Tuesday, July 31, 2007
CARE BEAR... show me some lovei love my stuff toy... kinda ease my headache a lil' and help me fall asleep =)
i drift in and out of sleep in the afternoon... feel slightly better... but feel super weak and the stupid headache... sigh
anyways, i went for cell... at winnie's house... it was very draining to stay awake because the medicine causes drowsiness...
sorry Bel, if you think that i'm not paying attention during cell...
anyways, Winnie's dog loves me all... super funny... and Sparky being a male dog have his... ermmm... HIGH moments... gosh... it was super funny... anyone watch CLICK and you know what the dog did in the movie? yea, Mr Sparky showed me his HIGH moment... lol
anyways, i will have to go to bed early cause i got school and my stupid project "meeting" and then L.A prayer and stuff...
my dear Mr Sparky and his "friend"...XOXO
Your word speaks louder than this
didn't go to school today... SICK...
this morning, Tet Tet, this girl from Karens called me... i was like so so happy to hear her voice... now she's in the States with her sister... gosh, i miss them so so much... i wanna see all of them again...
so yup, i woke up and then went to the doctor... doctor say that it's stress tension... and he say that if after medication or it becomes worst have to go to A&E immediately...
oh well... hahah... he's super funny lah... cause he say that i must balance my life and stuff because in the Hospitality industry it can be very stressful... then i laugh and say "like that you will see me more often"... then he was like "no lah, no lah... must take care"
after that i went to buy breakfast then quickly walk home before i faint or anything... talk to Bel on the phone...
now, i'm gonna go take my medicine and then sleep =D
bye bye for now
didn't go to school today... SICK...
this morning, Tet Tet, this girl from Karens called me... i was like so so happy to hear her voice... now she's in the States with her sister... gosh, i miss them so so much... i wanna see all of them again...
so yup, i woke up and then went to the doctor... doctor say that it's stress tension... and he say that if after medication or it becomes worst have to go to A&E immediately...
oh well... hahah... he's super funny lah... cause he say that i must balance my life and stuff because in the Hospitality industry it can be very stressful... then i laugh and say "like that you will see me more often"... then he was like "no lah, no lah... must take care"
after that i went to buy breakfast then quickly walk home before i faint or anything... talk to Bel on the phone...
now, i'm gonna go take my medicine and then sleep =D
bye bye for now
XOXO
Monday, July 30, 2007
dancing in the moonlight
i totally love the song =)
hee
anyways, there's something wrong with my Internet Explorer... i can't see the posts that i posted today... but when i use Morzilla, it appeared... so wierd
anyways, i love ELVIN NG... *drools*
i totally love the song =)
hee
anyways, there's something wrong with my Internet Explorer... i can't see the posts that i posted today... but when i use Morzilla, it appeared... so wierd
anyways, i love ELVIN NG... *drools*
XOXO
=D
XOXO
MOCHA DIDN'T HELP... tsk
i was so tired... even coffee didn't help... if you know me well enough, a lil' caffine can keep me awake for 2 days straight... but now... NAH
all thanks to school... last night i was so stressed because of my SSM duty and proficiency test... i'm so scared and stressed... ahhhh!!!
*scream at the top of my lungs*
did i mention that i saw my lecturer, Mr Chia at PS yesterday? he recognise me and then wave and wave at me... then i was like "oh man"... then i gave the =D smile... hahahah
and today saw him at the cateen with another lecturer and he was like wave wave again...
it's good that i'm finding more and more favour in the eyes of my lecturers... they start to notice that i'm different from my peers and that i have more potential... i definately wanna be groomed by them cause they have been in the trade for so long... and how awesome can that be?
=D
anyways, i didn't get to sleep much because i was thinking about SSM... somehow manage to kinda take a "nap"... then woke up for school... and because of the lack of sleep, i had super bad headache...
fasting was tough today... i don't know why but i kinda had fever when i was in school... super tired, sick, gastric-ky... *faints*
but i never stop praying... anyways, enough of me talking about how weak i am... i manage to share with my friend about God... although he was like -_-''' but i believe that slowly he will be more open...
went straight home after accounting... so here am i =D
i'm just so excited for my future... like with all my lecturers and stuff... i pray that i will be given so much opportunities to shine...
i know that God's plans for me is so BIG... kinda scares me... because i don't know if i can "make it"... but i believe that God knows me inside out and He knows my strengths and weaknesses... so i will trust Him with my everything...
i'm gonna stay close to God and make sure that i do not MISS THE MARK that God have intended for me...
i know that this season is not a relationship season... but one for me to stay close to Him... to grow and be someone of influence in CFC... maybe a leader or comm or something... and to shine in school and focus on my studies and family...
so year 2007 FOCUS:
~ministries
~school/studies
~family
although it's a bit late to set FOCUS lah... but it's better than nothing =)
maybe will blog again tonight =)
XOXO
Sunday, July 29, 2007
I need YOUR love, oh LORD...
i'm just so hungry and desperate for God's love... for Him to love me and show me that He cares and He got great plans for me...
so many times i wanna walk away from the crowd and be alone... but i know that if i do that, the chances of me being EMO will be like 90%...
so i will be like thick skin and join anyone... be in almost every conversation to cover up my loneliness... i know it's like stupid... i know that all i need is God... and perhaps some friends would be nice... and i really thank God for CORAL & ISAAC...
being friends who truely love me for who i am...
slowly teaching me and guiding me...
people who tries to be there for me...
people who cares about my welfare...
people who won't backstab me or say "rubbish or bull manure" about me...
today:
~Rain heavily... walked in the rain...
