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Thursday, February 28, 2008

-Flash Back-

as much as i wish to say that i'm ok with my parents, at times i still find them super irritating... i mean, afterall i'm human... thanks to them bugging me non-stop, i finally got a job... at a student care centre...

so i will be working for the whole of march and april... i don't understand why must they force me to work? i don't mind working because of the money because i don't even get pocket money during holidays... this time, i work just to save up money for my Japan trip...

people ask, "how to survive on $400 or $500 per month?"... i just tell them "i live on $200 per month, you wanna complain?"... seriously, i thank God that i don't have much money... because it teaches me how to save and be wise with the money God have given me...

my pocket money could be someone's savings for the money...

my pocket money could also be someone's annual salary in other countries...

so i never feel lousy because i know that i'm always better off than others who are suffering out there... as much as i say i hate my parents and they are useless, but i know that at least i have parents...

people may complain about their house being small or their car being old, but they never realise that there are people who will have to run from place to place to seek refuge...

living in a country and environment that is so safe often blinds you from the reality of life...

i want to go back to Karens... because at that place, all you have is only GOD... no one else can satisfy you, can comfort you as much... only God can love people that much, only He can provide ways to a better life, only He can rescue one who is just so lost...

anyways, i'm going to get ready for cell already... JA~

XOXO

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

ok, this is my 3rd post of the day... and so you guys can tell that i'm obvious very very VERY distracted from studying... hur hur

was chatting with Jeremiah when he showed me a air show video... it's super cool and he told me his friend proposed to his girlfriend so sweet right? and the girl agreed...

someday, the special someone will come... and like what Jeremiah said to me...
God will find the man who will guard your tender heart safely.

i say amen to that... hur hur...

Oh oh, below is a MSN Convo between me and isaac... subject is about me wanting to be a "cosplay maid"... hur

Madeline in hebrew means Strong Tower waiting for rainbow says:
anyways, tell you something really random again
Madeline in hebrew means Strong Tower waiting for rainbow says:
hur hur
isaaac says:
tell tell
Madeline in hebrew means Strong Tower waiting for rainbow says:
i thought of working at a "cosplay maid cafe"
Madeline in hebrew means Strong Tower waiting for rainbow says:
ahhaha
Madeline in hebrew means Strong Tower waiting for rainbow says:
you know those jap girls dress in maid costume
Madeline in hebrew means Strong Tower waiting for rainbow says:
hur hur
Madeline in hebrew means Strong Tower waiting for rainbow says:
working in a cafe

Read this, ISAAC'S REPLY...
isaaac says:
OH NO
isaaac says:
hahahaha
isaaac says:
maddyyy
isaaac says:
you are so funny
isaaac says:
really?
isaaac says:
but you shouldnt look like a maid!
isaaac says:
what if there are old perverts
isaaac says:
who like all these jap loooks
isaaac says:
then they touch touch all
isaaac says:
DONT WANT LA

so funny right??? ok, i think i'm being retarded now... hur hur

XOXO

I wanna work at Cosplay Maid Cafe...
hur hur

cause my holiday is coming soon and my parents are already bugging me to go get a job... feeling irritated, i quickly called the various companies... perfume companies, student care centres etc etc...

then suddenly, it dawn unto me.. why not work in a cosplay cafe... hur hur... ok lah, it's a stupid idea... but i went to research about it... there is one at CHIJMES... haha

today is just a bad day for studying... feel very unproductive... oh well, and thanks to the Oscars, i feel inspired to design again...

here are just some:
1) Cosplay Maid Cafe uniform...

2) Oscars Dresses

XOXO

Gorgeous-ness *sizzle*

i wanna thank God for everything... for Him being so real in life, for loving me and telling me who i am, and who i am meant to be... so that i won't be fooled by satan and the lies of the world...

i also wanna thank God for awesome people; friends who truly care... people who are not just attracted by looks or status... people who will stick with you through thick and thin...

today, i received a very simple sms from Sarah Lin... i was so close to crying (in a blur-just-woke-up state)... then i took out my bag of cards, notes and letters that i've collected since secondary school... notes and cards namely from Sarah Lin, from Shenna, Coral, Michelle Lam, Mishuelle, Livia... cause i'm actually more introvert, so i love to write letters, notes and make cards rather than speak...

