , hot body and stuff ... hahah ... but one bad thing ! he's one yr younger ! sighs ... why are the cute boys younger than me ? lol ... one of my principles :" don't date younger guys" ... you know why ? i've got 3 younger brothers . if my boyfriend is younger than me, i'll treat him like my brother instead of my boyfriend . and it's not fair to him what . and i need to feel secured , so younger guys ... hmmm ... fun but inmature ... lol ... after eating , we went to the arcade ... aiken's para para skills is amazing lah ... sean lee too ... hahah ... all the hidden talents ... then we also played daytona ... fun ! hee hee ... then we went to tampines to slack (at 11pm) ... then some malay uncle was like swearing at us lah ... we didn't even do anything wrong and he's like cursing and all in malay ... i'm not a racist but the uncle is really wierd ...

i have OB test tomorrow yet i'm out having fun ... lol ... i bet my classmates will be like mugging at home or in a library or something lah ... they are like so hardworking ... and i'm like the slacker ! they all are like born smart or something but i'm the type that needs to work super hard to score well ... sighs !

oh , rayvin told me and regina that we'll be training on thursday for dance . and guess what , he wanted kayaking ... i don't mind but regina ... nevermind ... then he suggested RUNNING ! omg , it's like the most hated word ! RUNNING !!! argh ... i'm willing to do anything besides running ... sob sob ... i've got no stamina ... i can only sprint , i can't run like long distance lah ... i'll just die !

gotta go now ... *snore snore*

suddenly i felt inspired to write this ! ENJOY and give me some comments ya ?

* i wonder if the knight in shining amour is my prince charming. i wonder will he ever be mine . He's the man that all women wants to have but i wonder who he will choose to be his princess . Every smile from him sets my heart ablaze , hoping he will remember my face . I am just a pauper who tries to blend in with the popular girls . "how can a pauper be with a prince?", they said. with tears in my eyes i ran away . i stood at the pier alone until he came with a rose . he smiled at me as he walk closer . using his perfectly made hands to brush away my tears and gentley kiss me on the cheek . no words was said but bonds were made . the relationship between the prince and the pauper did not end there but new chapters of amazing stories were about to be written ...


XOXO

Monday, June 05, 2006

HOW GREAT THOU ART !!!
WOW !!! Global day of prayer is just so POWER !!! awesome awesome awesome !!! now i still feel kinda awake , just that my legs are aching , neck and arms are aching ... LoL .. but it's truely AMAZING to see o many christian coming together just to serve , worship and prayer ... from about 11 am , our youths headed down to Kallang Stadium ... we were the first youth group to arrive ... we had lunch and then started with the loading and unloading of 650 cartons of mineral water ... it's seriously crazy ... trolley after trolley of cartons , guys and girls forming human chain(unsuccessful) to pass carton of mineral water over to the other side of the stadium ... from North gate to west gate ... it's seriously crazy !!! but we did it !!! yay ! after that flag bearers went to meet our groups and yup we met new christians friends ... although i can't remember their names but i know that they have a BIG heart to serve the Lord and that's something i should learn from them ... the whole flaf practice is so so tiring ... run and run and run ... faithe is so sick of running lah ... but overall , it went WELL and i'm so proud of everyone ! even those who help with the packing of 35,000 goody packs ... they did an AWESOME job !

oh , church camp is only a few hours later ... so sad that i'm not going ... but nevermind i will be obedient and study for my tests ... oh talking about tests , studying for econs on saturady was a killer ! study for 5 hours straight ! almost died !!! hahah ... YA was cool ! the whole Young Adults DNA thingy !!! good good !!! livia went on a holiday so i lead cell on saturday ... it was interesting ... very very different from my pervious cell but i will learn along the way and grow ...

i should stop soon and sleep early cause ECONS paper starts at 11am so i have to be in school earlier and study and stuff ... so yup ... good night !!!*hugs*

*stand up for Jesus !!!


XOXO

Friday, June 02, 2006

yawn... hahha ... hello everyone ! i feel super tired today ... haha ... today is a very unique day cause me and ah boon "fight" AGAIN !!! LOL ... ah boon is so funny lah ... "agi agi, fight fight" ... hahah ... so like full house , where the leading actor and actress always fight ... haha .. but i guess will go for someone that's more ... hmmm ... unlike me type of girl lah ... like who likes me lah ? hahah ... i'm still waiting for my prince to come ... hahah ... i wonder who can it be ... hee hee ... today's APEL lesson , Ms Goh ask us a question "in 5 yrs time , what will you be doing?" ... in my mind i thought about it ... hmmm ... perhaps married ! hahaha ... in 5 yrs i will be 23 yrs old ... hmmm ... hahaha ... not too early to get married right ? haha ... i want to get married by latest 27 yrs old ... cause i want a baby before 30 ... lol ... haha, am i thinking too far ? but seriously i don't really know what i really want in life besides getting married , have a family , support my husband ... and my aim is to have my own Children Playground like BASC ... i think it's so fun if i work at BASC and my husband is a pastor ... ahahahah ... how lovely can that be lah ... i hope my prince can come soon ... or at least let me know that he'll be my husband ... hahah ... lol ...

for the pass 2 days , i have been memorising the title of the books in the bible ... got CE quiz on sunday and i took up the challenge to be able to remember all the titles of the books in the Bible ... muahahah ... i'm half way there already ... muahaha ... i know i can do it ! with God's strength and wisdon , nothing is impossible ! i'm so excited for Sereade ! about 6 friends have confirm with me to come for Serenade already ... another 4 have yet to confirm ... i hope that they can ALL come ... to those who are coming , "come with an open heart and have fun" ... while you guys think of whether to come for Serenade , i will continue to work hard on my dance so that i can be at my best ...

tomorrow and sunday will be 2 long days ... i'll be going down to church to study Econs ... so sad lah ... when the rest of s'pore is having their holidays , i'm studying ... sob sob ... then there's YA at 7.30pm ... and sunday is Global Day of Prayer ! it's an event where christians from all the countries come together at the SAME time dispite the different in time zone to come and pray for the world and also prayer for the individual countries ... i will be going as a flagbearer ... the person who will be holiding the country's flag ... coolness ! IT'S REALLY GONNA BE SO AWESOME ! i'm s happy to know that God's people are coming together and getting ready for God to move so mightily in our lives ...

*Everlasting love , amazing grace


XOXO