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Madeline Xiong (Maddy)
Kuma Miyuki
Tower of Strength
Born on 21/12/1988
Graduated from TP HTM
Currently working at Citadines Mt Sophia
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Monday, March 31, 2008

i just wanna breathe and chill but reality never allow that



i wanna do so many things but there's no time or opportunity... HOWEVER, God is slowly opening doors...

helping Joel Ooi with The Cafe is great joy and also an avenue for me to put what i learn in school to good use, to raise enough money for our building fund etc...

having the job as a teacher in the student care allowed me to show God's love to many and to also exercise compassion... which is really awesome...

even though it's fun, there are also times when it's tiring... i didn't go for dance on sunday because i'm really tired... even though i love dance and want to learn new stuff but i'm really tired...

i just ask for strength now... it's really tiring... i hope and pray that the new semester will be light... or else, maddy will KO super fast...


alrighty, here are some overdues pictures... enjoy

Easter performance in church... this part is when my boy, Ian jumps super high
Then, YING CHUAN's baptism...

this is him, Huang Ying Chuan before the baptism...
and after the baptism, he is......
.
.
.
Albert Shikano
hur hur...
Then we have the new couple... Chewy and Sze Jinn
awwww, so sweeeeeeet



Then we have Gaius...
who pretends to be L from death note... super funny


XOXO


Sunday, March 30, 2008

i want to sing,
until i am lost in Your love,
till i am found in Your presence,
worshipping before your throne.

filled with Your spirit,
entering into your flow,
how precious these moments,
Lord i want You to know.

it's You,
You who had warmed my heart,
taken me into Your arms,
comforted me like a friend.
Your love,
surrounded me from the start,
i never want to be apart,
from Your ever again


XOXO


Saturday, March 29, 2008

my emo hair makes me emo... not



i have been battling my own thoughts, fighting my own feelings, and killing my own flesh... it's really painful, to the state of numbness and emptiness... 90% of me wants love from human beings... but that lil' bit, that lil' 10%, struggles with the desperation to get God's attention...

i can't even shed a tear which really cause some emotional constipation...


but no matter what, i will hang on tight


i love doggies, but i can't have one cause mummy is scared of them =(


XOXO


Thursday, March 27, 2008

My cookie emotions: Happy?


hello everyone =)

just returned from a tiring day at work... today i marked a lot of test papers... like 20 plus Primary 2 english and maths test papers and about 20 plus Primary 4 english papers... my hands and eyes are so tired trying to read and correct their answers... even my poor pilot red pen is experiencing a pre-death death...

after work, i headed down to my new cell girls' home... They are 2 china students who are studying Hotel Management in Singapore, Cassandra and Sanny... i spend almost 4 hours talking to them... i really had fun...

i finally left their place around 10 plus and head home for dinner... now it's 11:20pm and i just finish eating... i think i will rest for a while before doing QT and then sleep...


p.s:
Lord, You know me more than i know myself.
Lord, i ask that You will meet my needs and even my wants.
But ultimately, let Your will be done
you guys look good together, i give you my blessings


XOXO


Wednesday, March 26, 2008

dressing up my wounded soul

in this insane and cold world, just let me find a corner to keep warm and sane...
i don't know how to describe how i feel...
please don't leave me alone, it won't help...
i may seem strong but i'm not...
you just didn't see the tears i cried behind your back...
p.s: it's really mountain momma


XOXO


Monday, March 24, 2008

Reggae dreams



hello hello, it's been awhile...

i have to so much to thank God for... for 2 new girls whom He have brought into my life... for helping me through dance... for giving me man's favour at work with the pantry aunty and the supervisor...

work was fun... the kiddos start to love and accept me more now... especially those lil' boys... hur hur... somehow i attract boys... my lil' darling boys...

even though i can't go for reggae class at O School due to some reasons... but i really hope that i can get a chance to improve my skills in the future...

until now, i don't know where God wants me to go and what He wants me to do... so i'm just like walking and living by faith... i don't know where to go for internship and which company to join after graduation because it will affect my ministry and even potential leadership roles...