~Ate at Long John Silver
~went for Sy Rogers... awesome
~celebrated Jossie's birthday at Fish&Co.
~went to PS... walk around
~went to Cartel and chat for a while
~bus ride home
THAT'S THE SUMMARY...
won't go into details... cause i'm really tired and in no mood to blog too long...
i'm trying to forget that, i'm addicted to you...
now it's over... and i never wanna do this again...
some pictures
THE FACE SHOP
AGAIN...
Coral testing the nail colours on May's nails...
we did an experiment on Gaius too...
this is the showcase of Sookee Jewellery... i think it's nice
me and my piggy face
isaac
a secret shot of gabsy... well, not that secret... michelle guna spotted me =p
i'm just so hungry and desperate for God's love... for Him to love me and show me that He cares and He got great plans for me...
so many times i wanna walk away from the crowd and be alone... but i know that if i do that, the chances of me being EMO will be like 90%...
so i will be like thick skin and join anyone... be in almost every conversation to cover up my loneliness... i know it's like stupid... i know that all i need is God... and perhaps some friends would be nice... and i really thank God for CORAL & ISAAC...
being friends who truely love me for who i am...
slowly teaching me and guiding me...
people who tries to be there for me...
people who cares about my welfare...
people who won't backstab me or say "rubbish or bull manure" about me...
today:
~Rain heavily... walked in the rain...
~Ate at Long John Silver
~went for Sy Rogers... awesome
~celebrated Jossie's birthday at Fish&Co.
~went to PS... walk around
~went to Cartel and chat for a while
~bus ride home
THAT'S THE SUMMARY...
won't go into details... cause i'm really tired and in no mood to blog too long...
i'm trying to forget that, i'm addicted to you...
now it's over... and i never wanna do this again...
some pictures
THE FACE SHOP
AGAIN...
Coral testing the nail colours on May's nails...
we did an experiment on Gaius too...
this is the showcase of Sookee Jewellery... i think it's nice
me and my piggy face
isaac
a secret shot of gabsy... well, not that secret... michelle guna spotted me =p XOXO
Saturday, July 28, 2007
wierd book titles?
check this out!
=D
and this...
check this out!
=Dand this...
Laugh out loud...
and what people have to say about me?
today, YAs are suppose to meet at Plaza Singapura at 11am... BUT... everyone was late... so i met Rach, from Michelle Guna's cell and Addy at John Little... they are super duper funny... love the both of them lah..
Rach is so bimbo... super funny and blur blur =D
after John Little, we went to Times Bookshop cause Addy wanted to look for some book... and that's when i come across some wierd books... haha... oh, Addy spotted a book called "HAVE SEX WITH YOUR EX." and guess where we find it?
SELF IMPROVEMENT
-_-'''
hahah... then Mr Berty came and then Bel... and then Herbert, Alicia and Rupert. we ate at the Food court and then went to HOGC... as usual, it's packed but we manage to somehow sit together... so it's cool
Sy Rogers is so so funny... totally love him... he's like so GIRL FRIEND... hahaha... i can't wait for tomorrow's session =)
my daddy is so retarded... he plug in his MP3 and then started dancing... LOL
then Channel 8 just showed some Street Fighter show... it's super -_-'''
anyways, it's almost 1am... i better go sleep soon otherwise i will be quite dead tomorrow... nights
I LOVE YOU, ADDY
dancing in the moonlight
XOXO
totally love Vitagen
=)
i'm so freakin' tired *yawn*
and it's almost 2am... and have to wake up for Sy Rogers tmr... *jaw drop*
but today's sermon is good... had so much fun hanging out with the peeps over our unique supper outside PS entrance... super funny
love you gabsy dear
=)
i'm so freakin' tired *yawn*
and it's almost 2am... and have to wake up for Sy Rogers tmr... *jaw drop*
but today's sermon is good... had so much fun hanging out with the peeps over our unique supper outside PS entrance... super funny
love you gabsy dear
XOXO
Friday, July 27, 2007
i love High School Musical =)
Zac Efron, not like super gorgeous but acceptable...
Vanessa Hudgens, totally gorgeous... so pretty
Ashley Tisdale, she's so funny and so pretty =)isaac once told me that these guys up there earn like a lot of money... i was like *jaw drop*... hahah... they are like my age and yet so sucessful, popular and career path is out and stuff...
the start of something new =)
XOXO
freezing cold
now i don't even need to switch on the fans at home... haahah... LIVE EARTH =D
daddy have been on MC for days... so he's around and stuff... well, it's good that daddy can finally like rest and all...