but i guess God just moulded me into a "introverted" extrovert... cheem but rather cool... like how bel always tell me, "you know when to be LOUD and bring up the atmosphere. but you also know how to be quiet and silent when listening to others"...

i thank God for that... if not i'll be a social outcast or someone who is very very irritating... hahha...

anyways, back to the notes... then i saw my sec 5 diary... with lots of quotes on every right page of the diary with pretty stickers and drawings... today, i'm gonna share with you one which i really love...

it says:
"You're precious... everyone is made differently because the creator is magnificant... you are the best that you can be... the prettiest, the nicest, the best creation-ever... no matter what others say, in the creator's eyes, YOU'RE THE BEST"

i was like *sob sob*... hahha... cause a few years ago, somehow i manage to read this children storybook and it talks about a CREATOR and His CREATIONS... during that time, i struggled a lot with my self-esteem problem...

weight issues, confidence issues etc etc... but because of that book, i manage to break out of it... although it's just a children book... not something written by the greatest writers or Shakespeare... just a simple picture book...

i think we, everyone of us need to know that we are all "FEARFULLY and WONDERFULLY made" by God... even though at times i know i still feel a lil' low about my size and weight but i'm slowly learning to love my body and yet work on how to make it healthy...

not putting myself through killer-no-fat or no-carb routines... or do the whole crash-diet thingy or even pills... at times i admit that i really wanted to go back to pills (that's years ago) and mind you, those are legal doctore prescribed pills...

but i realised that, sometimes looks doesn't really matter... i know everyone deep inside our hearts wish that someday we can look like that brad pitt or chad michael murray, jessica alba or angelina jolie... but do you know that half of the time, THEY ARE FAKE... many celebs go through botox, "whatever" reconstructions, tummy tuck, stomach tightening, lipo...

so like what 17 Seventeen magazine said this issue, do not compare, stay away from negative comments... especially for girls, whenever we gather, we will start talking about people's dressing or bodies... and end up, emo about ourselves...

so what's the point?

let's all learn to love our bodies...
and boys, seriously, stay away from those nonsense protein supplements k? too much protein will weaken your internal organs and make you really sick...

XOXO

Saturday, February 23, 2008

YAMAPI once more

hur hur hur

i had such a tough time selecting the picture cause he looks so hot in every picture and he makes me wanna put every single picture up... hur hur hur

anyways, i've been doing great, THANK GOD!

like now i feel more cheery and almost nothing can get me down... like some things that used to hurt me and stuff don't hurt me anymore... i'm like stronger and also because of the JOY of the Lord... which is really good... i learn to love people more and kill less people with my mood swings...

i'm trying really hard to be nice and all so please do help me k? if i'm mean, just poke me and tell me k?

i can't sleep cause i'm feeling very full from dinner and cakes from cartel... i had so much fun at cell and also with meredith and michelle guna's cell... i love those peeps!

sometimes it's nice to hangout with others... not trying to be like a "populazzi" but like friendly and also get to know people better... like megan and marcus... so it's really very cool... like certain days i'll hangout with gabsy's cell and like fangxian and james and kenneth... so it's cool

anyways, i'm gonna go watch for my video and off to bible reading... i'm halfway through the book of Joshua... yipppppyyy!!!

i'm so in love with yamapi... hur hur... but one thing for sure is that, God will always be first in my life...

XOXO

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Kurosagi - The black swindler
daite daite daite

YAMAPI YAMAPI YAMAPI

studying really drains energy... hur hur hur... i bet many can relate but i thank God for helping me through all that... studying for accounting is killing me, hur hur... but i thank God for always giving me good tutors to help me...

Club Resort Spa Business is such an ambiguous subject... i don't know how to even study for it... oh well, i will just do my best and i know that God will do the rest...

alrighty, back to studying then... love ya all

i'm so in love with yamapi... hur hur...