it's not that i will backslide and leave church but if i were to become an airstewardess, i will have to give up services and ministries and also my friends... my hommies...

oh well, i will just have to wait and listen to what God have to say then...

anyways, i'm going JB with my hommies tomorrow... so exciting lah... watch out for more pictures =)




p.s: hey @@@&$, i think it's really time for me to let you go =)


XOXO


Thursday, March 20, 2008

uncovering the mystery behind Cinderella


i was watching a korean drama and it made me think about cinderella for a while... if you never watch Cinderella in your entire life, i'm gonna summarised it so that you can understand the story and find out the mystery...

here we go:
it starts with Cinderella being treated as a slave by her stepmother...

then somehow, she got a fairy godmother who help her get to a royal ball...

and so she transformed from rags to gown, with her carriage etc etc

and of course she get to meet the prince and dance with him...

then she realise that it's 12 midnight and she needs to be home before the magic disappears...

and while rushing, she dropped her glass slipper which later became the object used by the prince to locate his true love...

then they got married and lived happily ever after...


so now you understand the disney version of the story, i'm gonna tell you the "mystery"... Cinderella's slipper drop/slip out because? IT'S TOO BIG... (rmb this)

and the prince went around the whole country from house to house to search for the girl who can fit the glass slipper nicely...

then he found "his true love" and marries her... (note that it's the girl who fit the slipper nicely!)...

can you see the irony yet??? the girl who dropped the slipper have a feet smaller than her shoes... while the girl who marries the prince manage to fit into it nicely... which means the girl who drop the slipper should not be the girl who marries the prince... because they have 2 different shoe size... which means the prince didn't marry his true love...

now you see where i'm coming from now???


if you really love a person, you will AT LEAST remember how he/she looks like right? i mean seriously... but that dumb prince don't even remember her (cinderella) after holding her and dancing with her and walking to the garden with her... spending so much time together yet the prince can forget how cinderella looks like...

but using something like a slipper to locate a person... it's as good as taking her gown from house to house to get everyone who went to the ball to try it on...

take for example: if cinderella is a (shoe)size 5, do you know how many million people have the same size?


it's so wierd isn't it??? i find it so shocking... no one actually thought of it huh... everyone just "aww" and "woohhh" at the sweet fact that the dumb prince is actually looking for his true love but we didn't realise that should there be a "fake", what will happen to the poor cinderella...

she will be left alone, still waiting for the prince who danced with her and talk to her... while he marries off with someone whom he thinks is his true love...

wierd huh?

anyways, i'm going to bed already... before i get all caught up with thinking about this...


XOXO



My Wierd (super RANDOM) Dream

my dream last night is seriously random and "out of planet earth"... let me tell you guys the dream, i will not go into details for certain parts... here we go:

It started with me and some CFC peeps... we were running at somewhere near a construction place so there's loads of metal barriers... we seem to be like running away from someone or a group of people... those people are definately not bad or dangerous people because we were running and laughing and smiling...

then we finally reached a huge skatepark... then we just all collapse on the floor and hangout...

then the scene changed to church... i was there and was on the phone with someone (i don't know who)... then i walked into a room full of adults, they seem to be having lessons and i was describing to the person on the phone who is in the class...

then i walked to the porch and called my dad... he said that he will pick me up in about 10 mins so i decided to take a walk near church... so i walked out of the gate and then the scene changed...

all i know was that i received an sms from sarah aponhso (spelling error), May's close friend, someone whom i NEVER talk to... that explains why i don't know how to spell her name... anyways, yes, an sms from her...

it's an invitation to a special celebrity launch of a pub/lounge... and so i went...

i vaguely remember that it's somewhere near Vivo City.. and i met Sarah at the entrance of the lounge in a black tube dress and heels with my hair all done up (woohoo)... and sarah was there in a black sexy spaghetti dress with heels and her hair let down...

then we waited at the entrance... then after a while, we saw Utt (the MTV VJ)... and he walked towards us... he is one of the people that we're waiting for... then a eurasian guy came and then last a group of bimbos...

then we entered the lounge... Utt managed to help us get VIP seats inside and so we went in... i was sitting between sarah and the eurasian guy... Utt was sitting at my extreme left beside sarah... and opposite us were the bimbos... we drank and chilled out... then sarah got extremely HIGH and then she got up and started kissing the eurasian guy who is beside me... i got a shock (obviously right?) then me and Utt gave each other the wierd look...

then i had to drag sarah to the toilet to wash up and freshen up... then out of nowhere, my parents appeared... then they wanted to drive me and sarah home...