BESE test later! panick... hahah... no lah... kinda read through and stuff... so it should be ok =)
=)
now i don't even need to switch on the fans at home... haahah... LIVE EARTH =D
daddy have been on MC for days... so he's around and stuff... well, it's good that daddy can finally like rest and all...
BESE test later! panick... hahah... no lah... kinda read through and stuff... so it should be ok =)
=)
XOXO
Thursday, July 26, 2007
my inspiration...
pretty models and designer gowns...
i love colin lah... after chatting with him over MSN, he kinda manage to take away my emoness...
hee
anyways, i love the NS show on Channel 8...
hee
maddy skip away... smiling
XOXO
All that I am wants to run
God I feel hopeless and undone
Lift me up above it all
I’m feeling broken and alone
Don’t let me turn to stone
Lift my heart above it all
I’ve lost my hope tonight
And I’m praying for the strength to carry on
Lord lift me above it all
My world is closing in
On the inside
But I’m not showing it
When all I am is crying out
I hold it in and fake a smile
Still I’m broken
I’m broken
Only one can understand
And only one can hold the hand
Of the broken
Of the broken
When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I’ve been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in your arms again
I need no explanation of why me
I just need confirmation
Only You could understand theemptiness inside my head
I am falling
I am falling
I’m falling down upon my knees
To find the one who gives me peace
the lyrics explains how i feel... towards life, towards God, towards everyone and everything...
i just wanna forget about everything... God please erase my memory...
people, please don't hate me...
the headache strikes and destroyed my Japanese test... but still i'm looking up to Heaven for a reason to smile...
i totally love Ramly burgers =D
(trying to make my post not emo)
tomorrow, i will have BESE test... then i will go down to Town for Sy Rogers... i can't wait...
i don't know how to end this post... haha... so retarded =D
the state that i'm in now... lost
God I feel hopeless and undone
Lift me up above it all
I’m feeling broken and alone
Don’t let me turn to stone
Lift my heart above it all
I’ve lost my hope tonight
And I’m praying for the strength to carry on
Lord lift me above it all
My world is closing in
On the inside
But I’m not showing it
When all I am is crying out
I hold it in and fake a smile
Still I’m broken
I’m broken
Only one can understand
And only one can hold the hand
Of the broken
Of the broken
When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I’ve been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in your arms again
I need no explanation of why me
I just need confirmation
Only You could understand theemptiness inside my head
I am falling
I am falling
I’m falling down upon my knees
To find the one who gives me peace
the lyrics explains how i feel... towards life, towards God, towards everyone and everything...
i just wanna forget about everything... God please erase my memory...
people, please don't hate me...
the headache strikes and destroyed my Japanese test... but still i'm looking up to Heaven for a reason to smile...
i totally love Ramly burgers =D
(trying to make my post not emo)
tomorrow, i will have BESE test... then i will go down to Town for Sy Rogers... i can't wait...
i don't know how to end this post... haha... so retarded =D
the state that i'm in now... lost
XOXO
XOXO
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
i'm tired but i don't wanna close my eyes
i have been reading through my past posts... and like it kinda refreshed my memory about my "past" life... all the crushes and relationship... and i had to sacrifice everytime... hahaha...
sometimes i can get a lil' selfish but in the end i still gave my blessings to the couple... i will just step out...
i love you
i have been reading through my past posts... and like it kinda refreshed my memory about my "past" life... all the crushes and relationship... and i had to sacrifice everytime... hahaha...
sometimes i can get a lil' selfish but in the end i still gave my blessings to the couple... i will just step out...
i love you
XOXO
JOHN TUCKER MUST DIE
such an awesome show... hahaha... love it... the storyline, the gorgeous looking cast and the clever planning of schemes and stuff... AWESOME!
Jesse Metcalfe look so so HOT...
gosh... love his intense eyes... i mean, besides the fact that he's a jerk in the show... like how he hook up with girls and then dump them.... gosh, he's so HOT... if i'm in that High School, i will definately fall for him... haha
i think that i'm super duper retarded... haha... my brains don't work fast but it work wide... i mean large scale... think big...
some will say that i'm a DREAMER... i would say that i just think too much...
where's my besties??? *pout lips*
gosh, i'm in my whiney mood...
such an awesome show... hahaha... love it... the storyline, the gorgeous looking cast and the clever planning of schemes and stuff... AWESOME!
Jesse Metcalfe look so so HOT...
gosh... love his intense eyes... i mean, besides the fact that he's a jerk in the show... like how he hook up with girls and then dump them.... gosh, he's so HOT... if i'm in that High School, i will definately fall for him... haha
i think that i'm super duper retarded... haha... my brains don't work fast but it work wide... i mean large scale... think big...
some will say that i'm a DREAMER... i would say that i just think too much...
where's my besties??? *pout lips*
gosh, i'm in my whiney mood...