XOXO

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

do not be fooled by this picture...

it is not gonna be a emo post... i hereby say and proclaim that there will not be anymore emo post on my blog from this day onwards...

i'm gonna have a mindset change...

no longer will i look at things in a negative light, i will put on God's eyes and look at things from a different point of view... which is neccessary...

being emo and negative will never ever be the solution to things... it doesn't change the situation, however it adds on to the pain... so why dwell in it? deal with the situation face to face, there is no point running away or push the blame to others...

some are born with greatness, some achieve greatness, some have greatness thrusted upon them...

i will make a decision to rise up when no one does... when everyone is still in their party-land and temptation island, i will step out and do what i can... i don't want to waste my time because time is passing so fast and we can never turn back time to undo things...

living life to the fullest is to walk with God every minute...

instead of spending my afternoons rolling on the sofa or bed, spend these time to read the bible and talk to God...

instead of watching a retarded cartoon, read a Holy-spirit inspired book...

instead of saying "life sucks" and go back into emo-ing, stand up and say "life sucks, SO WHAT?" and move on...

instead of thinking about that boy or girl, spend some time to think about what you can do to build God's kingdom up or how you can impact others...

i'm not just preaching but as i say these things, i'm also telling that to myself...

it's time to rise up and break free from the sin that easily tangles and the things that often distracts...

XOXO

Monday, February 18, 2008

i don't know what to say...

perhaps i should just keep quiet

XOXO

Sunday, February 17, 2008

I'll Worship at Your Throne
Whisper my own love song
With all my heart I'll sing
For You my Dad and King
I'll live for all my days
To Put a smile on Your face
And when we finally meet
It'll be for eternity

And Oh how wide You open up Your arms
When I need Your love
And how far You would come
If ever I was lost
And You said that all You feel for me
Is undying love
That You showed me through the cross

I'll worship You my God
I'll worship You my God
I love You
I love You
Forever I will sing
Forever I will be with You
Be with You

XOXO

Saturday, February 16, 2008

i trust in God, no matter what happens...
because i know that He is faithful...

and i'll never walk alone

XOXO

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

it was so much FUN~

went to school for lecture and it ended within 30 mins (lecture suppose to be 2 hours)... so eddie, fiona, qiao fei and myself decided to go and enjoy our last week in sentosa...

join us in our Sentosa Tour!

First Stop: Lunch at The Square

eddie and me

qiao fei and fiona

my main course- yummy chicken

my desert: hot chocolate cake with vanilla ice cream...

3 course meal only at $7.50!!! Yasui ne (cheap)

Second Stop: Sky Ride

qiao fei and fiona

eddie, qiao fei and fiona

fiona, qiao fei and me

Third Stop: The LUGE

me, fiona, qiao fei with our safety helmet
eddie, me and fiona with our helmet
we only paid only $4! (yasui ne)

Forth Stop: Flower Fest
that's us!!!

Fifth Stop: Toy"R"Us

CNY Barbie
My fav. Disney Princesses
Cookie monster!!! Kawaii ne
fiona and her hula hoop

today was so much fun... just eating, playing, laughing, taking pictures... i love you guys!!!
Jung Jung, i know you're reading this!!! hee

p.s: daite daite

XOXO

Monday, February 11, 2008

Project LOVE - chocolate segment

murphey strikes once again... but he didn't manage to bring me down...

i will always thank God for the many things in my life, even for the so called "bad" things because i know that my Daddy God will not put me through a rough patch for fun... i will always learn these important lessons and bear it in mind...

revision classes will start tomorrow, i'm looking forward to this closing of semster... my last week in sentosa, i will learn to treasure it =)

valentines day is coming soon... about 2 more days??? i can't wait to spend time with my hommies...

watch out for the yummy "choco le maddy"
(chocolate in the style of maddy)
coming your way on valentines day!

my ever so sexy, Yamapi in Kurosagi (love that show)

and i promise some of you to post pictures of the pregnant Jessica Alba...

here it is

XOXO

WOOTS!!!

Me and coralicious~

PIPI's sexy abs...
i love him in Kurosagi

well, life is not the best... but i'm still looking and thinking positive... sometimes i do feel low and rather pissed off with myself but many times i told myself i must be strong and i must not let people look down on me...

some things to note:

- if someone don't say anything, it doesn't mean that they are ok.

- if someone don't demand for attention, it doesn't mean that it's fine to ignore them.

- if someone doesn't bring good testimonies, it doesn't mean that the person is not trying.

you don't know me, you don't wear my chains...

i won't say that my chains are heavier than yours, or my road is longer than yours because we will never know... our ability to take in hardship is different and so i will not judge...

sometimes i wish that things would be different and i won't be stuck in situations that potentially could kill me...

things in my head now:

- cheem precept homework

(continue to have spasm)

- valentines day

(lots of chocolates but no lover)

- i'm 20 this year
(OLD!)