=the end=


wierd right??? first, i don't know sarah that well... and even if i were to go out with her, coral, may and mishuelle should be there too... secondly, why Utt??? like so random one lor... thirdly, why eurasian guy and bimbo club??? so wierd... i don't even know them...

that dream is really bizzare...

and thanks to that dream, i woke up late and was late for work... then when i reach work, i saw a whole bunch of Millenia Institute (MI) student volunteers playing with the kids... i was like "eh"... MI was my first 3 months school... and seeing that uniform reminded me of the old times...

anyways, work is again hectic and busy and tiring... but thank God it's Good Friday tomorrow and so there is no work...



still not at my best... struggling... still need loads of love...
Here are some pictures:
some wierd nuts that the pantry aunty gave... but it's really yummy
that's Jun Jie with the nut...
that's us eating it
my lil' helper, Hilman
some of the drawings that i did
this is the storybook drawing...


XOXO


Wednesday, March 19, 2008

upside down, inside out



i need something, i need someone...
i'm at my lowest

the sudden fear for saturday...
feel like as if i have nothing and i am nothing...

bleeding on the inside, please come and give me a hug...
i really need it badly


XOXO



KNOCK OUT!!!!
*faints*


like yesterday, i woke up at 6am to go to work... reach centre 1 at 7 plus (was too early) and all i saw was the pantry aunty and about 9 kids... i was like "eh"... where are the teachers, man...

the teachers only arrive at 9am... so i had to take care of them ALONE for 1 whole hour... they had their breakfast, watch a lil' tv and then send them into the classroom...

then i gave them their spelling tests and stuff... then they made me draw for them AGAIN... wah, like as if i'm a art teacher... i draw and draw until i'm so tired... at first all the boys came and bugged me to help them draw their fav. cartoon character...

then i was like "wow, the girls are so nice... they didn't approach me for drawings"... then, THE GIRLS CAME... they pass me a whole storybook and ask me to help them draw the coverpage of their fav. book...

i almost died... but oh well, i will use my lil' talent in drawing to bless those children... no adults or grown up will appreciate my drawing, so let those kiddos who are so amazed at my drawings admire it then...

anyways, remember yesterday i talked about a crying class monitress? anyways, i found out the reason why she cries... because her dad sends her to the centre in the morning and she really love her dad a lot... everytime when her dad puts her at the centre and go to work, she will cry...

and so today i get to talk to her about it cause i was the one who opened the door for her... she cried as usual but i manage to talk her through... i'm glad =)

the other things are the same as yesterday... anyways, i'm gonna go watch some videos before reading the bible and going to bed... bye~


p.s: i'm sick of my hair style... boring


XOXO


Tuesday, March 18, 2008


setting sun
i'm so tired............ *drown into my bed*
walk with me through my day =)
0600 Wake up & Bathe
0700 Leave house
0800 Start work
side note: when i reach work, the lower primary kiddos are resting with a super satanic chanting music in the background... seriously demonic...
0900 Breakfast @ Pantry
side note: i got mistaken as a pantry aunty
-_-'''
0930 Class time
side note: i was the teacher for the primary 1 and 2 class... super drama... there's a rebelious boy who tore the library book, a crying class monitress and a boy who speaks with super good english...
1200 Bring the kiddos to wait for their school bus/walk them to school
1215 My lunch time (FINALLY!)
1300 Upper primary kiddos returns
1400 Class time
1500 Bingo game time
1515 Make milo and prepare wafer for tea break
1530 Tea break
side note: after tea, i had to rush to centre 2...
1535 Class time for P3, P5, P6
1630 Start marking the worksheets
side note: man, it's maths... i almost died marking it... try doing P3, P5 and P6 exam papers in a row...
1800 Suppose to end work but stay on to finish marking
even when i reach home, i need to teach malcolm CHINESE... wah lau... really feel like shouting at him, so distracted... sigh...
i'm the tired one and yet they get to throw tantrum while i have to suck it all up...
(i will still smile)