XOXO
even if it's raining on the outside,
my heart will still be full of sunshine...
the music plays on,
love songs, so sick of love songs...
oh Lord, let my heart be so full of You...
even if i find it hard to let you go now... i know that if we're meant to be, we'll be together soon after... you meant not know how i truely feel towards you... i will only let you know when God tells me that you're the one for me... no matter what, i will stand beside you, supporting you always... when the right time comes, i know that our love song will be Truly, Madly, Deeply...
Looney Maddy
my heart will still be full of sunshine...
the music plays on,
love songs, so sick of love songs...
oh Lord, let my heart be so full of You...
even if i find it hard to let you go now... i know that if we're meant to be, we'll be together soon after... you meant not know how i truely feel towards you... i will only let you know when God tells me that you're the one for me... no matter what, i will stand beside you, supporting you always... when the right time comes, i know that our love song will be Truly, Madly, Deeply...
Looney MaddyXOXO
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
i'm a crazy bubble pinky fuzzy girl
hello world, my name is Maddy... hee
anyways, i went out today! ahhaah...
went to watch HARRY POTTER with Mr Chuan... who was late for the 1st time... he always beat me to be the first but then..... muahahhah... maddy won =)
got the tickets... went into the cinema... when it first started, Mr Chuan turn to me and said "eh, actually he(harry potter) is not good looking at all"... then turn back...
i was like -_-''' ... hahaha...
HARRY POTTER was not too bad... according to Mr Chuan, they cut off a lot from the book... obviously i didn't realise cause i didn't even read the book... hahahah... so yup...
after the movie we still had some time so we went to Life Bookshop... that bum bum's ego was blowing man... hahah... he will always pick up some random women book and say "eh, you should read this..... tsk~ women..."
and once again Mr Chuan got a punch from maddy... ahahaha
tsk~ boys ( note that it's not men...)
after that we took MRT down to Aljunid to meet Isaac for dinner and then went for the seminar...
it ended quite late... but it was ok, not too bad... it could be better if it was longer and without translation... but ok lah =)
anyways, school will be short tmr... so it's cool... then i have cell group and then meet Roland for discipleship session...
then i have a jap test on Thursday... so i need to study for that...
friday will be cool cause we're going down to Heart of God for an awesome time with Sy Rogers... then saturday and sunday too...
bye bye lovely people
IMPORTANT MOVIES OPENING DATES
The Simpsons: 26th July
Knocked Up (M18): 26th July
Ratatouille: 30th August
Evan Almighty: 6th September
Balls of Fury: 20th September
shoutout to Chuan:
hey, had so much fun laughing at the Legally Blonde lady in Harry Potter and visit your fav. Life bookshop with you... stop dissing me with the whole women thing and i will stop dissing you with the ego thing (even though it's true)... hahaha... no lah... try to book out on Friday k? then come join us at Sy... anyways, have fun in camp for the next couple of days... and i'll see you on sunday =) then we can hangout again k... jia you
wanna watch Evan Almighty (the retarded show) together? hahahah... laughing at the trailer
bubbly maddy
hello world, my name is Maddy... hee
anyways, i went out today! ahhaah...
went to watch HARRY POTTER with Mr Chuan... who was late for the 1st time... he always beat me to be the first but then..... muahahhah... maddy won =)
got the tickets... went into the cinema... when it first started, Mr Chuan turn to me and said "eh, actually he(harry potter) is not good looking at all"... then turn back...
i was like -_-''' ... hahaha...
HARRY POTTER was not too bad... according to Mr Chuan, they cut off a lot from the book... obviously i didn't realise cause i didn't even read the book... hahahah... so yup...
after the movie we still had some time so we went to Life Bookshop... that bum bum's ego was blowing man... hahah... he will always pick up some random women book and say "eh, you should read this..... tsk~ women..."
and once again Mr Chuan got a punch from maddy... ahahaha
tsk~ boys ( note that it's not men...)
after that we took MRT down to Aljunid to meet Isaac for dinner and then went for the seminar...
it ended quite late... but it was ok, not too bad... it could be better if it was longer and without translation... but ok lah =)
anyways, school will be short tmr... so it's cool... then i have cell group and then meet Roland for discipleship session...
then i have a jap test on Thursday... so i need to study for that...
friday will be cool cause we're going down to Heart of God for an awesome time with Sy Rogers... then saturday and sunday too...