- i need to lose weight; like MAJOR
(i'm so fat)

XOXO

Thursday, February 07, 2008

Princess just wanna have fun~

*act cute*

hur hur hur

Happy Lunar New Year, everyone!!!

tears of a princess
may wind blows and people's hearts turn cold,
there stood a princess wronged by all...
all she did was just standing,
standing in the middle of the rain...

let it fall, let it fall;
thus says my soul as i feel the rain touching my skin...

as i look up into the dark sky,
i saw a love that i can't deny...
a creator's love and His magnificant plan,
mysterious but true and always faithful...

there will always be rainbows in my heart after every storm...
i believe...

XOXO

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

Today will just be pictures!!!
*enjoy*

Flowers from Goodwood Florist~ (kirei ne)

my room after all the packing

these pretty white heels =)

my cousin, carol (in green) i love love her!!!

My cousin- Michelle's birthday

make a wish and blow it out!

XOXO

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

konbanwa, watashi wa miyuki desu, cinderella desu...
ho ho ho

My dinner: fried ngoh heong
Made by my granny, fried by me!!! super delicious~

was feeling quite pukey, so i didn't feel like eating anything HUGE... so granny ask me to fry some ngoh heong for dinner... so i did... yummy!

i feel quite sad lah, cause i was home the whole day... didn't meet the rest cause i need to clean the house for CNY and also take care of my dumbo brothers... *faint*

haha... but it's cool =)

ok, i'm feeling so so random... hahha... anyways, i'm gonna go eat my dinner now, then will go and do my precept homework! hahaha... cheeemernology man... hahaha

so, ciao amigos~
haha... sorry for this random post~

daite daite daite, yamapi
(translation: hug me, hug me, hug me, yamapi)

XOXO

Today's special: Pipi as Kusano Akira in Nobuta Wo Produce

Today, i went to pluck my eyebrows... super painful lah... the moment she started plucking, i wanted to like scream so badly... (ITAI!)

after plucking my eyebrows, i ate my lunch and then started cleaning the house... the stupid internet got some problem so i can't load my jap drama- Nobuta wo produce

Countdown to CNY: 2 days

Randomness: i want to have kawaii babies... hee
Yamapi is so cute, i'm so cute (thick skin), our children will be gorgeous...
ho ho ho

day-dreaming

XOXO

Monday, February 04, 2008

Today's special: Ryo chan & Pi chan~

that's when they were young... (ryo chan, totemo kawaii ne... chiisai)

all grown up...

finally, i finish my reports and assignments!!!!!!!!!!! woots woots~~

i'm a happy girl today because there is no more work!!! yeah yeah yeah... hee... CNY is just around the corner... so fast huh?

Tomorrow's agenda:

- go pluck eyebrows

- meet mishuelle and michelle (TBC)

- meet the whole gin gang (TBC)

- jogging and work out

XOXO

Sunday, February 03, 2008

Today's special: Tegoshi-kun =)

*delicious*

hello everyone... i'm more or else on my way to getting back to normal... hur hur~ it's been real crazy with everything happening around me (all the different wars and issues going on)... but it's good =)

i'm praising God no matter what~

i got my last assignment to complete before CNY, then after CNY will be project LOVE (chocolate making) and then revision and exams... it's gonna be so fast =)

alrighty, i better go back to my work now... i will do some shoutouts perhaps after CNY, haven't do that in a while... so in the mean time, maddy sends her hugs and kisses <3

goodbye my lovelies =)

your fav act cute blogger, Kawaii Maddy

XOXO

Saturday, February 02, 2008

3 Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
4 Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.
5 Blessed are the gentle, for they shall inherit the earth.
6 Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied.
7 Blessed are the merciful, for they shall receive mercy.
8 Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.
9 Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God.
10 Blessed are those who have been persecuted for the sake of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
11 Blessed are you when people insult you and persecute you, and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of Me.

XOXO

Friday, February 01, 2008

will anyone wanna swing with me?

haha... not emo lah... was just like thinking about some stuff and some people... sometimes it's really disappointing, sometimes it's really sad...

sometimes you just try too hard to be included, until the day you just feel tired of trying too hard and just want to be alone...

Suddenly by Maddy
the sudden change i can't comprehen,
the sudden gap no bridge can connect,
the sudden akwardness no eyes can match,
the sudden silence without your voice ringing in my head...

wa wa, shakespeare moment~
sorry, just have to do that... fine, it's lame

XOXO