XOXO


Monday, March 17, 2008

tiring day~


work is draining... but i'm still loving the kids more and more... i had so much things to do at work today... gotta take care of the lower primary until it's time for school, then go to school and pick the upper primary back to the centre, then make sure they do their work, then give them centre work, then mark, then go through with them...

and mind you... those kids are from P3, P4, P5 and P6... they are all different level... can seriously die from brain exhustion... hur hur

my lunch is so healthy today... ate vege porridge... it's super duper healthy... i'm so proud of myself...

work starts at 8am tomorrow cause Centre 1 needs help... so i need to go to work early... so work is gonna be 8am-6pm... *faints*


XOXO


Sunday, March 16, 2008

God had placed many talents into the lives of His creation...


many people fail to see what they truely have,
but focused so much on the "lack" and missing pieces...

i will use that little talent that God have given me so that i can glorify God and tell the world that God is a loving God who saves...

i want to be a dancing, singing and loving evangelist and missionary...


today i'm gonna share with you guys a video... watch and reflect... looking into yourself and find that talent that God have placed in you... whether big or small, it's a talent... USE IT!



XOXO



the very people who sang "Hosanna, Hosanna" are the ones who shouted "cruxify him"



as i worship and sang "Hosanna", God brought me from a scene where people are singing "Hosanna, Hosanna to the son of David" to a scene on the cross... when i saw my savior hanging on the cross, my heart broke...

the meaning of Hosanna in hebrew means "saved"... Hosanna to me no longers become a ritual but truely proclaiming that "He, my God saves"... He cared so much for people, loved those who hated him and decided to obey even to the stage of giving up himself as a perfect sacrifice for mankind...

till today, many refused Him, many rejected Him... but only when you see yourself at Calvary 2000 years ago when Jesus bleed for you, you will fully believe that this man... more than a teacher, more than a prophet, more than a wise man could actually be your friend...

i cried not because of situations but in adoration of God and just so overwhelmed by the fact that there is someone in this world who is willing to give up His life for me... and He is my friend, Jesus Christ...



XOXO


Saturday, March 15, 2008

My picture memory of 14/3/08



went swimming with the Centre 2 kiddos...
the girls playing in the water
the "naughty boy" eugene, whom i'm trying to impact...
these girls wanted to stand on the float... LOL
the Primary 2 boys
Hui Hui, one of my fav. girl... she tries to learn how to swim on that day...
Xue Jing having fun
xue jing and yu xuan, a love hate friendship
another picture of the girls
my baby, Jing Tong
a picture after the swim... the kiddos are all tired
the Primary 2 girls
Wei Lie, my lil' partner who will "lead" me... he's super funny
somemore Primary 2 girls...
on our way back to the centre...
this is a picture of a neighbourhood playground with clothes left on the bars to dry... super wierd, i tell you...
after a few hours in the sun, i went for lunch then head down to Centre 1 for the Part 2 of my work...
that's me and Equeen, one of the Primary 5 girls...
The Pokemon/Gameboy corner...
the 2 boys who totally ignored me and used their handphones...
This is Amos, my personal fav.
he is super cute... attention seeking but it was due to a bad family background... i love him lah...
Then after working and feeling drained... i went home to celebrate Malcolm's birthday...
This picture is taken in the morning when Malcolm just woke up... hur hur
Malcolm and his yummy HANS birthday cake...
Marcus, Malcolm and Daddy
that's them plus mummy
me, malcolm and marcus
Malcolm can't wait to open his present...
then he put it on... he's crazy about being a soldier... like many boys who dream to be policeman, fireman, soldiers and spies... hur hur


XOXO