bye bye lovely people
IMPORTANT MOVIES OPENING DATES
The Simpsons: 26th July
Knocked Up (M18): 26th July
Ratatouille: 30th August
Evan Almighty: 6th September
Balls of Fury: 20th September
shoutout to Chuan:
hey, had so much fun laughing at the Legally Blonde lady in Harry Potter and visit your fav. Life bookshop with you... stop dissing me with the whole women thing and i will stop dissing you with the ego thing (even though it's true)... hahaha... no lah... try to book out on Friday k? then come join us at Sy... anyways, have fun in camp for the next couple of days... and i'll see you on sunday =) then we can hangout again k... jia you
wanna watch Evan Almighty (the retarded show) together? hahahah... laughing at the trailer
bubbly maddyXOXO
| Your Superpower Should Be Manipulating Fire |
 Why you would be a good superhero: You are obsessive enough to give it your all Your biggest problem as a superhero: Your moodiness would make it difficult to control your powers |
haha... that's cool
| What Madeline Means |
M is for Mesmerizing A is for Amazing D is for Dazzling E is for Entertaining L is for Lively I is for Innocent N is for Naughty E is for Exuberant |
i'm naughty =p
| You Are a Frappacino |
 At your best, you are: fun loving, sweet, and modern At your worst, you are: childish and over indulgent You drink coffee when: you're craving something sweet Your caffeine addiction level: low |
very true
| You Are a Cookie-Browine-Sundae |
 Totally sweet, delicious, and comforting. You are a total glutton for... everything! |
i love love desserts
XOXO
freezing in the ice box
didn't go to school today... really needed a break... kinda like taking a break with God and Holy Spirit... (that's not an excuse)
the weather is wierd now... i'm like freezing... beside, because of fasting, my immune have become low but thank God for protecting me and all...
i can't wait to attend tonight's seminar... so exciting =)
did i just say things without thinking again?
i won't ignore you because i still want you as a friend...
=)
this a random picture that i've found in my picture folder... super funny
didn't go to school today... really needed a break... kinda like taking a break with God and Holy Spirit... (that's not an excuse)
the weather is wierd now... i'm like freezing... beside, because of fasting, my immune have become low but thank God for protecting me and all...
i can't wait to attend tonight's seminar... so exciting =)
did i just say things without thinking again?
i won't ignore you because i still want you as a friend...
=)
this a random picture that i've found in my picture folder... super funnyXOXO
Monday, July 23, 2007
carry me here,
in Your arms of love...
draw me close to You,
i wanna be where You are...
the love of God and the companionship of the Holy Spirit... always comforting me...
i've gotta focus 100% on God again... no matter what... i know that i won't regret leaving some stuff behind and like clear up the mess in my life... because i know that i can be so much more than who i am now...
i'm gonna work hard on my character... the unseen 90%... and also my spirit man... i'm gonna be strong, i will overcome everything with God...
i want to be used by God time and time again... i don't want to lose the giftings that God had given to me... so many times i don't even deserve anything but God being God is so so merciful...
anyways, i went to school.. wasn't too bad... then i went down to church to like bum around before i meet Isaac to go for the ANGELS & DEMON seminar...
we meet for dinner... talk about future... like career and all... it's so so exciting and so so cool...
i know it's quite impossible for me to be an air stewardess... i know my dreams are kinda retarded... like Miss Universe, Air Stewardess, Deal or no deal model...
but for the air stewardess part, i will trust in God...
it would be good if i can get the cabin job... although i know i have to leave church and like be traveling around but i know that i will grow so much more... although i'm not strong enough now, but i still got about 2 more years to prepare =)
my plan:
2009 (21 years old)
- Graduate from TP HTM
- Perhaps go to PGSM for a 1 year degree in MICE
2010 (22 years old)
- join an airline company for 3 years
2013 (25 years old)
- end my cabin crew career and join the IR
that's kinda my wish now... well, it's still up to God to say YES or NO... for now, Pastor Mark said YES, my dad said YES... so we're all waiting for the sign from God =)
but while talking to isaac, i might even get a degree in mass comm so that it might help if i wanna be in Public Relations... and somemore with exprience in service industry, it's gonna be awesome...
i'm just so so excited for my future... what is installed for me... what are the things i'm gonna do and stuff...
whether i'm gonna be a missionary? haha
well, it's good... now that i've got no time at all to think about guys... oh please, i got far more important things to do and plan than to dream about getting attached and pray for a boyfriend when there's so much need around me...
lose weight time!
my cute lil' torto stuffed toy brings a smile to my face =)
in Your arms of love...
draw me close to You,
i wanna be where You are...
the love of God and the companionship of the Holy Spirit... always comforting me...
i've gotta focus 100% on God again... no matter what... i know that i won't regret leaving some stuff behind and like clear up the mess in my life... because i know that i can be so much more than who i am now...
i'm gonna work hard on my character... the unseen 90%... and also my spirit man... i'm gonna be strong, i will overcome everything with God...
i want to be used by God time and time again... i don't want to lose the giftings that God had given to me... so many times i don't even deserve anything but God being God is so so merciful...
anyways, i went to school.. wasn't too bad... then i went down to church to like bum around before i meet Isaac to go for the ANGELS & DEMON seminar...
we meet for dinner... talk about future... like career and all... it's so so exciting and so so cool...
i know it's quite impossible for me to be an air stewardess... i know my dreams are kinda retarded... like Miss Universe, Air Stewardess, Deal or no deal model...
but for the air stewardess part, i will trust in God...
it would be good if i can get the cabin job... although i know i have to leave church and like be traveling around but i know that i will grow so much more... although i'm not strong enough now, but i still got about 2 more years to prepare =)
my plan:
2009 (21 years old)
- Graduate from TP HTM
- Perhaps go to PGSM for a 1 year degree in MICE
2010 (22 years old)
- join an airline company for 3 years
2013 (25 years old)
- end my cabin crew career and join the IR
that's kinda my wish now... well, it's still up to God to say YES or NO... for now, Pastor Mark said YES, my dad said YES... so we're all waiting for the sign from God =)
but while talking to isaac, i might even get a degree in mass comm so that it might help if i wanna be in Public Relations... and somemore with exprience in service industry, it's gonna be awesome...
i'm just so so excited for my future... what is installed for me... what are the things i'm gonna do and stuff...
whether i'm gonna be a missionary? haha
well, it's good... now that i've got no time at all to think about guys... oh please, i got far more important things to do and plan than to dream about getting attached and pray for a boyfriend when there's so much need around me...
lose weight time!
my cute lil' torto stuffed toy brings a smile to my face =) XOXO
MORNING HOLY SPIRIT, MORNING GOD
i woke up not feeling super awesome and like KAPOW... but it definately felt so so much better after much prayer and stuff...
there's a reason for everything and a season for everything...
because i'm made the way somewhat like Jesus, we choose to sacrifice ourselves for others... whether friends or love ones... but i'm glad that i'm like my heavenly daddy =)
there's so so much to learn and stuff... and i will fix my eyes on Jesus... because He's the only man that captivated my heart...
=)
if you're reading this and wondering is maddy crazy or like mentally unsound... how come one minute sad and depress than after that like so joyful...
well, it's the JOY of the Lord...
anyways, yesterday was cool... service was awesome... after service, i went to eat with my usual sunday lunch gang... then we went to Parkway for ice cream... while walking through Roxy Square... i saw my granny...
hahah... i ran up to her and gave her a surprise... hahah... then i met my godma... and my aunty... then i met Aunty Rosline from BASC Playgroup... and then my St John junior... she just shouted my name while i was running past her (trying to catch up with the rest)...
manage to talk to her for a while and stuff... i still remember teach first aid classes to her batch of students... and so fast... now she's sec3... oh ya hor, it's like 2 years ago like that... hahaha
after talking i ran to catch up with the walk super fast group... hahaha... sorry shenna because you have to answer all the "where is maddy" questions =)
so yup, first we went topman to help Ying Chuan look for jeans... and then me and gracie were like looking at random stuff... cute boxers... wierd clothes and super cheap accessories at Dorothy Perkins...
then we walk pass Esprit and i saw this bag.... it's so so cool... it's the right size and it's black and simple... but it cost $90+ after 30% discount... but i don't think i will get that bag... too expensive... i will only go shopping when i start working or something... can't afford to spend money on shopping...
=)
after that we went for ICE CREAM... but before that we walk into a shop with cool furniture and decor, if i'm not wrong it's "Lim's art" or something like that... anyways, the things there are nice... esp the gorgeous lights and wind chims =)
so yup, ICE CREAM... didn't buy it... but steal 1 mouth from Ying Chuan's alcoholic ice cream... the Rum one tasted like a dish that my tutor made for us... there was a lot of Rum in it too... goodness... hahah
i only like Red Bull Vodka... my all time fav.
*i'm not an alocholic*
anyways, after ice cream we went back to church... met Herbert and Alicia... they wanted to go for the MPH sale...
ok let's fast forward it now...
dance was ok =) made friends with the MC for the CC national day... i help her translate for the aunty dance group and help her with the script... hee... the aunties are so nice and friendly...
so yup... then after we dance, i got so attracted to this pretty lil' girl... she's so so cute... Livia will agree to that... like when i smile and wave at her... she will be like so shy and run to her mummy and hide behind her mummy... then she will run back... so cute lah
after dance, i went to meet Coral, Aiken, Michelle Lam, Gaius, Char, Vaness, Ben Choo, Isaac, Joel Ooi, May
had fun =)
yup, that's all for my sunday
smile smile maddy
i woke up not feeling super awesome and like KAPOW... but it definately felt so so much better after much prayer and stuff...
there's a reason for everything and a season for everything...
because i'm made the way somewhat like Jesus, we choose to sacrifice ourselves for others... whether friends or love ones... but i'm glad that i'm like my heavenly daddy =)
there's so so much to learn and stuff... and i will fix my eyes on Jesus... because He's the only man that captivated my heart...
=)
if you're reading this and wondering is maddy crazy or like mentally unsound... how come one minute sad and depress than after that like so joyful...
well, it's the JOY of the Lord...
anyways, yesterday was cool... service was awesome... after service, i went to eat with my usual sunday lunch gang... then we went to Parkway for ice cream... while walking through Roxy Square... i saw my granny...
hahah... i ran up to her and gave her a surprise... hahah... then i met my godma... and my aunty... then i met Aunty Rosline from BASC Playgroup... and then my St John junior... she just shouted my name while i was running past her (trying to catch up with the rest)...
manage to talk to her for a while and stuff... i still remember teach first aid classes to her batch of students... and so fast... now she's sec3... oh ya hor, it's like 2 years ago like that... hahaha
after talking i ran to catch up with the walk super fast group... hahaha... sorry shenna because you have to answer all the "where is maddy" questions =)
so yup, first we went topman to help Ying Chuan look for jeans... and then me and gracie were like looking at random stuff... cute boxers... wierd clothes and super cheap accessories at Dorothy Perkins...
then we walk pass Esprit and i saw this bag.... it's so so cool... it's the right size and it's black and simple... but it cost $90+ after 30% discount... but i don't think i will get that bag... too expensive... i will only go shopping when i start working or something... can't afford to spend money on shopping...
=)
after that we went for ICE CREAM... but before that we walk into a shop with cool furniture and decor, if i'm not wrong it's "Lim's art" or something like that... anyways, the things there are nice... esp the gorgeous lights and wind chims =)
so yup, ICE CREAM... didn't buy it... but steal 1 mouth from Ying Chuan's alcoholic ice cream... the Rum one tasted like a dish that my tutor made for us... there was a lot of Rum in it too... goodness... hahah
i only like Red Bull Vodka... my all time fav.
*i'm not an alocholic*
anyways, after ice cream we went back to church... met Herbert and Alicia... they wanted to go for the MPH sale...
ok let's fast forward it now...
dance was ok =) made friends with the MC for the CC national day... i help her translate for the aunty dance group and help her with the script... hee... the aunties are so nice and friendly...
so yup... then after we dance, i got so attracted to this pretty lil' girl... she's so so cute... Livia will agree to that... like when i smile and wave at her... she will be like so shy and run to her mummy and hide behind her mummy... then she will run back... so cute lah
after dance, i went to meet Coral, Aiken, Michelle Lam, Gaius, Char, Vaness, Ben Choo, Isaac, Joel Ooi, May
had fun =)
yup, that's all for my sunday
smile smile maddyXOXO
i serve a God, who is faithful and true...
for i will find my rest, in Your grace again...
i will hide in the shadow of Your love once more...
this is it..................
it have to stop... i cannot take it anymore...
if i have to ignore you... i will
if i have to run away from you... i will
it's final...
if i ever break this "goodbye" again... i will kill myself and never forgive myself for being an idiot and a fool...
for i will find my rest, in Your grace again...
i will hide in the shadow of Your love once more...
this is it..................
it have to stop... i cannot take it anymore...
if i have to ignore you... i will
if i have to run away from you... i will
it's final...
if i ever break this "goodbye" again... i will kill myself and never forgive myself for being an idiot and a fool...
XOXO
Sunday, July 22, 2007
my heart used to beat
today was a really wierd day for me... my emotions was all over the place... with friends, with people i love... things were just so so wierd...
(i still love you guys but it's just me)
i know that my pillars are gonna be there for me... i know that the people i'm once so close with will not be there for me... i know that i will walk alone... i know that all
sometimes i just wish that God won't tell me all that... won't put me through that cause it hurts me like mad...
so in the end i choose to walk alone... go through every single thing alone... i never told anyone how i truely feel deep inside... never got the chance, never got the guts...
all i can do is cry to God and hope that God won't forsake me and stuff...
ok, i'm not like turning emo or what here... but i know that i have to walk this lonely long road alone... with no love ones beside me... i feel so _______...
don't feel like eating at all... how wierd huh? maddy is a super hungry pig who will eat and eat and eat... especially when she's stressed... i just.............. don't eat... or eat a bit...
sucking up all the hurts, all the anger, all the injustice...
Daddy God, i need you
it hurts so much Lord... so so much
in pain, in agony, in the pits...
but i will never stop praising...
gorgeous people =) gracie dear and gaius love
yummy ice cream place @ Parkway
isaac... the awesome man of God
sean, my son... so happily eating his ice cream
that's nelson
and meimei (melissa)
the yummy peanut butter toast at Hongkong Cafe
today was a really wierd day for me... my emotions was all over the place... with friends, with people i love... things were just so so wierd...
(i still love you guys but it's just me)
i know that my pillars are gonna be there for me... i know that the people i'm once so close with will not be there for me... i know that i will walk alone... i know that all
sometimes i just wish that God won't tell me all that... won't put me through that cause it hurts me like mad...
so in the end i choose to walk alone... go through every single thing alone... i never told anyone how i truely feel deep inside... never got the chance, never got the guts...
all i can do is cry to God and hope that God won't forsake me and stuff...
ok, i'm not like turning emo or what here... but i know that i have to walk this lonely long road alone... with no love ones beside me... i feel so _______...
don't feel like eating at all... how wierd huh? maddy is a super hungry pig who will eat and eat and eat... especially when she's stressed... i just.............. don't eat... or eat a bit...
sucking up all the hurts, all the anger, all the injustice...
Daddy God, i need you
it hurts so much Lord... so so much
in pain, in agony, in the pits...
but i will never stop praising...
gorgeous people =) gracie dear and gaius love
yummy ice cream place @ Parkway
isaac... the awesome man of God
sean, my son... so happily eating his ice cream
that's nelson
and meimei (melissa)
the yummy peanut butter toast at Hongkong Cafe XOXO
one word
梦
梦
XOXO
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
lesson to learn in this season in my life:
Serve with love
it's so hard to serve in my family with love... knowing that what they do is wrong and yet cannot make my stand known... because of unfair treatment and chaos at home, there is a certain bitterness hidden in the midst of all the love and compassion...
Pastor Mark reminded me to love my family... even when it's hard and even when it's unfair... the things that i have to go through are tough and the road is tiring... been battling this problem for years already and i'm getting more and more tired...
but i will make this battle the Lord's... because when i do that, God will fight it for me...
anyways, today is great... although i struggled with the singing part... but thank God for Gabsy who is so so patient to like teach me and all... and also for my CK model, Chuan... he was like "you ok a not? want to practise again?" and then he played the guitar so that i can practise... he was really encouraging lah...
i was so so nervous and worried then i started to play with my scarf... i think i could possibly strangle myself... ahahhah
YA service is awesome awesome
here's some shoutout:
Chuan: hey hey hey BUM BUM, i know that you'll see this... just wanna say thank you for always being so encouraging and nice =) and also tolerating my randomness... haha... *hugs*
Gracie: hey babe, thanks for the donut... LOVE IT
Vaness: MY WATERMELON... love you so much dear...
Addy: i love my addy... hugs hugs
i love meredicks... hee...
uncle tay trying to hide behind the screen =D
My Calvin Klein model, Chuan =)
i love donuts... thanks gracie love
yo shi ho wo xi wang ni neng bian cheng wo de...
wo hao xiang, hao xiang...
dan shi ru guo fang shou shi dui de...
wo hui jing jing de li kai...
lesson to learn in this season in my life:
Serve with love
it's so hard to serve in my family with love... knowing that what they do is wrong and yet cannot make my stand known... because of unfair treatment and chaos at home, there is a certain bitterness hidden in the midst of all the love and compassion...
Pastor Mark reminded me to love my family... even when it's hard and even when it's unfair... the things that i have to go through are tough and the road is tiring... been battling this problem for years already and i'm getting more and more tired...
but i will make this battle the Lord's... because when i do that, God will fight it for me...
anyways, today is great... although i struggled with the singing part... but thank God for Gabsy who is so so patient to like teach me and all... and also for my CK model, Chuan... he was like "you ok a not? want to practise again?" and then he played the guitar so that i can practise... he was really encouraging lah...
i was so so nervous and worried then i started to play with my scarf... i think i could possibly strangle myself... ahahhah
YA service is awesome awesome
here's some shoutout:
Chuan: hey hey hey BUM BUM, i know that you'll see this... just wanna say thank you for always being so encouraging and nice =) and also tolerating my randomness... haha... *hugs*
Gracie: hey babe, thanks for the donut... LOVE IT
Vaness: MY WATERMELON... love you so much dear...
Addy: i love my addy... hugs hugs
i love meredicks... hee...
uncle tay trying to hide behind the screen =D
My Calvin Klein model, Chuan =)
i love donuts... thanks gracie loveyo shi ho wo xi wang ni neng bian cheng wo de...
wo hao xiang, hao xiang...
dan shi ru guo fang shou shi dui de...
wo hui jing jing de li kai...
Labels: joy
XOXO
| Pepperoni Pizza |
 Robust and dominant. When you go for something, you go full force. You tend to take control of situations easily. And in return, you get a ton of respect. |
i totally love love pepperoni...
| Your Personality is Somewhat Common (ISFJ) |
 Your personality type is stubborn, conservative, trustworthy, and caring. About 13% of all people have your personality, including 18% of all women and 7% of all men You are Introverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Judging. |
haha... oh well...
| Your Dominant Thinking Style: Exploring |
 You thrive on the unknown and unpredictable. Novelty is your middle name. You are a challenger. You tend to challenge common assumptions and beliefs. An expert inventor and problem solver, you approach everything from new angles. You show people how to question their models of the world. |
that's cool
| Your Eyes Should Be Brown |
 Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart |
my eyes are brown... or actually very dark brown, close to black
| Your Power Color Is Teal |
 At Your Highest: You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future. At Your Lowest: You feel in a slump and lack creativity. In Love: You tend to be many people's ideal partner. How You're Attractive: You make people feel confident and accepted. Your Eternal Question: "What Impression Am I Giving?" |
kinda true...
| You Are a Green Apple Jelly Bean |
 Of all the flavors, you're the most complex and the most real. A little sweet, a little sour, and totally tangy. People can't describe you, but they love you! |
they really love me???
| You Should Date An Italian! |
 You love for old fashioned romance, with an old fashioned guy An Italian guy is the perfect candidate to be your prince charming If your head doesn't spin enough, just down another espresso with him Invest in a motorcycle helmet - and some carb blocker for all that pasta! |
european guy? wow... muahhahahah...
| Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover |
 You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you! Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter. You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you. You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover. Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives. Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours. No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover. |
LOL
| You Should Be In Destiny's Child |
 You're sexy, smart, and hard working. The perfect combo for superstardom! |
they are so so cool lah
goodness... i'm so bored... ahhaha... more tests soon =D
XOXO